It brings me joy, every time someone comments about my handbag, every time someone asks where I got it.

Well, now a shop wants to see them, and I need a car for that.

My most wanted part is that each unique bag, goes to the right woman. The woman, who I don’t know, but as I have put all my love into, sees it falls in love and appreciates all the hard work, time and beauty I put into each one.

I am hoping that once I can get back to my physio and then sew the lining together and hand stitch it onto the bag, I sew one line and rest, but I believe things will change.

I have to believe, because it says, if you believe you then receive. So, I am stubbornly holding onto that, my brain gets all entrepreneurial with ideas, and I laugh and say my body will not co-operate, but IT MUST COME INTO LINE. By his stripes I am not maybe, I am healed.

Then I think, if I made these bags on mass, they wouldn’t be what I want them to be, is rare and unique for each woman, who then brings home a little love. Not mass produced, not paid through the nose for the same thing or I have to be bold here and say mine are so much better. The quality is there, they stand above others, because they have something others don’t.

God’s input and I love they are each named, no one has a copy. They are original just like the artisan maker lol.

Be blessed and smile…

It’s funny how things take place, when you trust the father.

Like today, everything has fallen into place, literally in place.

I cannot make this up at all, but when my dad steps in, he works beautifully.

And to you who really know, we have to agree with this, I love his work.

Because I am so close to my next car, I wanted information on certain aspects, so I am great on the phone. I can ask, the most of the wall questions, because I really need all the information to make an informed decision. I need to cover all the bases and then act, instead of jumping in ahead of time and what time has taught me is wisdom.

I have paid a deposit, the guy said congratulations, but I stopped him, and said, “no no, not until it sits in my driveway, then we woohoo”.

It has been a blessing because of what has gone on, and I haven’t been out of the house. But when the father works, all things work together for my good.

Trust is a hard thing to grab hold of these days, because not many people you can trust, but my dad, I trust him, he knows I am happy and humble. With that he can do marvelous things, and this is how I go about it.

I sit down and think, right girl what do you need and then what would I want. These are two very different things and must be put in place, then I write a list, putting on it all I would like and talk to him in the process.

Then I say to him, right Lord, I am happy with my decision, now I trust you to find it and send in your cavalry to help me. And he has done just that, everything will work out, when you trust him and even if all seems okay and last minute it doesn’t. To me it just means something I don’t know that he does is not right and he has something better.

And even though your human brain thinks maybe not, I try and remove that and say, dad has it right, trust and just find the joy.

When you remove all the crap brain thoughts and let it be, it all falls into place easily and wonderfully.

So, today if I can grant you anything, just don’t be in a rush, don’t go in haste and be wise, then the biggie, TRUST HIM.

Yesterday, I learned my neighbours were moving.

Today, my friends, son’s car was removed from my shed.

The last three weeks I was really sick, two things at once, even went to look at a car, but as we pulled up outside, it had just sold. So, onto the next option the father has for me.

But so, looking forward to having wheels again, having independence and being able to get out when I need to, delivery has been awesome, but it’s time.

I am getting my shed back, I will then be able to clear my home of all the excess, yay. I am even considering selling my extra beds. No one stays anymore, so it may be time to just keep one.

Well, see, but it is giving me a better outlook on what is happening next in my life, I am quietly excited.

But the search continues, yesterday I came very close to having my next car, but I was feeling very yuk.

I have had problem with my Asthma over the fire season, being dry etc and it felt like a ten-tonne elephant has been sitting on me. It had zapped my energy, and it was really hard to cope, but after seeing the doctor, the medication I soon remembered why I steered clear of it.

But here I sit after the body reaction, and I am able to manage again.

There were things that I did not know, but I was second in line and that was close, I learned what I need to do next time. We all live and learn along the way, when I lived in the country a car would sit for ages. Here bam, its gone, that is really quick, I keep forgetting the amount of people I am surrounded by.

Last night, I started to feel old, slow and just out of my depth, then after a little cry, I thought hang on a minute, if it was meant to be, God would have made a way for me, with no limitations in the way.

As I sit here typing away to anyone who wants to listen, God has something more and I cannot give up. I just have to listen. I am very prepared, that is something I have on my side, I am organised as I have always thought of many situations and learned over the years to be prepared and not go into something half cocked.

I saw some other cars, low milage, but something didn’t feel right and other than not liking the safety of charcoal or black cars, I am very open to any colour. It’s funny but every time I see a bright green car, I feel happy, it’s like a little burst of joy.

Keeping my eyes peeled and my friends and mechanic who make me feel so blessed to have, is really reassuring.

But thinking on that note, if anyone would like to pray for my next car, I have written a list of wants and needs. And I know my dad will help me, now I have a better understanding of what I have to do.

Be blessed, have a great day and don’t forget to find the joy…

Every time someone I know sees me, they do the same thing, oh that’s a shame about your car.

I look them dead in the eye and say this, no it’s not, it is a blessing, because he has given me time.

Time to change my attitude, time to find what he has that is better than I could think for myself.

And time to show others, what is the right way, his way of thinking and reacting.

So, instead of the negative, I grab hold of the very utmost positive it has been for me.

Now, let’s dive into this, because I know what works, and expecting something really does work.

Something someone wise told me, many years ago. If your pregnant, you have an expectation, that by the end you’re going to have a healthy and happy baby. YES…

So, when you want something so strongly to happen, you need to also be pregnant with that expectation and hold it, like a baby in your womb.

You speak it out, you pray, and you sit in that positive pregnancy. Now, some may think this is a daft way of thinking and those wise enough will get the message.

I sit here and I have two big expectations, so twins are due, lol. It will come to pass, because I have that expectation and every time I think of it, I will say out loud, father, you know what I have asked for, I will say it and how I have the expectation of it’s delivery.

I’m excited for it to present itself, so do you want to be expecting… if your wise you will grab hold of this.

Like the knowing and expectation of the written word, I know the words are real, I know and believe in everything that Jesus has done and is going to do and what is to come…

Get excited people…

A lot of the time, I don’t look at myself as anything at all, then something takes place and it happened recently.

I have been looking for another car, to replace my old worn out one, as I started looking a friend who is really good at finding cars offered to also keep his eyes peeled. Then this happened, I rang my mechanic who knows me, and I told him about what was happening, because my old car sits with him. He told me the cars to look for that are rarely in his shop for fixing.

Then we chatted some more and he said to me, that when I find one, try and get one not to far and he will look it over for me, so I don’t get a dud. Now when he said that I was really moved, and I thought to myself, hang on, I must be a really nice person, if that just happened.

I am always thinking like this when I interact with people, I want to be kind, because what would Jesus do. Then, I always think I would like to have honour, respect and honesty done unto me, so I stand by that.

And this I know, what you give out, you get back in loads of ways.

I now have an expectation, that my car will come soon, that it will be at God’s price and it will be the best he has for me.

Instead of just hoping or taking a risk, I trust him, I trust that he will help me every step of the way, why because I know he has me and I trust in that, I have turned it all into expectation of greater things to come.

Keeping this one short, I was working on something, little by little and keeping it as something that is important to do.

It says to shout with joy when you get a bill and its paid.

Well, I kept doing this and used extra funds to put down as credits, and my last electricity bill came in 0.00

Yes, that is right 0 yahooo

I notice things have a pattern, things that others do not.

Like in Alaska the weather has been colder than ever before, here we had 42c day, the fires were burning the country and mountains, and I had to hide inside because smoke affects my breathing (asthma).

I find when we have weird weather you can see the other side will have the complete opposite.

But, as we might complain, we still will get in our petrol guzzling cars and big wasteful vehicles, because we are designed to be manipulated by ads.

I am saying when here, but when I have the money for a brand-new car, I will still look for a used one. Why, because I was taught it’s not about you can, it’s about should you.

So many get into debt and then spend lives trying to pay it off, because they want it now, instead of waiting for the right time, his time.

I know myself; I have had times I would have bought and spent and wasted, when there was no need too. To me it’s not about having a Bentley in the driveway, or owning a mansion, it’s about what do I need, what fits the purpose for me now.

I live in a humble little home, and I love the place, the wide street, watching as the years go by and seeing people move in and out of homes. Buying something bigger to spread out, but a couple of years they have too much space because the kids have gone and they are paying off a huge mortgage, instead of just making do, until they are all gone.

You see, I love a house that has a life lived by a family, how things have changed, walls were painted, rooms were adjusted, but still all those walls have a story to tell. Telling of the sad times, the fun times, all those Christmas’s when the house felt like it was bulging.

I watch a man who dresses in his worn track pants and t shirt, he is a multi-millionaire and drives a Mercedes. He still lives in the same house, with his wife and family, he could buy a new pair and get a haircut, it’s what I think every time I see him.

It’s funny how we see things, I see dry riverbeds in new estates, and where not to build, I can appreciate them and wish the owners well. I know what I need and that all must come after my father, not before and definitely not before time.

Time has its own pattern, its own rhythm and locking into that grove is where I belong, everything to come this year father, I receive with joy….

This week has been action week, I am waiting on my new cpap machine, I have been saving extra hard to make sure I get one. So, I can return the borrowed one from the hospital and someone else can get it.

But also, a transition car, I have been looking at Volvo’s because the seats look amazing and with my back, I need amazing instead of so uncomfortable.

I am thinking of putting up a sign, free stuff and putting all my extras outside, but I would also like to pass them onto domestic violence place, because when we had to leave, I did think of others and how they cope when they need to exit without taking anything but themselves.

When I do something, I think of every avenue, why, because when you have all options laid out and you have done all the research, you can make the best decision.

It has just hit me again; I am not limiting myself to a brand or a level of something that I don’t deserve. When you are his child, you deserve anything, and everything all at the same time.

Looking ahead to far greater expectations of things and more.

NOTE: My children have their birthdays today one is 37 the other is 35 omg, so amazing that I remembered, and only because yesterday I was buying meat and checked the date on my phone. lol