This past year I have been on a journey.
I was naughty and trusting in the worlds system, more than his, so.
Back into the safe arms of my dad I go.
I was relying on the money and not leaning on him.
So back I go, to start again. Trusting that he has me in hand, that he will meet my needs.
And the rest will fall into place, trusting in his plan for my life.
So my trust is in you Lord not in man, and I lean not unto my own understanding, but my TRUST IS IN YOU.
Everyday can be unexpected.
Really think about it, when something really hits home, did you expect it?
Never is usually the answer, I believe this year is awesome. Yes, I don’t know what is about to happen, but I am expecting amazing things.
This is going to be the year to change everything and I cannot wait.
I sit here feeling like a rocket about to go into space.
I was discussing a subject very close to home the other day.
Realising the mistake, I made at the time. Learning from your mistakes and learning wisdom is hard, but as I have learned. Sometimes the hardest thing is to realise its YOU.
Yes I was in a situation before surrendering to the Lord, I tried to control my children’s father, when our relationship ended I wanted to punish him. For not doing or behaving the way I wanted him too.
Any of this sound familiar, when I realised that I was trying to punish him for the way, males in my family had behaved towards me. And how others had hurt me, when I realised that, I took on the relationship knowing he was that way.
He was an individual and had his own thoughts and morals, I was not his mother. Which I think we tend to behave towards men, when we have children.
I said to someone that, instead of hating him, I accepted him the way he is. Yes, I will not put up with certain behaviour, but I said, “That I love him for giving me, my children”.
This is a big comment, but a certain part of me does, for those precious adults that are walking around becoming the people they are destined to be. My beautiful children who are precious in his sight.
They are the way they are, partly from what I have drilled into them, the rest is what they have chosen themselves. But I cannot change that, I can stand my ground and let them know what I believe and ask for respect as their mum.
But really, I cannot change anything. But I know my father is changing me….
Ever heard people say, life is what you make it.
I have been thinking of this and realising that, with the Lord he has my plan.
All I have to do is hang on for the ride.
And I have to tell you I am very excited for this year.
I am going to challenge you and me. GAME?
What is holding you back, what is your stronghold?
Mine mostly is my weight, no I am not mega huge, but rather cuddly. This has been my crutch in many ways, but time to CHANGE is here.
Sometimes its our minds, that is the major hurdle, we seem to be so smart, truthfully, not really.
My mind is what is in charge of my eating pattern and that is about to CHANGE.
I am at the end, I have no more justification. No more excuses or tears, I have had it with myself.
Challenge to see what can happen in a month. That’s not much really, just be conscious of what your thinking, how you think and how you react to that thinking. Simple!
I admitted last night that most of the time, I would eat myself to a point of feeling sick, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the other feelings.
Again, you idiot, Jesus is willing to assist and that’s the best help of all, so what am I DOING.
CHANGE and CHALLENGE is required, are you game to TRY???????
Come on get excited, I sit here without a job and very little.
Truly I sit here, knowing that full-time employment is coming and a year to remember is one day closer.
The point I am trying to make is, its how you look at it. Turn the situation on its head and CHANGE.
Yes I know, sometimes we would rather roll around and sulk (Like a pig in mud). Really, I am speaking as much to myself as anyone, are you MAD!
What better than to grow and move into what the father has for you, to experience more than you could ever dream up for yourself. To marvel how he works out your life, if only you would let him be in control of it.
Come on, your better than that. Get with the program, computer’s were scary when they came out. Really, as easy as turning on a toaster. When you stop and think about it, life isn’t that hard, if you let him be in control.
All you have to do is hold on and enjoy the ride.
Ecclesiastes C11 v1
Cast your bread upon the waters, For you will find it after many days.
What does this mean: Dont waiver in your faith, stand on his word.
For surely they will come back home on the next wave!
Hope, is waiting with earnest expectation. It is the season to hold fast and it says, to remind him of his word.
I also see it as, don’t be put off by negative attitudes, keep doing good things. For they are counted by God, he sees your good deeds and keeps watch.
Me: Lord your words says I can have what I say, I choose to speak faith filled words. I have stated and posted in my home, 3 things I am believing the Lord for and I know beyond a shadow of doubt.
He makes the impossible, POSSIBLE…
Before I get to my point, are you royalty of Christ?
I am, forgot that for a moment so here goes nothing.
Say this with me, I Have Been Redeemed From the Hands of the Enemy, He Has NO POWER OVER ME.
Yahoo, take that devil. I felt him get an absolute knock out. Yeehaa.
Now one more thing before I go on, Obey God – no curse will come on you, Disobey God – curse will come. Dangerous isn’t it, I need to change my thinking or correct a few things. I want to have his covering, not swinging in the wind for all hell to break loose.
Main point, Habakkuk C2 v2-3
Then the Lord answered me and said, ” Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
Write it down and believe and be willing to CHANGE.
Not in your time, but his season. For my father does not lie, we are the ones who hold up progress, stand by his word, for he is someone to stand by…
So very excited, my last post was that, I feel change coming.
What was spoken about on Sunday, its time to CHANGE.
Oh Lord you could have knocked me off the chair, lol what a crack up.
I have spent time with the Lord, repenting, seeking him and what do I get, CHANGE.
One major thing that has come up that needs to change is, I graise like a cow all day.
Why? well when I was younger there wasnt that much food available at times. So when you had food you ate, and being the last, I had to eat fast or they would try to snatch mine.
So ever since, and only realising this in the last few days is, I was hoarding fat on my body for the next short fall. All I could say to myself is you idiot (I do mean this in a funny way, not serious). To make that realisation was HUGE and what did it, was the feeling of hunger, I remember once being so hungry it felt like my body was starting to feed off itself, right to the back bone.
So, I had the see food diet, see it and eat it. Madness I know, but until you at the end and realise, God cannot do much more.
I am consciously eating sensible, breakfast, make it count (you are breaking the fast) 1 slice of bread, if your hungry have 2. Morning tea, only if required, sometimes a drink is enough (water). Lunch feed the fuel, not the fat, same with afternoon tea and dinner.
Then stop, if hungry have a slice of cheese or something quick, a carrot maybe.
And the final, portion control, I lost the plot.
Yes I admit it finally, my mother use to serve us on a entree size plate. Notice how dinner plates are getting bigger?
Trying to stick with bread and butter plate, training my mind and body. Not letting the devils thoughts enter, that I need more.
Thank the Lord for this, because I needed pulling up..
Gracious isn’t he…
Something that has not left me over this christmas period is that change is coming.
I don’t know how big or small, but change is definitely coming, can you feel it.
It is so close it feels tangible to me.
Keeping fresh hope and faith is what I believe has moved this forward.
I am trusting the process and look forward to see what it is.
Exciting when you think about it, 2014 is my year, yahoo.
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