The truth will set me free

So many lies have been told, so many empty words.

But as I sit here I know one thing, I will not be condemned for my past.

So many have thought they knew me, but really they only know what they want too.

I am a really nice person, I have not got a mean bone in my body.

What I do have is tenacity, when I know beyond any doubt I am right, I will make a stand.

That is not a bad thing, I was reminded of when I was young, my mum would always speak for me and answer anyone. I remember a lady came to our house when I was 8 and thought I was a visitor, no one ever saw me unless at school. It was safer that way.

I was shown how I always would automatically say yes, but inside scream NO. But I was really quiet, now I am not, but only when its required.

I am writing this thinking about things, its funny you grow up learning from watching, but what if you don’t see things, I never saw my mother have any friends it was not allowed.

I never knew her to keep in contact until her last years because she never was around it. I know some things I do is because I never knew how.

But you know what, I am here when required and in this weird time, I find I am not alone. So I do not feel lonely, I don’t miss hugs because I never got one.

So when your feeling  certain things call on him, keep busy.

I finally finished something I started 35 yrs ago. Be safe be smart and do not disdain his instruction.

Given a gift

On Saturday morning I was given a gift that made we weep like a child. Here is why

Psalm 17

1 Hear a just cause, O Lord,
Attend to my cry;Give ear to my prayer which is not from deceitful lips.(The tears I have shed, just feeling the pain of what has come in the past. In my innocent time, when I pray with such an innocent heart)                                                                                                Let my vindication come from Your presence; Let Your eyes look on the things that are upright. (How many times has others words, when it comes from there own insecurities have attacked me. Wanting the truth to come out)                                 You have tested my heart; (Tested me, when my own children have been used against me and I have not moved from his presence)You have visited me in the night; (I have asked for him to hold me and he has)You have [a]tried me and have found [b]nothing; (He has tried me and found, how much I love him)I have purposed that my mouth shall not transgress. (When I could have said something and stayed quiet)                                                                                                                                  Concerning the works of men,

By the word of Your lips,
I have kept away from the paths of the destroyer. (When the word would arise from within me and I knew what was trying to get me off the path)                              Uphold my steps in Your paths,
That my footsteps may not slip. (What ever comes, I must stay the course)                            6 I have called upon You, for You will hear me, O God;

Incline Your ear to me, and hear my speech. (I know he has heard me, because the response is immediate)                                                                                                              Show Your marvelous lovingkindness by Your right hand,
O You who [c]save those who trust in You
From those who rise up against them. (He has shown his loving, kindness, when times are tough)                                                                                                                                    Keep me as the [d]apple of Your eye;
Hide me under the shadow of Your wings, (He has done just so and to say these words to me)
From the wicked who oppress me,
From my deadly enemies who surround me. (He is my shield)

10 They have closed up their fat hearts;
With their mouths they speak proudly. (This is personal but true)                            11 They have now surrounded us in our steps;
They have set their eyes, crouching down to the earth,
12 As a lion is eager to tear his prey,
And like a young lion lurking in secret places.

13 Arise, O Lord,
Confront him, cast him down;
Deliver my life from the wicked with Your sword, (This is the time, I know he is doing something major to those who have tried to stop me)                                                    14 With Your hand from men, O Lord,
From men of the world who have their portion in this life,
And whose belly You fill with Your hidden treasure.
They are satisfied with children,
And leave the rest of their possession for their babes.

15 As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness;
I shall be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness. (wow and wow)

He knows the pain I have gone through recently that, who’s words were cutting but so untrue and something that was said about them, not me.

I have prayed that the truth comes forward, because a lie from evil lips can do so much damage.

But I know my dad has my back and if that is my only negative then I accept it but I will not apologise for it either.

I am who I am, I am loved and love the Father, for that I am guilty.

I will stand by those words…

He is risen

You know only at Easter do I think people get charged believing that he rose again.

What he went through for me, who was yet to be born, but to be born for such a time as this.

If I crumble now, I go back on the contract I agreed too. Before there was even an earth, when you agree with a contract, that is it your locked in.

So what ever is coming and trust me, I have seen people burning churches to try and stop us, I saw myself wondering around saying to one person.

‘That is only a building your burning, church is within me, if you kill me, it will still not stop, for you cannot stop the will of God.

Do you see, there is nothing to fear, but please pay attention.

As I sit…

I sit here wondering, are any of so called God’s people ready to stand.

If man threatens to take you out, will you stand for him and crumble.

I watched someone and its what I know, when this virus started, I payed attention but only to follow the rules.

Did I fear, NO, I fear God and his anger, not the world.

I laugh, I find joy, I find my trust in him for I have faith in knowing my dad will have my back.

So as I sit here, this is his question to you, are you ready? For its time, do not be moved by what you see, know my word, for you are in HIS hands.

How words have power

You know, time and time again it amazes me, how simple words can have such power and most do not take it in.

You see I have a knack, that I always use, I get something, know just how powerful the words are and download into my body, my database.

And I draw on it, when it is required.

This week I have felt so much love pouring from my fathers heart and then I got a call, and those words just made my cup runneth over.

So, if your thinking of someone, let them know, take his love and pour it out and let someone else’s cup run over.

Sending much love to all.