Setting the scene: My mother asked me one day, what do you want to do when you grow up.
My jaw dropped I remember saying to her “are you nuts we don’t know if we are going to be alive tomorrow” my house was very violent at times.
She just smiled and laughed at me, she knew what I meant. So she asked again, “I remember the feeling inside of me, I knew nothing was more sure in the world than the words about to come out of my mouth.
“I don’t know, but what I do know is this thing that is over this family, I will be the one to break it” now you have to understand in a real sense I did not know the magnitude of what I had just said.
My mother said what do you mean? Boldly I said, this vial, disgusting sexual abusive thing, I will destroy it”.
Ahead to a wonderful conference last year before I left for 3 days of fun with God, I picked up a friend to come with me.
She got in the car and driving along, I said to her “I am going to break this thing” I had to explain the comment, she was in agreeance with me.
I went along wondering when and how, well the very last night we started prayed we were told to push, I am a person that does not have to be told twice.
I went for it, I cried out and repeated over and over Lord I surrender to you, all of me I am yours. Then rip, it felt like someone had grabbed my skin and ripped it off. I was bent over with the enormity and pain of what happened.
I said to myself what the hell was that, then I got my answer “it is done”. I felt clean and new, that thing has now been removed. Every generation that comes after me, will be free.
Isn’t he wonderful how he works, you just have to be willing.