My father is so absolutely amazing, because he is helping me and changing me.

Its day 4 and my stomach is sore from the lap band, but I feel so much better.

My fatigue is lessening and that is such a blessing.

I always have to turn over packages and read ingredients but now, more than ever, I have too and I am so amazed the crap (sorry) that is put in.

Having food as a challange, I see many saying mum or dad or other family members have Dimentia.

And something keeps ringing in my head, we surround ourselves with things and build using chemicals.

I believe these leech over time and as we grow they impact on us, I so believe this to have an affect on us, we need to be more aware of things we have or use, why so much now and not then???

Think about it, it makes perfect sense…

I was thinking yesterday, how I have not missed the hype about movies and there so called stars.

I mean, if the Director and all the little gremlins didn’t do there job, you would not make the money you do and really what is the going rate, you should not be paid mega bucks for playing like a child in front of a camera.

I watch and so many seem to want to be rich, but you can never buy class and all seem to not have any or scruples.

And one thing I do not get, about Harry and Megan, she was in a TV series, she was not Nicole Kidman status, but she married a Royal then started strutting and making moves in front of the media, you could see her act or I think many are blind. As a child she wrote a letter, many do and never get deals like her and Harry puts on smiles etc, you see it don’t you, really they want to know what Harry has to tell.

Am I wrong or right…. I had to ask this question because I keep asking the father, but I know its not important to him.

I was watching something this morning and it’s interesting how you know the truth is hidden you just have to wait to see someone have the balls to say it. I am talking about America here, they always seemed to me to act like they were bigger than the boots they wore, Or more just, because they control the finances, really your debt shows something else, and people are not STUPID….

I was thinking about the Don and he said something very prophetic “be careful what you wish for” now these words may not seem much, BUT he knows more than he lets on.

And being prosecuted like Jesus, your on the money, he knows, he has played the media like a violin and only the smart ones know this. I have learned over the years you may have gone to uni, you may have a diploma but you can be uneducated in the important things that matter and this is shown over and over.

Why do people in suits think they have power, that THEY will not be judged for, I was think of past and present, people in or around the Washington capital, this does not include Don unless his pride gets in the way, and remember Don to watch because “pride comes before the fall” you must be humble all the time. Because the father matters here and you know what I am talking about, but good on you so far, it ain’t done yet…

And I still do not get why you would vote in a person, who is not what you need.

I said something once and its true, “the father gives you what you need, not what you want”. You may not see why and you may grumble, but it is true today as the day I said it.

You just gotta trust the experience you going through, he knows more than you so just trust and sometimes it not for you, but others watching you, to see how it comes out. Its good to have your feathers ruffled, birds do it for a reason, to get the bugs out.

I read and then post and realise I have a spelling error, so refresh and apologies.

I find my fingers move faster than my brain and I know what I need to say, its just spelling sometimes ain’t the most important part of the msg.

Thank you…

Many times I have written to never give up, yes sometimes you are winded, but keep going.

For he will never give up on you, he will carry you, if you cannot hear him or sense him.

Just be quiet and listen to even the softest hints.

But at the same time, shut down the enemy, as I keep saying to that voice.

I AM NOT DONE, IT AIN’T OVER and I AM NOT OUT…

And never will be.. yeehaa

Many years ago, I posted about God’s Gorgeous red head.

She has kindness, empathy, wisdom, joy, roar of a lion and so much more.

I gave her and my Pastor permission to tell it to me straight, no words can express the gift they have both been in my journey.

And she has been a wondrous, joyous light that came into my life.

She can share a joke and I love it when I make her laugh, to have someone who believes in you and tells you is precious.

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH…

I have been in unspeakable amounts of pain, and other than curling up in a ball and moaning.

All else I could do is pray for the Don, and by the way, it ain’t over, the Lord will have his way, so hang on America. Whether he is in office or not, your gonna get a big shock.

Now back to why I have remained quiet, I had to come to the end of myself, by that I mean hit the wall.

After this happens, I see my spirit turn and face what I need to face and fight my way out, with him by my side. For I know I could not do it alone, I could’t think straight.

Before this happened I cried to the Lord, LOUDLY, I said, “Lord you say in your word, that YOU WILL restore health to me, YOU said you would always LOOK AFTER ME, YOU SAID IT and I demand that you do it”.

And once you do this and he gives you a way out, you gotta take it (even if you don’t see how), for if you don’t, its like slapping him in the face, and that is not something I will ever do.

I saw my emphatic doctor, who I see for the girly parts, but she is key to my healing. I have had stomach pain & back pain, I find if I eat bread or pasta or wheat, I get to feeling sickly etc and every movement is one you don’t want to do, feeling so fatigued I just couldn’t explain it before, or wanted to put it into words, for I felt I would crumble.

But he picked me up and sent in his army, so step by step I now see light at the end of what has been a very very long tunnel, finally, I felt I was hanging on by a thread.

Pain can pull you down and it did for a time, but I believed his word, I hung onto hope and thank the Lord he heard my small shout, that got bigger and bigger.

I kept demanding, I was crying out for him to help me and I believe the road I am now on, is right.

Step one tick…