I have had the most debilitating pain, I have a bulging disc, degeneration etc etc.

The more I seek him, the more the enemy tries to stop me.

Well guess what, I will not be stopped.

I am making this statement as final.

Father I come before you, I put my petition before you. I agree with what the accuser has against me (as it says to agree quickly). I am yours working towards being a son in the house, as stated.

I will not stop, I know this has tried to come on me, and used to stop me from moving towards you. The tenacity inside will not, allow me to cease from coming through the narrow way. This will only make me stronger and more determined. I am a tither, I ask for the release of the pain, now in the name of your son Jesus.

I am confessing father, right now as I know your the only one to be able to release this from me. I thank you and bow before you out of respect to you and I stand and await the verdict. Amen

Yesterday I was chatting to someone, again where has the magnitude of what Jesus went through and what our father did for us, dwindle.

We need to get it back, we need to continually humble ourselves, so we are in the right place.

I said these words, nothing compares to the love I have for him.

I love both my children, but they have to respect me. They need to be informed before they get all high and mighty. Within the people I grew up with, their point of view had to be your point of view and if you didn’t you became their enemy.

This is a very confused way to live, I realised that what went on around me, was not normal at all. But if I did not see what needed to change, then I would keep it going and I made a decision long ago. I will break this thing over the family, and those words are so true.

My son had seen a transformation in me, but last I saw him. He was very inverted and couldn’t see the leaves for the trees. I know, he has to get it in his own time, I can still love someone even if I don’t agree.

I accept that many might view my blog and not get what I am saying, that’s OK. Others may get angry, because they don’t know.

For many years, I saw myself as stuck, I felt there was so much more. I could not understand why I could not move forward, I felt like I had to sit and just do.

But now I know, when I pray, he shows me, if you think God or Jesus or even the word is just a book. Your so under estimating the magnitude of what is available, if you seek the kingdom of God.

I know I must remember I don’t know it all, but I also know I can have judgement here today, not when I go. And by the way, I am not going to die, once I get the 3rd strand of DNA. I am here for good, I always felt that if Jesus can do it and I can be a son like him, then I don’t or won’t die.

So many times the old way of doing things gets in the way, when you have seen the sea of glass, the tree of life and the waterfall coming from the throne.

Nothing compares, and no I am not off my rocker. I am soaring, I am experiencing him more and more.

I believe it is always best to remember when you were humble, to remember as often as you can what he has done for you.

Sometimes, when things are going well, we go off getting all proud and full of ourselves. Then we wonder why, we fall so far.

It seems so obvious to me, remember who is in charge. Remember just how small you are in the scheme of things.

And always know your place, we forget that each of us have to get it in our own time.

Sometimes the Aussie ocker in me comes out, it makes me laugh, because it also reminds me of how far I have come.

And sometimes, just being able to be me, is treasured. I am not saying I behave a certain way, then another.

What I am saying is, to me, its OK to be funny sometimes. I remember when I was young feeling like the breath was being squished out of me, because I didn’t have a voice.

Well I am me, my dad is changing me to what he wants, in time and that’s OK.

And I love to make people laugh, even when I hear myself, I laugh right along with them.

The other day I had to go have a blood test, now sometimes I have a knowing that I am not their for me. But he has people strategically placed.

This lady was their and we had a chat while waiting, I told her about how the father saved me, when I had a mass.

By the time I was to leave, her and I walked out together, I said to her, have a lovely day, gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

You know, when its not you, but him.

You see, I had to go when I felt it was time. I had to be listening, and that is something we forget to do.

I see some adults doing the, I want, but what about what he wants from you. A little thing can have such a huge impact.

Trust is my guide, let it be yours.

Engage, encounter and participate…

Now this may seem just words to some, but to others a daily quote.

I have been praying, asking, searching, then listening, watching, waiting and its time.

On Wednesday someone said to me, what I needed to know, for some time now, I have seen things, felt things and had a knowing.

I am here, I know what I am to do, what a gift. I am not getting prideful or disrespectful.

But I am on a mission and part of my calling in the harvest I say daily is, I call in fulfilling my mandate, destiny and plan.

For the Lord is here to help me, father God knew me, before I was in my mothers womb. At that time I made a decision to surrender to him, submit myself to him.

Their is no other way, but him all the way. You see their is no choice to make, for the narrow path is my only option.

Living without him in my life, is no life at all. So I take up the whole armour of God and step forward to what I am destined to do.

Be blessed, its spring and the suns out, so go out and live, live the life he has destined for you.

You will be blessed beyond imaginings.