I was thinking on the train this morning about the journey of my life.

How their have been the highs and lows, but how his path is their to build me as a person. To what, I AM YET TO BECOME.

If you never feel any of the dips, turns and paths, then how can you know or understand.

I look back and what strengthens me, is when I know that a certain part of my life, was not meant to happen (and this he has told me). It has shaped me more than any other, he feels my pain and understands. He comforts me with that message, more than anyone can.

My life has shaped the person I am today, I can see why it’s happened, how the devil has tried to knock me off (even tried to kill me), knock me down, to try to get me, to give up. What have I done to move past this, even in the happy times, I cry out to the lord, he is my shield and sword.

He is always their to share the happy times and the sad. Being a parent and going through the challenges, I understand him so much more. He is always their beside you, in everything you do, he just wants you to get the KEYS and use them.

He brings people into your path, for you, to grow. When you get it, you will be able to soar on eagles wings, how fabulous is that.

Note: Last night I went into prayer, I was weeping and prophesying. It was so powerful, I don’t know what it was about but let me tell you no earthquake, flood, fire or disaster has come close to what is about to hit the earth. We are definitely in the end times and I am so glad he has given me the strength to stand, in the midst of the battle.

I prayed for everyone to be given a chance when they realize the truth, that he gives them mercy. I was on the ground laid out, but I felt the victory, remember the battle happens in heaven before it happens on earth.

Thats why you fight with everything you have, you have to push into the unseen, always remember that.

I know its hard, I know sometimes you wish you could just block it out. You cant it’s not going away (you cannot be as a child and think if you close your eyes and it’s not there), so what I will do is FIGHT for my father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.

Deliver us from evil, for thine is the power and the glory, forever and ever.’AMEN

He just had input, glory be to God.

Many years ago I lived in a small country town.

My children’s aunt and I were rather close, she lived out-of-town on a small farm. One day she decided to take me around onto a different road. The scenic way for something different, I cleaned her house, ironed and baby sat her children for extra money. Her daughter had bad asthma and because I knew what to do she felt at ease having me around.

I just said out of the blue, I think I should move to Melbourne. She was shocked and said something that I cannot remember.

What was amazing about that day, once I said it, I heard music that was from heaven, the angels were playing flute and harp. I cannot describe it, but it is like nothing on earth. It is absolutely the most beautiful sound you could ever wish to hear.

That was the day I knew I was meant to go. What was funny 7 months before moving day, I had the urge to pack. So I just started, gathering boxes and packing the things I never used. I didn’t know why but I just obeyed, people said to me are you moving? I honestly said, I don’t know.

When the time was right, I was down the street, then all of a sudden I had a thought, I wonder what it takes to sell a house. I walked straight into the real estate, my house was old and needed painting on the outside which actually needed it when I bought it 11 years earlier. I said to the guy, if it sells I know I am meant to go, if not, then I don’t. He said I was the most unusual person he had ever met, I am extraordinary because I am the daughter of the king of kings. (Which I didn’t know at the time, but how wonderful he had my path set even then)

In 28 days it sold and when the guy came to view my house, I knew he was going to buy it, he made an offer, then I asked for another thousand. Again didn’t know why, but he came back with how about 500 so I said sold.

That was in 2002 am I have never looked back. If you are willing to move when he prompts you then every step you take towards the destiny he has for you, can surprise you in every way.

Something beautiful happened one night without me suspecting a thing.

When I first started going to our church we went to a ladies meeting at night, I was very green, new and nervous, shy.

We sang and worshipped then the Pastor asked if anyone wanted to be filled with the spirit. I didn’t know and was too scared to step forward, but one person who was closer to me pushed me forward (so happy, now that she did).

I stood there and was asked, do you want to be filled with the spirit, I nodded not knowing what could happen. Then I said, inside myself as they were praying for me, Lord I don’t know what to do, Lord help me please. He said, just breathe me in, a what came to mind, so again he repeated, breath me in.

I started breathing so deeply, I felt like a flat tyre that was being given air. I could not have anticipated what happened but to hear him again was priceless.

Again I was willing enough to step outside of my limitations and received him.

If I am asked what church I go too, everything in me wants to shout, I go too, my fathers house.

On Sunday a speaker we know was at another church, about 20 mins from where I live. So off we go, all people were very welcomed.

What struck me is he went on about when you say this is, your fathers house, then you are open, you cannot sin or swear. You have to live like you are in the fathers house. Awesome, that is exactly what I want.

I know if I don’t live his way and be subject to correction then I cannot advance into his kingdom. That is one part of growing up, to grow you have to be corrected, to move into maturity. Some lessons are hard and you have to honour your earthly parents, if you don’t, how can you honour God. You have to start at the beginning or that will come back to cause problems. I know that, I have to take each step with caution and be aware of all I have to learn.

extra: The lord just reminded me of when I first gave myself and was baptised (what a day) at the time. God had me going up the ladder, in spirit I saw a staircase to him. Every step was clear and when I accomplished that level, I took another step, what made me laugh is, it lite up and I would hear this ding like an elevator opening each step was vast and I knew I had to put the work in to advance. Once I ran up a few, that was fun, I walked around for days with a big grin on my face.

baptism: I remember where I worked I told a couple of people who asked what are you doing this weekend, with all honesty I said, getting baptised. One said why, have you not been christened, I said yes I have, then the question so why be baptized.

My answer to that was, when you are a baby your christened and this is your parents choice. Being baptized is mine, with full knowledge and with my whole heart.

events since: I had waited and waited then two others where also baptized the same day. What amazes me still, is they walked away, one is no longer with us, I have to say this, when you are the apple of his eye and someone decides to say bad things about you and attack you, do not do a thing. The father deals with them and I am sad to say this man attacked the fathers kids and died, why am I sharing this, he got throat cancer (really fast). He said, before he died he knew why this happened, he attacked by speaking bad things and he was wrong.

The blessing in that is he made peace before he went. I know where I am is so close to him, I have warned people around me, if you have a problem with me then lets talk about it. Do not go behind my back or think you can rip me off, I have scared people with this comment but as I said, I go to my fathers house. You mess with me, he is watching and he is very jealous of those he loves. I know this is true, it happens all the time, when things go wrong for them, I know they have done something and my father is not happy.

You should, fear the Lord, he made heaven and earth. If you have no fear, as his child then how can you be corrected or know the limits. Food for thought, now go work on your day, knowing your part of, the fathers house.

If you read this and make the decision, as I always say, when you lose everything you want, then you win because he gives you so much more, than you can imagine for yourself.

I Love being part of MY FATHERS HOUSE…………

Months ago I started watching something, it was not from the very beginning and I did not pay a lot of attention to it.

Until someone called the girl Precious, it was a film with Maria Carey in it. You know the one.

Let me just say, in this century, why? oh why is it getting worse. Why is the world so twisted and bent. (I know the answer to that one)

The part where they showed her father having sex with her like it was ok. Her kids were also her siblings YUK YUK YUK.

IN WHAT SHAPE OR FORM IS IT OK, TO HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE YOUR RELATED TOO. That is sick, twisted and where is her protection or safety.

Just typing this I want to vomit again, I was told culture’s especially the men, are told it’s ok. And they wonder why the world looks down on them, well derrr.

Be a man of honour, in the Bible it says Jesus respected women highly, so why is it not so today, in the world.

WHAT, sorry where is the honour, respect and value for not only yourself, but the woman. I am gob smacked, a woman is treated so poorly by men at times. Some cultures even throw acid on women a girl or baby if she is female. Or discarded in a bin, sorry am I the only one who is revolted.

WHY, we clean up after you, not because we have too, but because it shows our love. We give birth to your children, with pain and suffering, can a man do that? We hold most families together with nurturing, love, compassion and sometimes even good cooking. We are the symbol of home, love and caring. We work hard and most times out live men.

Why I have just said what I did, is to shake up the system, if it pushes a button good. That means it needs a clean out, same goes for me, I am not immune to needing a clean out at times.

One thing men do not seem to get is, if you abuse your wife your kids are watching, what you do negatively will impact not only their life but generations after. But if you choose positive you can only create something wonderful, if you do it his way, your children will be an honour unto you. People will rate you highly and you will not only impact those close to you but others as well.

You have the power to make a change, you have power to show a woman or even a man honour and respect. I can only talk from a women’s point of view.

Example: When I heard my father died, I laughed, I went outside rode my bike and shouted joy, my son was about 18 months old he was on the back of the bike. Why, because he could never come after me or hurt me again. I had watched him abuse my mother physically and mentally (this included rape). I am not going to sugar coat it.

Once I tried to pull him off her and I woke up falling to the floor down the wall from the other side of the room. He was a bully to a woman but a coward and he died alone.

Be a man of honour, it is never to late. Be someone who is honoured, don’t let the past dictate your future and it start’s today.

I recently listened to a tape I had at home in the drawer, it had messages on it to me from God, prophecies in other words.

I listened and what struck me most was the lines,

Mourning shall go away and joy will come forth, Lord touch her and let her know right down in her wounds of her heart, that you love her Lord and that love will be a contact point that love will be a key. I command a blessing upon her and her hands and her lips shall dance for you, she will learn a new voice and this voice will be a key it will be a contact point, she will speak upon the storms she faces.

Then it went on to say,

God said you will no longer count the pennies you will count the abundance, count the blessings that he has for you and you won’t compare yourself to others you will know that what you are, the Lord says that you are his child, and when you give yourself to Lord, the plan he has for you, you will jump for joy and have joy unspeakable.

What touched me most, people would jump on the word abundance, not me, I cried because of the fact that he said that I AM HIS CHILD.
I really feel like I am the daughter of the King of Kings, that is so beyond words to me.

I have faced some battles in life that would make people turn to drugs or alcohol, but I made the decision long ago, that I would not let the ‘as my mother use to say’ (bastards win).

To me it does not matter what has happened, but what I have learned from it, that has made me a better person. I can honestly say, I can talk to anyone about anything and understand, how they feel.

Remember this, the bully always looses and I CHOOSE to win. One thing I was told once, is that you may hear me, but are you listening.

Listen for the keys in the message and take the positive and use it to be a mighty person of God.

God has keys everywhere and in everything, LISTEN.

I just had my birthday and let me tell you age is an earthly number not how I feel and I was happy to be the age I am.

The one thing I wanted was time with the Lord, uninterrupted and wonderful. So mobile went on silent, I didn’t go out I just loved the time I had with him.

I was given the one thing that I will treasure, is a word, to follow after him and he will take care of my every need.

Why this is so on the ball is my work is finishing up, it is being merged with a huge company. I don’t know if I will have a job and it’s funny, I don’t really care. My cares are with him, when I was offered a job here, the Lord said to me I want you to go work their, so I did.

It’s been hard every pressure has come against me, but I still stand in the knowledge God put me here and he has not told me to go. I am made of super strength because I am his daughter (that is a statement). I was born to an earthly man, but I know who my real father is and have since that day my life changed.

The world teaches you to freak out and panic (sound familiar) the devil goes and messes with your head.

I sit here typing this in my BLOG and I have a smile on my face. My father is in charge of what happens to me he has my blue print for my life in front of him, I have nothing to fear.

The grand architect knew my end from the beginning and anything I do will interfere, so I have learnt to patiently wait. He has never ever let me down and never will.

But I do have to let him know that I trust him with everything I have and that I am.

I will keep you posted, but it can only be the best for me, I have no doubt.

Remember God is in a really good mood and thinks your awesome.

Setting the scene: My mother asked me one day, what do you want to do when you grow up.

My jaw dropped I remember saying to her “are you nuts we don’t know if we are going to be alive tomorrow” my house was very violent at times.

She just smiled and laughed at me, she knew what I meant. So she asked again, “I remember the feeling inside of me, I knew nothing was more sure in the world than the words about to come out of my mouth.

“I don’t know, but what I do know is this thing that is over this family, I will be the one to break it” now you have to understand in a real sense I did not know the magnitude of what I had just said.

My mother said what do you mean? Boldly I said, this vial, disgusting sexual abusive thing, I will destroy it”.

Ahead to a wonderful conference last year before I left for 3 days of fun with God, I picked up a friend to come with me.

She got in the car and driving along, I said to her “I am going to break this thing” I had to explain the comment, she was in agreeance with me.

I went along wondering when and how, well the very last night we started prayed we were told to push, I am a person that does not have to be told twice.

I went for it, I cried out and repeated over and over Lord I surrender to you, all of me I am yours. Then rip, it felt like someone had grabbed my skin and ripped it off. I was bent over with the enormity and pain of what happened.

I said to myself what the hell was that, then I got my answer “it is done”. I felt clean and new, that thing has now been removed. Every generation that comes after me, will be free.

Isn’t he wonderful how he works, you just have to be willing.