i am working again from my sons IPAD loving it but have not got all the control of the normal set up.

My son and I had a discussion about that young boy who was a suicide bomber for Isis. I know he was a loner, but I made the point of what I did when I was at school.

As a teenager my mother said you have the power, so when I got what she meant I took charge. I made point of talking to the quiet ones, the shy ones who were picked on. Really what did I have to loose, i was brutally honest saying I had no interest in going out with them. But I wanted to get to know them and there interests what made them tick. Because I wanted to change the atmosphere and show by example, that we are all the different in some way.

But it as I have said to some who get all racist, do you think God sees you because of colour? No he doesn’t, he sees you. The one who has private thoughts and feelings, the real you.

You may have noticed I love that, well better go feed my sons cat. Be blessed.

i have just come home from the hospital. He came through, now I am praying the swelling doesn’t happen as they always say 24 to 48hrs.  Thank you so much if you prayed for him, I always go back to if two or more pray in his name he must act  yahoooi

I didn’t realise how much he hates being touched. To bad he got 3 kisses from a tears mum, I was crying because the sheer overwhelming knowledge that my father took charge, I really don’t care what people think.

I love my son, so very much as I am sure any parent does but because he is my miracle, I get all mushy. But I nearly lost him when I was 3 months pregnant and various other problems. When he was born and the cord was cut he didn’t breath for 7.5mins.

I have all this love, my daughter is another matter she isn’t big on hugs either. Hmmmm where did I go wrong?

Well lord again I thank you and let me decree that if you have a husband for me, he has to like the odd cuddle ( and I don’t mean sexual) just to hone in on my point.

I have to laugh now, but over the break I have been in contact with the local Police 3 times.

Yes I was a good girl, its seems that others around where I live are not so good.

Gun shots, broken windows and arguments.

What did I do, gave them all the information I had to give. I have nothing to fear, I grew up around fear and fear will not control me.

I know this has been tried this year, I could feel it in my waters and I knew. I laugh because, they do not know who lives in my house.

My father will not fail me, I trust him with my life. The devil will not scare me, I have not only law on my side but his law.

And as I always said, I will not go quietly. I am not stupid in any way, I just stand up for my rights to live the life he has given me to live and to be able to step on snakes and scorpions.

So take that devil, yeehaa

Sometimes I may appear to have strength and other times I do not.

Having felt like the good year blimp, as I have said before, men never really saw me.

Lately I have had doors opened for me, they seem to be going out of their way to start-up a conversation. Its funny I have looked at them as if to question, why are you talking to me? Then the light bulb has gone on and I go Oh ok, it’s really weird, I freaked out the other day (In my head). Had to go look myself to see what others are seeing.

I keep thinking that I am his daughter and the right man he has already planned, just be nice but not overly friendly or flirtatious. It’s really hard, because before, I didn’t feel like a woman or feel comfortable in my own skin. Its weird even last night in bed I felt my side and realized my two rolls have gone.

Its like knowing the person you have been all along inside and the outside is finally coming into line. It’s like being reborn and lucky enough I am still young, but one of my personal wishes is to feel pretty. Yes its fine people tell me than when I put on makeup I am really attractive, but there is a difference to being told and feeling it.

Oh lord give me strength, I am struggling with this I will not lie. But I know what is coming so I am surrendering to the process.

Be blessed

This is something that has been on my mind lately, I love the simple things.

Drying herbs over the summer to fill up the jars instead of spending money where it’s not required. Making pickles, growing veggies, reusing something and not just throwing away because its convenient.

I think all the time at the money I save on a daily basis, he says “that how can I entrust in you the kingdom if you are not a good steward”. And remember the part about not throwing pearls before swine’s.

It pays to think about this, yes when I was younger I wanted it all and on my terms. But lately I want to stick to the basics, even in cooking. Yes its lovely to have a nice meal, but sometimes things are just beyond sensible.

I can make a meal to feed four, for under 10 dollars with left overs, today everything is so convenient we are set up to spend more than is required to do. Buy a coffee and cake money down the drain, come around I will make you one and fresh scones or cakes for free.

My question is have we been programmed to think a certain way that we forgot the basics? I have been asked several times but if you had a million you would wouldn’t you? My answer is NO… I want to keep it simple, my joy is sharing my crop giving to others and sharing my time. We are taught to buy dishwashers, every appliance under the sun. But are you happy, I am so happy I feel delirious some times.

I could have married a very rich person, he thought more of me because his money couldn’t buy me. Respect is something you have to earn and is a simple thing, just like loyalty.

I am having a moment of reflection.

It’s a question to ask yourself, am I ready for what is about to happen?

I believe this year is going to be extra ordinary in my life, a pivotal moment that will direct the rest of my days.

We can get set on just going along at a steady pace but then some things can transform us and yes I believe that it’s about to happen to me.

I was speaking to someone and I have to say a lot of us are listening but do not open up to let change happen.

If you’re not willing then he cannot use you, even if I don’t really feel ready or want something to happen, I at least surrender to the Lord’s will.

You must do this to be able to take the next step, I know of people who are still going along but its on their terms.

Do we really think that this is right, if so (are you nuts) remember this is my point of view here. So many think they know best but really are you so right, that you can never be wrong.

It pays to think about things, I always think about things happening either with me or around me and I know I have to change and look outside of the picture because so many can just react, wisdom comes with time.

On Sunday it was a great word.

We forget sometimes that Jesus was a normal man until he was 30 years old. He was just the carpenter’s son, to everyone else.

Then the right season came and he was then filled with the holy spirit, he became extraordinary, he was not just the carpenter’s son anymore.

That is the same with us, when we surrender and build in the spirit we can become extraordinary.

I always say to people if they say to me, you are not like everyone else. NO I am not, I am my father’s daughter and I was born this way, as I always say, ‘I was born extraordinary and I am not apologizing for that’.

My father has me here for HIS purpose, it’s up to me to wait for the right season and do what I must do.

As Mary said, “Let it be done unto me”. As it is his will, that I am where I am, strategically placed for what is to come.

I have been looking at things and reflecting on myself.

So waiting to see if the Lord has a man for me. I am my worst critique, which can be too much thinking on my part.

I think to myself, check list, I can cook rather well, clean, honest, trustworthy. Good honest friend, not bad-looking dressed up. So what is it that attracts your mate?

I know too much thinking, but when I see others married and what they are like with each other. I feel I am missing something or maybe not worthy, yes I am feeling down on myself which is not good at all.

Oh Lord again what is wrong with me, maybe too much time on my own. I don’t know, I will leave it to my father and maybe have a heart to heart with a friend.

Much blessings.

Its funny I told have to be told twice, selling is great.

My children have several items, I need to speak to them or just place there items in a tub for when they visit.

I was desperate to get into my shed, having been able to bless people over time ended up limiting my own use.

But now, action stations, clear out the old to bring in the new.

Oh I hope it sells quickly, I am amazed at how liberating it is.