Many years ago, I posted about God’s Gorgeous red head.

She has kindness, empathy, wisdom, joy, roar of a lion and so much more.

I gave her and my Pastor permission to tell it to me straight, no words can express the gift they have both been in my journey.

And she has been a wondrous, joyous light that came into my life.

She can share a joke and I love it when I make her laugh, to have someone who believes in you and tells you is precious.

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH…

I have been in unspeakable amounts of pain, and other than curling up in a ball and moaning.

All else I could do is pray for the Don, and by the way, it ain’t over, the Lord will have his way, so hang on America. Whether he is in office or not, your gonna get a big shock.

Now back to why I have remained quiet, I had to come to the end of myself, by that I mean hit the wall.

After this happens, I see my spirit turn and face what I need to face and fight my way out, with him by my side. For I know I could not do it alone, I could’t think straight.

Before this happened I cried to the Lord, LOUDLY, I said, “Lord you say in your word, that YOU WILL restore health to me, YOU said you would always LOOK AFTER ME, YOU SAID IT and I demand that you do it”.

And once you do this and he gives you a way out, you gotta take it (even if you don’t see how), for if you don’t, its like slapping him in the face, and that is not something I will ever do.

I saw my emphatic doctor, who I see for the girly parts, but she is key to my healing. I have had stomach pain & back pain, I find if I eat bread or pasta or wheat, I get to feeling sickly etc and every movement is one you don’t want to do, feeling so fatigued I just couldn’t explain it before, or wanted to put it into words, for I felt I would crumble.

But he picked me up and sent in his army, so step by step I now see light at the end of what has been a very very long tunnel, finally, I felt I was hanging on by a thread.

Pain can pull you down and it did for a time, but I believed his word, I hung onto hope and thank the Lord he heard my small shout, that got bigger and bigger.

I kept demanding, I was crying out for him to help me and I believe the road I am now on, is right.

Step one tick…

On my xmas card was this simple word Psalm 27, lets break down its meaning to me:

An Exuberant Declaration of Faith

A Psalm of David.

27 The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear? (nothing, not one thing)
The Lord is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid? (he is all my strength and I am not afraid)
² When the wicked came against me
To eat^[a] up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell. (for with him, nothing can touch me)
³ Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear; (my heart is that of my father)
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident. (I am so joyous in the knowledge of the sword, the word of God)

⁴ One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life, (in this I trust)
To behold the ^[b]beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple. (this I know I am touching)
⁵ For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock. (he is doing this right now)

⁶ And now my head shall be ^[c]lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of ^[d]joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord. (this I did Xmas day, for my trust is in him)

⁷ Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
⁸ When You said, “Seek My face,”
My heart said to You, “Your face, Lord, I will seek.” (I am all in, all the way)
⁹ Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation. (I call and he, faces me and comforts me)
¹⁰ When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me. (this time in the paddock, when I had no one, he spoke to me, Lord I remind you of those words, “Bronwyn, I will always look after you” I am calling you to act now, again father)

¹¹ Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
¹² Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence. (I have come out of violence, learned to fight and breath life and healing into me again)
¹³ I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living. (I trust in him, I have believed for without him I have nothing, the land I walk on, live in vibrates with his life)

¹⁴ Wait^[e] on the Lord;
Be of good courage, (I have courage, because I trust my father)
And He shall strengthen your heart; (he is my heart, my love and all I could every desire for my life)
Wait, I say, on the Lord!

This Psalm brings up the journey I have been on since my day of conception, the day of life given to me, all of the journey to today, for tomorrow is mine and I take it with both hands) Because he loves me and I am the apple of his eye, I will have healing, I will come through this battle with joy, praise and glory from my father.

Many times in life we say the word faith, but when we have to count on it, we might not measure up.

But my faith is all in, I believe it all, I accept Jesus as my Lord and saviour, my brother, my friend and my future.

When things are not happening we think, we can take it easy, but its in these times we need to grab hold and hang on for dear life.

I might be feeling wonky and not great, but I know and trust him, I trust all of me with him.

I have given him the keys to the throne of my heart, the doors, everything, this why the enemy is trying so hard.

But, I know the battle is won already as I sit here with him, next to me, he wins because, he gets me…

Something happened on Christmas eve and they found out I was very sick internally, in emergency after my doctor begged me.

Anyway the glitch it is, by his Grace, I can still see, so far so good.

I have trusted him with my son and daughters life and now again at this time, its mine.

I cannot tell you what I have been diagnosed with (that ain’t the point), but lets just say, he will win for me.

I will not go down without a fight and I know how to fight, I will win, because my dad has me.

Loosing in not in my vocabulary, winning is, I know he has me, I have felt his presence.

He loves me and will keep me safe, but if you feel the need, battle is called, the war is on and I am at the front, set to fight to win.

The enemy hates that fact and I am so glad he does, I am so glad that my strength causes him unrest.

I am my dad daughter, I know what I am capable of, I am here to stay for eternity. And when I fight, I will use every lesson learned in my arsenal to win….

I love his Bazinga’s, his pow, right between the eyes, but if your mature, you will take it and humble yourself and bow to the king.

I do every time and every time, I feel more and more blessed.

Flip that switch people…

I have seen over this year, many leaders of nations, not stand up and speak truth.

Seeing sheer stubbornness, self righteousness, communism (not allowing freedom of speech or belief-does Hitler come to mind hmmmm) at its finest. And if you don’t like it, stop imports, who looses, you do, not us, we are in his hands and he will not fail.

When will they realise, we all live on the same planet, which we need to respect, we cannot keeping asking for more and more (there is only so much to go around), and not realise the damage we each do, everyday.

You see they forget, who put them there and who they are working for. We the people….

If you make a mistake, you own it, (or man up as the saying goes) even if its called Covid, saying your sorry and taking responsibility is your greatest strength.

Refusing to admit your errors is your greatest weakness, and your downfall. And do not try and use intimidation on anyone especially your own country, because you have no right.

But when you work and are put there by the father, then you must follow his direction and lead, he is in control not you. Trump is, even if you don’t like him, too bad, he is doing the fathers direction. If you have a problem, then maybe you need to realise, your battle is you not realising this fact.

When you get a big head and think your the best or most powerful, he shows you, you are not.

If you want to grow, thrive and be part of his sons, he will tell you what you have to do…

I recently realised, I like elegant pretty sparkly things.

I know revelation, but I do not see the need to spend so much money on them.

So, I found a bargain or three, cost $3.23, $3.10 and $3.54.

I love the fact that the value means nothing, but my value is in how something so simple can bring so much joy.

I have value in the knowledge that its not the amount spent, it never was before and never will be. I love that money has no value to me, it does not register in me.

No mansion, no label can ever take the value of the relationship between my father and me….

Not only did my father give me a gift last night, but presents that I really hoped for.

Three things, which reminds me of the three wise men, he keeps showing me this.

I wanted a Faberge egg, which I love. I also hoped for Nivea Q10 and a satin pillow case and mask.

Three things from three different people, what I love most is his thought of me, thinking of me, knowing that I am here. Fighting everyday to get stronger and do his work, having faith beyond its simple word.

Putting the knowledge into each one, what an amazing thing to happen, think about it. This doesn’t happen in the world, but it happens to me.

Why, because I trust him with my life, all of me, when I am all in, I am all in.

I am blessed to have those people around me, I am blessed to know even when a call goes out, he sends in his army.

How wonderful is that, how absolutely amazing, wonderful and humbling…if only the world knew my most treasured possession is his love….

I have said before how I was dealing with something.

Yesterday I got a step, I am taking it as a step to glory, a step to wellness, a step forward, not back.

This morning I have been praying, singing, worshipping, praising and laughing, I know this little glitch will go.

Because its his gift to me, to be healed, to stop it in it’s tracks. I have absolutely nothing to fear and I will not fear anything, I am strong and I stand on his sword.

I am going to show the doctors again, how his work is more powerful than anything they can do.

For I am his daughter, I am exceptional, I am extraordinary, I am who I am meant to be and I love him so much.

I am so thankful for all he is doing, because timing is everything.