What are you made of…

Many times, I see little things erk people… And I see it as such a waste of energy.

When a battle or storm comes, I get excited, because I so often have come through, with such a joy, it was worth every step.

When I was younger, I kept saying to him,”my life is not meant to be this way” for I knew deep down, there was more for me.

I knew, I was here for greater things, but I praise him for bringing me through, being on my own has been the greatest blessing, yes it hurt, to have those close let me down.

But if I dwell on it, the enemy wins, if I use it against him by using it to Gods advantage, I win every time.

I know, if pain comes, I may call on him and cry, but I know, I am stead fast.

Many times I hear the story about Jesus in the boat and it’s rocking, they panic and say those words.

My thinking is, OK if Jesus is asleep so will I, I trust him with my life, he is not going to drown, so the message is change what you see, change what the enemy wants you to see.

Change, and trust in the knowledge that he is your greatest champion. He is the alpha and omega.

So what is the big deal… get over it and LIVE WITH JOY and knowledge in your data base…

Lean on his understanding, you ain’t smart enough, so let go, trust and smile….

Do not divert your eyes…

On Wednesday the message was clear, to me anyway, to not divert, not give up.

Because he is so worth it all, and always remember what Jesus took on himself for us, so if your life hits a patch, it’s only for a short time, grab hold of the handles with both hands for the ride. Your about to learn from it.

Yesterday someone said something to me, that filled me with such joy. The main gist of the message was, “you have had a crap life, but you are so close to receiving it all.

Why because what the enemy used for bad, I flip for good. I will not let him steal, kill or destroy me, I am here because I am a winner, I am a son or daughter of God.

My response was, thank you so much and Amen.

I can tell you from experience this, walking away, diverting the course, giving up. Gives you nothing, remember the word ETERNITY.

I can tell you the truth, when I say I have been to hell and back, and walked around like the walking dead, never feeling or letting anything touch you. This is not living, but being a victim of the enemy.

So, what I do is make fists as if I am grabbing hold of the father, and I growl, I put down what is hurting me, I step out of it and know my father has me, when I may fall. He will pick me up and keep me safe.

But as the blues brothers said, I am on a mission from God, and it ain’t over till,┬áit’s over, so hold on, for the glory and joy that comes from the other side is so amazing, I cannot put it into words.

The journey is worth every step you take, it’s about YOUR maturity and how you take it that is the message to learn.

I WILL NEVER concede defeat..I am my fathers daughter…no longer a slave…

To embrace, be open and engage

To bring on the change, that had to happen within me, I had too embrace the unknown, be open to let the father do the work and engage to receive.

These are keys that have formed within me and its been, hard to let him in. When for so long I was guarded against any hurt.

But the love from him, I knew this is what I had to do. You cannot get healing, change or restoration until you do. I am the evidence of this, I live because, I thought, he will not let me down.

Man does, he won’t, just trust him to do it, not to you, but FOR you.

We get things so confused and pick the negative first, but I always think, what would he do. What would he want me to do? these are questions that you need to ask.

If you have faith, trust and believe the word, THEN LIVE IT.

The enemy does not win, the blood is the evidence of VICTORY.

 

The new ME

Since condemnation has been removed, its like I have awakened, not knowing that I was even asleep.

Before, you have no idea, my head kept me hiding from day to day activities. A simple trip to the shop, would take a lot of mental effort to plan where I would go and what I would do.

Normally, I would pick something plain, because I would say to myself, pretty stuff is for others, not me.

The other day I saw a doona cover, it was pink and had big flowers on it, now to many this would not seem anything big. But its like, I am learning about the new me, the hidden me that I never knew before.

I feel like a rose, that was in a hard, closed down bud, but now I have bloomed and its the most beautiful feeling.

This could not have happened if it was not for my trust in the father, I said to him many times, I know it will hurt at the time, but it needs to be done. So when you feel its right, please, I give you authority to do, what needs to be done.

And how wonderful is he, to know I had come to the end of what I could tolerate inside and give him full rein.

 

Get excited, and take another step

I love the Lord with all I am, why, he broke the hold over me.

We are told we have to surrender our lives to him, which I did, but there is another level.

I had a wall, I would get to a point and this dark over shadowing wall was impenetrable, until Monday.

This came to the surface, I knew I had something that seemed so impossible, but didn’t know how to get rid of it.

I had to willingly, TRUST.

The Lord looked at me with those beautiful eyes and such concern, I looked at him and said, “Just do it” with him beside me, I know I can do anything.

I made noises that I cannot repeat, I felt this thing loosen, tentacle by tentacle. It was dark, hungry and mean.

I was shaken from from toes through my calves, and it was taken out. I trusted those around me, God’s gorgeous red head and I knew I needed to show evidence of his power of LOVE.

Before, I was so scared of meeting my husband and screwing him up and our marriage etc.

Now, I wear a ring, when I put it on, I felt I was honouring my husband to come and showing that, I feel like I love him already. (Remember I had been married before had children to someone else and never loved anyone, I had a barrier of protection).

I am now free, trust the right time will come for you. Trust in the process, trust that you are worth it all.

God bless.

Impulse, where did that get ya…

For the last few weeks the Lord has pressed upon me about impulse.

Now, when I was little, you were not given a lot of yes’s, but taught to hold on and appreciate a yes, when it came.

Now, impulse it seems is rife, kids get most of what they want and even adults, flash the credit card and get what they want.

When did living within your means stop, when did, you worked hard for the harvest and then put away for the winter. This comes to money also, you should be able to put some away, so when bills come in you have money to pay them.

We somewhere flipped a switch and go on about our day, like in a haze.

What happened, I believe the enemy came in slowly, think about it. Ads tell us if we don’t have a big house or everything new, or dress our kids in fashion, we somehow are not worth anything.

What the… sorry but let kids be kids, best cloths are for best. Don’t spare the rod to spoil the child. It says it in his word, I don’t want a big house, more to heat and cool, more on the rates, more water and would that really make me happy, hell NO.

So bring back the basics, I love the KISS principle, never hurt me and now I am so very thankful for all the training I have had to endure, because it made a real woman out of me.

I have no desire to spend a fortune on nails or cloths or trying to be someone else, I was born exceptional and I do not have to fit anyone.

Only be his bride and all will fall into place, the way its suppose too.

My daughter as an example, impulse got her inside and locked up. Not so good is it, but the enemy is defeated. No longer will he have any place in my DNA, because my father won the victory for me and her.

While she is in there she has time, to learn to trust the true father, and I say AMEN.

Mothers Day baahumbug

Now I wanted to think Baahumbug for a short time, but I chose to flip the switch.

My son, (my thought was he sucks) he never sent me a msg, but its his loss and I am not going to own it. My daughter being locked up, well that’s another part of my journey (being tested is part of my process).

Anyway, I was driven to do something for my spiritual mum, so the Lord made me think of a breakfast hamper, croissants, crumpets, bacon, eggs, avocado, tomatoes, fancy tea, etc etc. A small gift bag and a plant.

In the giving I found my joy, so on Saturday, I bought myself a pj top and another really nice dusty blue/white stripped top. I got up and decided to have a great day, and I did.

With my children, I keep my eyes on the father, because many years ago a word was given to me, don’t take your eyes off the Lord, whatever comes your way. So I hold tight, when the enemy cannot affect you, he gives up. And as I said before, Lord I trust you with their lives.

So baahumbug to the enemy, you lost again PRAISE THE LORD….