Last day yeehaa

Here I sit, my last day at work and I am excited.

Your probably thinking why, well it was said to me, that there are changes that are coming, changes that are positive. God knows what you are about to do, he has things for you and you will have joy unspeakable.

So he said it, I believe it, that settles it for me.

And bless my landlord, he came and cleaned up the yard for me, what a blessing.


Home to me

Last night we worked on getting this blog onto our church website. (Slight hitch will keep you updated)

I am nervous, but one thing I have learnt and this is so true. If your uncomfortable then your moving forward (your maturing and growing), I wont be letting anything stop me, from where I am supposed to be (my nerves are to remind myself, not to get a big head).

When I got home I had this song, going through my head

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There’s something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I’ve been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you’ve done

It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I’m alright ’cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there is light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I’ve waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought I’d love anyone so much

It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
It feels like I’m all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
Feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

It feels like I’m all the way back where I belong

I have highlighted the parts that really have hit me, since last night, I never felt like I was home growing up, until I walked through our church door.

I knew I was home, but to have the lord give me this. I have tears in my eyes, because of the absolute power of his love for me and mine for him.

Something has happened because of this, something beyond words. Oh my God, I have stepped forward over the threshold, I am their with him. I can feel his awesome presence here with me. Having an encounter is so beyond words, its like all the excitement you can have all at once and more. Hallelujah!

Something so simple that he started, can really be so powerful. Impact is in his hands, glory to you lord my ABBA father.

Are we awake? I want to make sure I am

On my way in this morning, I noticed the train was going slower than normal.

Four sheep were out and next to the tracks, one looked like it had a broken leg (needed to be put down). What I started to think about was no one on my carriage rang, to let anyone know. I was shocked, I got on the phone, once I got to work, to let them know to go out and rescue these poor creatures.

Having a moment:  Why do the same people think someone else will do it. That is my one beef, wherever I am, people just go about their day and do what they deem to be important. And leave the cleaning up, for the same people time and time again. I don’t care whether your busy or not, you have to put some effort in. I am busy too, but I put it aside, to help out.

Jesus sees all, he knows I will humble myself and do what I have to do, when I have to do it. Yes, I admit that I do not like being left with the chore, time and time again. But I know I can be counted on, to do it properly and he sees that.

It  just seems like people are asleep to me, they take, no notice and I don’t think they really care.

But while I have a heart and eyes, with two hands and two feet that work. I will make sure I am awake, regardless of what people think.

Memory: I remember at high school, I did not bow to peer pressure their. I thought to myself, how dare they think they can order me around, they will not be paying my wage. One girl even threatened me with violence, I said to her, “if you’re gonna hit me,  you better make it good” she stopped and said to me, “what do you mean?”. I said to her, “hitting me is called assault, I wont just go to the principal, I will make sure your charged, so if you’re gonna do it, you better make it good, because you will get one chance and one chance only”. I confronted a bully and she backed down, growing up with violence you become intolerant to it.

I made sure I was awake then and I will not become conditioned to think another way.

I am with the minority of Jesus, I am extraordinary and I will try to think how he thinks. I will stand up for myself, I will go out of my way to help and I will be heard.

I have been put here to fulfill my destiny and by God I will do it, with everything I have.

Go for it, get charged up. Wake up and get excited.

I have been reminded by him

On Sunday night I was in prayer and the lord, showed me 4 stakes at the corners of the town I live in.

He stood in the middle and as I kept praying, it was like, he was backing up my words.

Light was pouring out of him, to fill the void.

I kept saying to any demonic spirits to get out, you have no place here, get out in Jesus name. I took authority and gave the order.

And he agreed with me, they were jumping out like grasshoppers. They leapt in fear, to get away.

Yahoo, then we had another lighting storm. Which is a sign of them leaving, yahoo again is all I can say.

FYI, and a rainbow is the sign of Gods promise. He keeps his word, do you.

I am jealous of him

I realized something last night, God always says, he is jealous of me and will protect me.

Well I can honestly say, I am jealous of him and I want to protect him. I can feel his yeehaa of glee, as I type this.

I wonder if anyone else has felt that way, probably they have.

If someone disrespects him, that affects me, I feel his pain and sadness, I feel his smile and laughter.

And I don’t want to ever lose that, it’s just, so very special to me.

We have a special bond and that I treasure.

So lord be blessed today and know I am here for you always.

Sending kisses to heaven, all my love Bronie

I know in my heart what choice I have made

What I mean by that, I cannot change those around me, or make them think the way I do.

Yes I can pray and believe, but if they waste this time, that we have left, then I cannot change or control that. It is up to them and them alone, this includes my children.

When the time comes, I know I can turn and walk with my father, even if this means turning and leaving them. This is not in any way harsh, but fact.

There is a time coming, this I know more than anything else.  A time when, we will have to either turn to the father and be in the boat, or think we can save them, by staying.

You cannot stay with a sinking ship, you are not the captain. Regardless of how you feel, you must make the choice now. There are no second chances, your either getting in, or you will be left on the shore.

I know the choice I have made, yes I have faith and I will keep believing.

But I feel my father must know the answer now. I have made my decision, think hard and make yours.

I wish, I could do more..

I am a little wary of helping homeless people. Reason is every time I do they disappear, not in a good way either. I watch to make sure they are really homeless, not just getting extra cash off people.

So my friend at the train station, was their this morning looking a little wet.

I did have an umbrella, but mine broke some time ago and I havent yet replaced it. So being prepared as always, I had a poncho for the rain in my spare room.

By the time I got to the station, I asked him if he would like it. He nodded, so I left it for him. I thought to myself, I don’t have far now to run to work and I will dry off eventually.

I find we shouldnt just expect them to take what ever we offer, but ask if they would like it. To me that is showing them respect and not just as another person.

To me it seems like a very small gesture, but I do wish, I could do more.

But then again, I have to let the father lead me.

How strong are you?

My train was delayed this morning, so I had a lot of time to think.

The lord keeps saying, that he looking for people to stand in the gap. To stand when all hell breaks loose, to not be moved, but to just stand.

I am getting to know what strength, Jesus has put in me. I know I can stand, yes there may be tears shed, but I will stand no matter what.

Pure determination dictates this, and I am one determined woman. My life so far, may have been a challenge, but with that, I have found my strength.

I said to someone once, “God ain’t a pussy and neither am I”.

I didn’t mean anything bad by that, I just meant that he is strong and so will I be, when I am needed. I have been made of tough stuff, so why not use it for his good.

I know when he calls, I will find out how strong I am.