I have been in a struggle with myself. Sometimes it can because of me, that I am in that moment.

But I can feel my father, he loves me and is very considerate. He is patient and kind, slow to anger and forgives me my sins.

Think of that with someone with whom you love, can you honestly say they do that.

I love the fact that I have something so very precious, that no one can steal from me.

I have been provided for in many ways and for that I am sincerely grateful.

The Lord loves me completely, its was me who placed his love on hold in my life.

So its ME, who can fix that and let him in to have full rein.

All I can say is, it’s easier to let go and let flow, than to fight to hold onto something that is not working for me.

I use to love to buy nice china or kitchen ware. Now I know I put Mammon (money before him) so money left the building. I do not want a high paying job, I want my dad again.

The simple way, just him and me. A relationship that makes me the person that was destined to be. Not the person others pressured me to be.

Sometimes family can seem to support you, but really they set you up for failure. Yes they maybe they are trying to do there best, but, I have a destiny that the Lord has for ME.

If I work cleaning toilets (which I have done in the past), that is as good as the person who is CEO. It’s up to you how you view it. It has nothing to do with the money or title. Its your view, how through the fathers eyes you see and appreciate where you are.

Remember no amount of millions can make you happy. You have to know where that quiet place of content happiness is for you. Not through others eyes or words…

Sometimes I feel like I am overwhelmed, this is when mainly, I have a breakthrough.

But feeling the environment around me is the key.

Do you really feel the truth? Do you just skim the surface? Or does it hit the mark.

Something that struck me the other day, the world is becoming a place where the true feeling is being missed.

I want to feel everything there is on gods green earth. I want to live and feel it all, to laugh, to cry and to love.

Until you open your heart wide enough and take a real look, you then can only feel the truth.

Have you ever taken the time to think about the human body.

How marvelous it is, I realized this one day when I was walking down stairs. How my body adjusted to work together in unison.

How you put fuel in and it gets rid of he waste. How you go in for a tune up, or adjustment and it just keeps on working.

I believe that it can heal itself, when my father steps in and you are in the right place to receive.

Most of the time our mind is the real key to the engine, it’s the computer that can either make it run efficiently or not. Example of eating junk food, we all know the right thing to do and we choose to ignore most of it.

When I think about my body, I think how marvelous my father was to think of it and all its working parts.

How he knew me from the very beginning like an invention and he knew how I was built, what I could be used for and how my end would be.

Think about you today.

I learned something I need to share because I believe it’s a valuable key.

I was getting stressed and worried, stupid I know because it doesn’t do any good. And it cancels out my prayers.

So I got angry and realised something very important.

I needed to push past it, sometimes we pray and think that is it. We don’t have to do anymore, wrong.

What I have learnt is you have to pray a little more.

Sorry about this but its true, when you give birth after labour, your asked to push a little more. Why because the contractions don’t stop until you have birthed the placenta.

Its right this is what you have to do, push a little more because you have to ice the cake and decorate before you serve.

Remember this because I know it to be true.

Yes you must have it, to pay for things.

My view is what has more value, HIM.

Money is a necessity, he is an all-consuming fire in me.

Money can’t buy you love, it cannot buy you. Money pays for things, but your heart is a treasure that has to be earn’t, it’s a priceless jewel.

Guard it with everything and give it to the one who deserves it the most, at this time.

The Lord has my whole heart, what beauty that fills me with.

Because of what my family had to go through growing up, we are spread out and no one talks to the other.

I understand this, there was a lot of damage done, so what I did also was just do what would keep me going. But this I know, you have to deal with it sometime.

The reason I will not speak to them, is because I know this, they are beyond my help they need to seek God and professional help. And I know sometimes, people just don’t want the help, they see nothing wrong with the way they live.

The Lord has taken me on a journey that has helped where no one could, OMG I am so thankful for that. Because he made me look beyond ME, sometimes we get self-centred and self-possessed.

It’s true we do, I was talking to a friend the other day, she was talking about her family, her finances etc etc.

I looked at her and said, I have no family, but I have the Lord. She looked at me never realising this and I have been in the same church for a while.

This is what I mean, who is around you this christmas that you could just say hey, how are you doing?

Why I was thinking about this, Chromatix is the company that has built the church website, instead of spending money on a party etc, they contacted the IGA store and asked if they could come in and pay for people’s shopping. How gorgeous is that, thinking of others is the best gift of all…

It says that god give you the power to prevail.

The power to tread on snakes and scorpions, that you have all power and authority.

On Sunday part of the discussion is how do you want the Lord in you life inwardly is the one I thought, but no, manifest presence.

If you believe in him, why would you not want to have him manifested in front of you. Wahoo, OMG, how awesome would that be, I thought having a relationship like the one I have with him would be enough. But no, there is so much more, why not go for gold.

I loved it on Sunday when the speaker used the phone as an example. He said how he use to have a 3G phone and using internet was so slow, he said www stands for wait, wait, wait. That was so funny, but then he explained how the Lord wants to take us into the 4G network.

Think about it, we are about to hit a time when the seasons on earth will no longer rule our lives. We will be on his time frame, how absolutely excellent. I can’t even comprehend the full impact of that, but knowing its on its way is yay Lord, go for it, do it.

Get ready, get set, lets go….

Dont you love it how the world tries so hard to label you. That way you can be controlled and not live the life you were born to live.

You are born and are special because, you are created in his image.

But sometimes we are put into a family, that may not do the very best for us. But think of it as your training, things can be flipped over like the cinnamon pancakes I made this morning.

YOU ARE SPECIAL, do you hear me. I am extraordinary, why can’t you be too. Knowing who I am, is a gift, I know it is and no one can tell me different.

Think of the ways that make you special, example me, I give (cant help myself), I am always thinking (inventions, changing recipes) you name it, I will be thinking about a better way.

My most special thing is, I care, I have such empathy sometimes that I have to watch myself. I am unique, just the way I am meant to be.

Like watching my spiritual mother today, you can see her uniqueness and what makes her special.

If you cant see it, I ask my father to open your eyes and the veil to be lifted. So you can lift you head high and put a bounce in your step. I know you are, even if you have been hurt and react in a way to defend yourself. Your true self is undeniable.

God bless.

Today is a beautiful day, the sun is shining and all is right with the world.

I watch sometimes the birds nesting in my backyard, the lord says how he even feeds the birds. Who do not worry, but go about their day, raising their young. they know the feed will be their to supply there food.

So I am loved and cared for, my father takes care of all and is mindful of me as his daughter. Do you not think he is thinking of you today, that he sees you and knows your heart. He wants you to succeed and thrive, but sometimes the person in the road is us, blocking our own way.

What I am getting at is just cruse today, let the father lead you and be willing to follow his command. See where you go and take everything in, you never know it could be your best day ever.

And laugh, it’s the best thing to do, even if you laugh at yourself.