It always still amazes me when he aligns things I have been thinking about or praying for.

Feeling like you have been heard and seen is truly a gift, because many people don’t do this. They may talk at you, instead of to you. They may need to get something off their chest, but rarely sit and hear you.

I am one who cuts things into sections, because then you’re hearing and seeing things, for example when you listening to someone, are you hearing what they are saying or just listening.

Do you get the message or has it gone through one ear and out the other. Have you heard their cry or are you so busy, you miss the life right in front of you.

I find when I need something or if I have an expectation, it aligns at the right time and in his right season. I feel so loved and seen when this happens and I love him more for it.

Recently I had to go hard, not because I wanted to be mean but because for the first time in my life, I had to choose me first. This is a big thing for me, because I have always felt I needed to be ready for when people needed me, but no one of those where there for me, except that one and only God’s gorgeous red head. So, I made the decision and now I am getting rid of things, because I want my life, set for me.

I want to be available more for him, I need the space to enjoy what I enjoy doing. And for that I need to sell and rid myself of the excess, I have already made deliveries to the local op shops. But I need to rid myself of beds, yes, I need just mine and have the spare rooms cleared so I can reorganise and just keep what I need.

This is a big decision on my part, but I need to stop just existing and motivate the spaces to be used for me. I have trouble doing certain things because of my back and knees but having all this stuff is getting to me, so out she goes. I am over the just encase scenario, for the amount of people that now don’t stay for a visit, well why keep something others can use.

If he is aligning me to clear out, clear up and set myself up, then I am on board. Its overdue and I already have another back seat full of clothes etc to go.

It’s another form of weight loss that I am on board about. Because as another thing goes, I feel so much lighter.