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I have been reminded by him

On Sunday night I was in prayer and the lord, showed me 4 stakes at the corners of the town I live in.

He stood in the middle and as I kept praying, it was like, he was backing up my words.

Light was pouring out of him, to fill the void.

I kept saying to any demonic spirits to get out, you have no place here, get out in Jesus name. I took authority and gave the order.

And he agreed with me, they were jumping out like grasshoppers. They leapt in fear, to get away.

Yahoo, then we had another lighting storm. Which is a sign of them leaving, yahoo again is all I can say.

FYI, and a rainbow is the sign of Gods promise. He keeps his word, do you.

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I am jealous of him

I realized something last night, God always says, he is jealous of me and will protect me.

Well I can honestly say, I am jealous of him and I want to protect him. I can feel his yeehaa of glee, as I type this.

I wonder if anyone else has felt that way, probably they have.

If someone disrespects him, that affects me, I feel his pain and sadness, I feel his smile and laughter.

And I don’t want to ever lose that, it’s just, so very special to me.

We have a special bond and that I treasure.

So lord be blessed today and know I am here for you always.

Sending kisses to heaven, all my love Bronie

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I know in my heart what choice I have made

What I mean by that, I cannot change those around me, or make them think the way I do.

Yes I can pray and believe, but if they waste this time, that we have left, then I cannot change or control that. It is up to them and them alone, this includes my children.

When the time comes, I know I can turn and walk with my father, even if this means turning and leaving them. This is not in any way harsh, but fact.

There is a time coming, this I know more than anything else.  A time when, we will have to either turn to the father and be in the boat, or think we can save them, by staying.

You cannot stay with a sinking ship, you are not the captain. Regardless of how you feel, you must make the choice now. There are no second chances, your either getting in, or you will be left on the shore.

I know the choice I have made, yes I have faith and I will keep believing.

But I feel my father must know the answer now. I have made my decision, think hard and make yours.

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I wish, I could do more..

I am a little wary of helping homeless people. Reason is every time I do they disappear, not in a good way either. I watch to make sure they are really homeless, not just getting extra cash off people.

So my friend at the train station, was their this morning looking a little wet.

I did have an umbrella, but mine broke some time ago and I havent yet replaced it. So being prepared as always, I had a poncho for the rain in my spare room.

By the time I got to the station, I asked him if he would like it. He nodded, so I left it for him. I thought to myself, I don’t have far now to run to work and I will dry off eventually.

I find we shouldnt just expect them to take what ever we offer, but ask if they would like it. To me that is showing them respect and not just as another person.

To me it seems like a very small gesture, but I do wish, I could do more.

But then again, I have to let the father lead me.

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How strong are you?

My train was delayed this morning, so I had a lot of time to think.

The lord keeps saying, that he looking for people to stand in the gap. To stand when all hell breaks loose, to not be moved, but to just stand.

I am getting to know what strength, Jesus has put in me. I know I can stand, yes there may be tears shed, but I will stand no matter what.

Pure determination dictates this, and I am one determined woman. My life so far, may have been a challenge, but with that, I have found my strength.

I said to someone once, “God ain’t a pussy and neither am I”.

I didn’t mean anything bad by that, I just meant that he is strong and so will I be, when I am needed. I have been made of tough stuff, so why not use it for his good.

I know when he calls, I will find out how strong I am.

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Yesterdays message was awesome

Sometimes we have this urge to find the grey areas in our lives to justify how we behave.

Or we think we can do it later, God isn’t watching. Wait a minute, he sees the real you, he sees your thoughts and he can see right into your heart. ”He knows you, better than you know yourself”.

He has known your end, from the very beginning. Yesterday the message was clear, again another warning to get in the boat, (Noah warned the people and they thought he was nuts, but where are they, drowned).

I know some things we try to work out in our own brains, but sometimes you just gotta have faith and believe.

God’s message yesterday was to just to love him and keep his commandments, remember LOVE covers all.

He wants you to just surrender your heart, he wants to protect you. But he will not interfere with free will, CHOOSE because it’s gonna save your life.

I will give you another update later, but yesterday was awesome I am still buzzing.

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Every day is a new day

As a parent all you want from your children is that they keep trying.

Not to be better than everyone else, but keep trying to be a good person, who you can say, is honourable & respectful.

I was speaking to one of my children and they said to me, “mum, I keep trying” and that is all I ever want. I told them how proud, I was for that and thanked them, for being my child (sometimes as parents, we forget to say the words, but I know the impact they can have).

I want, for both my children to be honourable people, who are respected, by not only themselves but others to see it. I want them to walk around with the heads held up, and know who they are, to like themselves. To feel they are worthy individuals whom I love, equally.

I was asked by one of them, ‘oh you love them, more than me’. No, I do not, I might like one more than the other at a certain time, depending on the circumstances. But love is equal, but I did say, at the time and its the truth, that I love God more (I had to be honest).

I explained that, he is first in line, because you know where I have been and the positive results that you can now see. I will not lower my love, you have to meet me where I am. Things were happening at the time and I said, I will continue to love you, but I will not lower myself and hang around in the muck you’re in.

Sometimes as parents, we want to make it all better, but sometimes we enable people and we must not interfere, especially if the lord tells you not too. I have had to learn this and if anyone can learn from me, that’s good.

Thinking about myself as the lords child, I need to do exactly the same, to know who I am in Christ. Not look at the ground, but walk around knowing, I am special, because he is my father.

I am sure that’s what he wants, for us to be honourable to him, to respect him and ourselves and to keep trying.

Like the words in Pinks song that keeps running through my head, ‘Get up and try, try, try, you gotta get up and try, try try’.

 

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I am ashamed at my reaction, but I am on the potters wheel

The other day I said, that I was in no way perfect. Well even though I am ashamed of myself, I am going to face it head on (I will give the devil no room to move).

The other day, curiosity got the better of me and I googled someone I know, what I read was lies.

I absolutely hate injustice and lies, always have. I think because when I was younger, I had no voice, to shout out the truth.

So when I read, what I did and my reaction was (cricket bat, would never use one) then I realized, I chose to google.  

So why was I angry, haven’t I been saying to myself and the lord, that I trust him. As I have known the lord to deal with this person twice before on my behalf, I will stop and be wise, I will keep pushing through to forgive.

That was part of a word I received the Sunday before. That my answer is to forgive, he will give me faces, so maybe this was meant for that reason. I am after all a work in progress, you never stop learning.

I will leave it to my father & remember he is moulding me on the potter’s wheel.