Now this is something I am always mystified about, I see many people being responsive to emotion.

Yes, they get revved up and wham, an emotional response that causes problems, not only to you but those around you.

Many moons ago I worked this out, that many will automatically respond and it is not always good.

Then I thought about myself, how I had reacted in situations that could have been handled better.

So, when you know you know and I get this image of my hand picking up and sitting emotion to the side, because it does me no good.

So many times, this has saved me, it’s like when I hear someone speak, in my head I have cut the words into sentences, and I see what others may have missed. Keys to the conversation that no one else seems to hear. This information has shocked many, because as they talk, they miss what they are saying, the answer they are looking for and for me, the lies I pick up on.

You see, I grew up with a dad who was a compulsive liar, abusive, violent and nuts. I saw the effect he had on not just mum but me and others. What shocked me was how different he was outside the house, it was like a switch.

Coming from all that, having a pedophile as a sibling, a gas lighting narcissist etc, this showed me what I did not want to be and then I realised, I had the power to choose. Just like you, to choose the real father, the one and only.

When you think you have no one, these choices of mine have been extremely powerful.

I am no saint, but I stand on these facts, I have surrendered, all of me. I will be kind, I will show empathy, respect, honour and truth. And I will speak it even if those around me don’t like to hear it.

And in that when I struggle, he gives me answers, he hears my spirit and shows me that my overall decisions are correct to him. In that I find grace, I find love, I find peace.