I started to sing that song, “there’s a place for us” and yes once I let rip I can belt out that little number, I was taught by a music teacher that taught me how to do ballads & opera.

Anyway back to the important part, the words, “We’ll find a new way of living” these times where the enemy is trying so hard to shut us down, these words today ring true.

We as Christians will find a new way, to worship, to praise, to shout for joy and speak his truth. Sometimes I get snippets of things and most times I do not understand, but I trust in the process.

Its like Don, it ain’t over, I don’t know how, but I know the father will use him again, because he has no fear, his only fear is eternity and not seeing the father.

I trust that what is to come, this little jab is not it, I have a feeling that what has come before is not a touch on what is to come, I don’t know details, for me that is not important, my importance is getting back to where I was before Christmas. Before I got so sore and tired of fighting, tired of breathing almost.

But I felt this morning him drawing me back in, and for that I am so grateful.

I was thinking of my mother and how she would stop anyone by being a constant lecturer, to make them do what SHE wanted.

She had her way of thinking and that was that, she could not or maybe would not put herself in others places.

And from that, I learned how to ruffle her feathers, what her triggers were when I was young and as a grown woman, I admit it.

I remember the day I made a choice to love her and her mind set, I said to her that she always wanted a friend when she was pregnant with me. But when I chose to disagree, it was like setting light to a flame.

When she calmed down, I reminded her of her words and then backed up my, WHY. Mum I love you, for all you have done, but you did your best with what you knew, and I am not accusing you, because I agree we are a dysfunctional family, you may think it is still OK to lecture me, but as an adult, please respect if I make another choice, and it comes out the wrong choice, it is NO REFLECTION on you.

It is my decision and I thank you for your point of view, but as your daughter, trust, you have put in the ground work and I am honest, I am trustworthy and I know how to hold myself in any crowd. My home, clean or messy is because, it is now OK, the old man is not here to hurt us anymore, we can leave it and no one is to judge us.

This took great strength on my part, but there were times, I could get through and before she died she thanked me and said those lovely words, “you know I love you, I really do” and for being my friend.

So if someone is ruffling your feathers, maybe there is something like my mum that you are missing. We all do it at certain times and it takes a soft voice to get through, control is an illusion anyway, he is the only one in control.

This is for someone, not sure who…

Since Christmas, I have been struggling, struggling because it is like someone let out all the air in my tyres.

Which I know is sometimes a side of normality to me, because I have been in so much pain, I couldn’t fight anymore, but I kept thinking of the poem footprints, when you don’t see his set of prints, he is carrying you.

Christmas is hard, because of where my grown children are, one is listening to lies or as I see it puppet strings, the other I cannot even put my thoughts there. But I know the time will come, I know, because I have to believe and I saw someones prophecy and it made me cry, but also gave me hope.

Sometimes it feels like I am out on a limb and the enemy keeps shaking it to see when I will fall off, but I hang on, because I am part of that tree.

I feel sad for Don, not him personally, but the journey he has taken to follow the fathers lead, to trust in what ever way it goes and that is really hard. They keep on here about his words, but there is a way to fight that is not physical and that starts with prayer.

People in the world misconstrue things and there are those out there that will pick up any weapon, even if they are not part of the army, just to fight and let the blame fall on someone else’s head.

I pray for everyone who reads this, because the father has a plan and I trust him for whatever comes….

Many times a day you have to make a choice about something, or you just go along in a comma.

But I choose to make a difference, when opportunity arises, to choose and think what would he do, he would not just lie down and let those run over him.

What I ask is my voice be heard, I choose that when all comes against me, I will not change my mind and who gave you the right to be a bully.

If I am asked by the father to stand, then stand I will, I will use every bit of strength I have to do so.

I have never in my life taken the easy road, and I have been pressured by the meanest individuals.
But I will not cave because you threaten me, and you don’t have the right too, but the father does and will deal with you.

So I choose Jesus, I choose to believe the truth as I see it and that’s OK. I believe he created heaven and earth, I believe he died and rose again, I believe I am here to fulfil HIS plan for my life and if that threatens you in anyway, then I believe that is something you have to deal with.

Because of what I have lived through, I cannot deny him, I know it to my very core and I feel sad that you don’t have anything other than worldly pieces to hang onto.

When you have him, all value of belongings falls away, and all I want to do is scream at those wasting there life striving for NOTHING but what there physical eye can see….

Today was great because when I see myself pray for something, I pray and see my in battle, with the armour of God. I will take no prisoners, I will fight to win.

Reminder who was kept in prison for the murders but found God, what glory… persecution comes when you’ve got it right.

And today it backed up what I saw the other day, me, standing with Don, telling him to put on the garments of war, ready for battle.

I have seen a vision of the future and when I go before those who HE chooses to speak to, through me, change occurs.

Yes the past is dragged up, to make what you stand for today unimportant or of lesser value. But you grow, when you surrender, he changes everything and does it not say, in the word your country stands on.

IN GOD WE TRUST, you use the bible to swear in congress, your swear on YOUR LIFE, he says, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. If you are sworn in , you hold high every word written, its like going against the constitution, what would George Washington say, if he was here today.

Does not everything your trying to shut down, contradict the word of GOD, shows are made, and the leading line is, IT ALL STARTED WITH A BIG BANG. Well Genisis says the first pages, how it started, why are you so intent in trying to rewrite the words of God, when in Revelations it says, a warning of what will happen when you do.

So getting back to the point I am trying to make here, Don was put in office by GOD, Don has lived a life before and does it not say, he will take the fools and confound the wise. Don it seemed, may have been foolish when his spirit was more of the world, but I believe, he has given it now to God, so he is renewed.

Those of you without sin and lies, cast the first stone, NONE OF YOU CAN, CAN YOU?

He knows who is in charge and will stand and do what he instructs, and if you are so against him, then your against God and is he not, the KING OF KINGS and LORD OF LORDS.

Jesus you died for Don, you know what is written, you say to remind you, Jesus you took back the keys of hell, you have in your hands all the keys to every kingdom and you can stop this now.

So as I saw this morning, I saw the trumpet blown, a call to arms to surround Don, to not stand behind him, but beside him, together as one with the father, against all evil spoken of those who will burn in hell for eternity..

Yes you may read this and think, boy is this strong, but I felt the need and if Don reads this I hope he knows as long as he is with you, who can stand against you.

And I will stand….

Tomorrow I have an appointment, I am asking for prayer to have them listen to me and hear what I am saying.

I have printed up my concerns and I will be giving it too them.

But as you know, those who feel they are more educated than you, can think they are smarter than you.

But I know differently, so I am calling on his army, its time…

And I will not take anything less.

I was told as a young adult my grandmother was part indigenous, I am trying to find out if her words were true or valid.

I found a line and then a blog that I was able to link a missing member who is my great great great great grandfather.

I heard him say, “why don’t you search for me, as hard as you search for them” he had no need to speak loudly but I heard him and I repent, I am saddened by the fact I went quiet.

I need to get back on board, literally, I am on a diet trying to restart my stomach and I feel weak because I get frustrated at how little and tasteless I have in choices to eat.

I need to find the missing link and then I can leave it be…

Trying to unravel lies you find through one linage is not shocking to me but sad, but I must turn and search for him and get back on his path…..

Many times I hear or see people say, oh we went overseas and ended up at the temple or accept others spiritual journeys, enlightenment holidays etc.

And they do not disrespect them in any way, so why??????????????????????

Why as a christian are you trying so hard to shut me down, why is my belief so threatening to you?

What am I doing on my daily basis that affects your life?

Why am I not respected as anyone else in my opinion of my belief?

Now I may have put this same question in many different forms but really, if you do not want to listen then walk away.

But I have the right for my freedom of belief, I have the right as a level headed adult to believe and stand on my morals, values and standards.

I am willing to listen to you, so why are you not of me?

Because of what you may think you know, you are no better than me, you just think differently to me. I believe because I have seen the miracles in my life, the unexplained the miraculous the wonderful and sheer amount of love and peace I have felt even when I have felt I could not take another breath.

Yes my journey has been hard and winding, but its all mine, sometimes it is really hard to stand in the midst of what others believe I should do. Thinking of my children here, when you put up a list of pros and cons, my father wins every time.

In many ways, I see people in power as a joke, that is my personal view, because you go to court and you must hold the bible, but if you don’t believe then it is just a book.

You watch shows and in the courts on the wall it reads, IN GOD WE TRUST. Really, it is like a politician not reading and knowing there constitution, is it not the beginning, of the standard your suppose to uphold as part of your job.

Many times I have seen views so outdated, or single minded, oh the old lady sitting in church could spread the virus, what sort of church are you thinking of, and have you been lately to find out. What does the minister believe, and are they standing on the word, are they engaged in the LIVING word.

Many times I have worked in positions and given flack or thought less of, because I hold tight too, no swearing, no disrespect because of my age size or my gender or position. The fact that I do believe is private and not for the office, but I will also not stand for you putting me or my father down because of it.

All these things sound so scary, don’t they, not really, but the facts are, many around me have seen evidence of things they cannot explain, and these are people who do not believe, so maybe I am barking up the right tree after all.

BOO and be blessed.