This has been on my mind a lot, because when I was younger. To be kept quiet, I was shut down, telling me that I was lower than the gravel in the driveway. Your worthless, no one will ever love you, your dirty etc etc.
All this I know now, was words from the enemy, to stop me. One individual who would say to others, she is always wanting to be the centre of attention, this was used, when the said person wanted control, wanted to make me feel worthless. Because of a long-held jealousy towards me, I was always quiet and wouldn’t say boo. No one knew I existed until I was about 8 because I would hide.
Well I am very aware of it all now, I feel great pity, that, that person can never stand and be recognised for just being them, they have to always compare themselves and strive for what they see as never being perfect.
Well in my fathers eyes I am, it never mattered before and it does not now. But those words, stuck, they cut my heart. And I never did anything with the gift and ideas I had.
I know the father will allow what he deems important to come forth, in his right time and season.
And with that I found my peace, I TRUST him in all he has for me and with that I love him more.
We have gone just too far the other way, but I know, it’s never too late and the time will come.
For that I am sure, with faith, I believe and with all I am, I trust…