I have always had this thing over my life, making me feel I could never step up and do anything special or take a chance. And always a cloud of never open Pandora’s box.
You see, I knew there were things that were secret or not spoken of.
But on Wednesday I felt very sad, didn’t know why.. But went to church, our wonderful Pastor took us into the courts, to face what has been a burden on our lives.
I personally have been tired of carrying something, that was from my forefathers.
So, I stood in the courts, my father was very concerned about me, I said to him, “Lord I have to be brave enough to face this, it is OK”.
Wham, the accuser came in full throttle and with so much force, but what got me was the snippets of pictures. I stood agreed with him, repented for myself and who had come before me.
What hit me was, it was this that was causing so much wrong in my own children. I started to gasp and sob, it really struck me, I try to make out I am so tough, but this hit me full on. I know others tried to comfort me, but I needed to remove myself. (I was brought up tears were a sign of weakness, so I was a bit embarrassed and really all I needed was to be held.)
I was prayed for, washed myself off and came back thinking, right that’s done, what’s next? I know I am the one to break the mould, the familiar over my family, so I will face it all, for my children and their children.
With great impact it has been broken, and I know the box is gone. Now I feel like I can do anything, but the question now is what exactly.
Lord please show me what to do, what direction to go in, I need to set the right course in business and life… Amen