Recently I was contacted for my operation slot, went to the doctor, told I had another infection. So went on antibiotics, slot lost.

When I went back, as I was told to get other tests, then send to them to open another slot.

Tests came back, I did not have an infection at all, but the pain, oy something was going on.

I sat here paying a bill and cleaning my email address and the thought came to me, how the enemy puts road blocks in the way.

So, because of this I will be fired up, to get into the next one. And what got me was this, as I sat in the doctors I started talking to a lady.

Funny thing is, she looked a lot like the lady, who recently passed. Then she tells me she is Scottish, omg if she only knew.

Now, she was telling me how she also has heard the fathers voice, then the next breath about how she is also seeing ghosts. OMG, talk about being there for her, not me.

Anyway, I took action, I told her about things I had experienced and how the enemy can use anything to try and get us of course.

She said, “but they are only little children”, I told her the enemy will use any form and do not be lied too, by your eyes, but be lead by the father.

It was longer than that, but boy, did things change. I would not let her leave without, firing back and warning her of the enemy, I told her to evict him and tell him to leave.

So great and all I kept thinking was, appointed time, the father uses me, because he has granted me a boldness, and I will not let him down.

Something that I have been asking about and have been enlightened on.

Reporters keep saying she can finally rest and be with Phillip for eternity… you go to work for your family here, there is not rest, but there is eternal LIFE.

NOPE, not happening, when you marry, it stipulates, 1/ till death, us do part.

Then I went searching, I will not post detail, but when a man chooses to join a group, sometimes it provides you with your end game.

That is as close as I will come to that, but in no way, is he with her, nope, nadda, she may have wished that he join her and be placed in that spot with her parents and sister. But that is just a body, the spirit is another thing, you must choose the one and only, not idols, it tells you so in the Bible.

It is like when I grew up, I could not in anyway, Idolize a actor, player etc, because something in me, said hold on, do not entertain another spirit that is not of God, so I didn’t.

The queen is just Elizabeth now, like everyone else in heaven, her earthly position is no longer of importance, but her standard and what she stood for in faith is.

In the 1980’s my mum and I were discussing the family, why we should acknowledge them, and how important is a head of state, when it comes to wars etc. My mum knew I would say things that I did not personally know, but it was like wisdom speaking.

I said to her, “the queen will make it to, almost 100, Charles will be in for a very short time and George will be the last” now if you go back on a timeline, William was not born yet, no hint of George at all, but with everything in me I knew, the words I had spoken to be true. Because the Royals think as one had said before, “we are suppose to be respected” sorry wrong, you earn respect, you don’t just get given it, because of your status.

Another is, there is one KING and the ones we have are playing with fire. He, Jesus must be acknowledged above all others. And that is all I have to say on that….

Be blessed

I have been quiet, because things have been happening and he must come first.

I am blessed beyond measure, because of the decision and what I have said lately.

Someone asked me if I was looking for a Christian man, my answer. If you put Jesus as your best man, if you believe with everything in you and surrender it all to him, then NO MAN, can come close to him and where I am at, the path I have chosen to take, then I happy to be here, to finish the race and stand before him when my day comes. So I decided, to not entertain the option of a husband, I have one already.

Someone said, they saw me picking fluff off Jesus gown in heaven, anyone who knows me, knows I would do this, I am automatic when it comes to fluff, hair etc lol.

This morning I was reminded how, my Pastor’s wife use to have hands that instead of sweat, it would go gold, you might not believe it, but when the evidence is in front of you, you cannot deny it. And this morning a flick of it was on my hands.

I am coming to a place of such peace, peace in the knowledge that I have given all my desires, all my plans and all my wants over to him.

There is nothing that I want more, and I am at peace with where my children are at, because I cannot change their minds, but I can do what I must for me and my mandate.

Their lives and choices are what they have to answer for, but I am here to chat, if and when they run out of self-righteous steam and stop to ask. But I have to keep going, this drive to do everything I must, in the time I have and I will do, what I have to do, when I have to do it, without question.

That is the key I have found, why question your maker, the one, the only. YOUR NOT SMARTER THAN HE, so why waste time, yes I ask later and he answers me and that is OK, but teach yourself to do it, and it will become like second nature.

It is like me knowing when people are going, I have this responsibility to hold my tongue, but to be there as they need me, for those I know, but others who I hardly know, it is just OK, brace for impact. But what a burden, but also a great blessing, for him to trust me and for me to love him so much, that I can be trusted.

We always hear about relationship, I learned that the one with myself was important, what did I rely on myself to hold dear. For if I can hold my standard, then he can trust me, and having the trust of the father, boy, that is really really really BIG.

And for that, I am honored and I will hold my standard, because he needs me to do so.

That is one big thing lately, HOLD YOUR STANDARD, when the hail or rain comes as barbs etc, HOLD, STAND

To me it means, man thinking he is greater, than God.

It means, to take, to control, to kill, to steal and destroy.

So, when it comes to actions of MAN, no weapon formed against the father, shall prosper.

Because, he is all I need, if your mind is so closed, that you think war is your answer, I pray that you have a moment when Gods reality hits YOU.

For no MAN, truly has control over anyone, its an ILLUSION in your mind, for everyone has a key, FREE WILL.

On Saturday and Sunday, I try to take the time, once I wake up, to get up, make a cup of tea and go back and sit.

I sit up in bed to keep warm, but also to say good morning.

Good morning Yahweh, etc etc and good morning to the seven spirits all the rest and even those, most forget.

Why, because I believe they require my acknowledgement, I am not putting myself first, I am going to make the time, to spend in acknowledging all that are able and willing to work for the father.

I say, Romans 12 v1, I, me, present myself as a sacrifice to him. Why, because it not only says it, but it is my job to do it, nothing is more valuable, than that.

I love a small act of kindness, last week as a lady was entering, I was exciting a shop. We made a laughable comment, but as I put my hand on her back and gave it a little rub, I felt her presence.

That little action, builds in you something, that others would not be aware of…

These things do not make me more than anyone else, but every action of kindness and good, is like Jesus offering comfort to the lost.

I will keep on saying it, don’t work the worlds way, give his way, by his laws and things will change in your life, it is truly awesome, the awareness you come into. Times when I have sat, thinking what would Jesus do here, what would he say, you move into a presence, I cannot attach words too.

So again TRUST him, give him all you have and flip that switch, let him have full access and be blessed.

What a tremendous gift, this has been since the person, left this earth.

It is like when my mum passed, I saw her in heaven, in a white gown getting her daily instruction.

But when its greater, everything is greater…

I saw this person dancing, I saw jewels of different colours and the joy, was limitless.

Like the song by Hillsong, Oceans, “you take me out upon the waters” every time this song is played. I am in the spirit, I am by the waters, that have access to him. I stand on rubies, sapphires, emeralds, all in the water, instead of stones, its jewels. I am always overcome, because of the sheer power and love, all that I feel at that time, trusted with access to him.

So when I take the moment and see the person happy, no cares, no emotion, but sheer joy, that gives me a great big hug from the father.

So, how do you see into the spirit, stop trying to force it, build a relationship, build love, build on those two streams.

It is something that has stuck with me from a child, seeing a family of takers (my spirit felt the pain) and I thought, give and take, but give and receive is better than that. If you need to unburden, then what can you do in return, be available, when your required, put time first and self last.

TIME-TITHE-TASK

He has seen how much I love and trust him, he knows what I am willing to do, when he calls. That is how you build, little by little, his love is never ending and he wants you, to put self down, wealth down, immaturity down and grow into HIS plan.

I believe so strongly, that because of the way, I have accepted him, that he will use me to do amazing things in his name, by using the vessel, I have surrendered to him.

Give yourself all over and watch things take place, you will be used, raise your hands and praise him, let nothing stop you and count it all joy…

How polite do you have to be, to then realize, you lied to save…

Think about it, I have to be totally honest, I cannot respond to someone, unless I speak the truth.

Why, because truth will set you free, I don’t get hung up on things, some take offense or think I may be harsh.

But, if its done with love, and when people realize, it comes down to the word, maturity, everything makes sense.

Because, many cannot take it, because they haven’t matured and there are many levels to work on.

Family fights, disputes at work etc etc, all come down to the level of maturity of each person, well I say this, if the father wants you off the dummy, off the bottled milk and toilet trained. Then YOU MUST MATURE, and understand the way, he sees it, then you grow beyond measure and learn just how amazing, he is and truly who he wants you to be.

So, I will continue my posts, I will continue to answer honestly and as I use to always say, if you don’t like the answer, don’t ask the question.

I have taken a life time to get here, I treasure the process I have come through, even the times I felt like I might be hanging on by my fingernails, with all that, I will keep posting and I thank you for the comments, I hope the words and lessons that I have learned, touch your heart, so you can live the life, as his child, completing your mandate.

Its beautiful when you see his work in many ways or aspects of life, how he does what he needs too, when he leaves you with signs and your faith IS made stronger.

Don’t ever doubt or fade the level of his love, push forward, for your feet will wander deeper and deeper, where he leads you, in spirit and truth, where no enemy can go, because when you are with him and live for him, he is in you.

When you call upon him, your eyes are set on him and rest in all his plans for you, your life starts. He is mine and I am his, always and forever more, nothing can stop this, NOTHING.

I sit here with tears, but I also am very aware of what is happening, I heard the persons voice as if she was still here, and I know for a fact, that she has not only checked in, but is down to business and can come and go as required, many worldly people cannot imagine this.

How strong is your belief and faith, don’t let a passing, pass via you.

What do I mean by that, its simple, when someone passes, you back off or back down or even take time out. But I stand strong, because that is what my father expects of me, to stay the course and that I will do.

I will shout, I will pray, I will be here when others need me, but I am stronger than people think, because, I am MY FATHERS DAUGHTER.

Sometimes, when he puts a jet engine in my spirit, I have no option, I cannot stop and frankly, I don’t want too.

Build up your faith, by simply accepting he is in charge, that nothing compares, not money, not material possessions, NOTHING.