Coming through the fire

As I explained before, what I have recently experience is like coming through the fire.

Not only have I had a miracle happen, but most recently, I was again tested to my very core.

What I kept utter most in my mind, I must not let go of the Lord. I have to accept the verdict of my prayers and trust him with the outcome.

When it comes to those closest to you, its really hard. But after the tears, the reality is, I do trust him with every fibre of my being.

It is very private matter, but I need to let you know, you can come through the fire and out the other side. By just trusting his verdict, and realise that I have no power to fix what has been broken, but he does.

I know he will not let any harm come to those close to me, so I stood on what he gave me and in that, I found peace.

Sometimes the hardest things, that can show you, what can be and lets him know, just how much you love him, how much you can humble yourself, to obey what he says for you and those around you.

All you have to do, is to have courage and accept he knows more than you ever will.

Then you know, you have passed the test. And he knows, he can entrust his steward with more and more….

Sometimes pain is there for YOUR growth, and not to hurt you.

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Let the light in…

Yesterday I had the opportunity to share with someone about my most recent breakthrough.

As the sharing began, it was like hearing what had happened or been in my mind before.

I was able to share the light I have, now. I prayed for her and I know the Lord is watching and the angel are protecting her right now.

I know from experience its about giving in, surrendering, knowing you are not the one with the plan, but to start and trust that he will do the work.

Surrender, trust and faith, letting go, hand it to him, trust that in his right time and season, he will do what has to be done.

Just go out and enjoy living, with grace and kindness.

 

To embrace, be open and engage

To bring on the change, that had to happen within me, I had too embrace the unknown, be open to let the father do the work and engage to receive.

These are keys that have formed within me and its been, hard to let him in. When for so long I was guarded against any hurt.

But the love from him, I knew this is what I had to do. You cannot get healing, change or restoration until you do. I am the evidence of this, I live because, I thought, he will not let me down.

Man does, he won’t, just trust him to do it, not to you, but FOR you.

We get things so confused and pick the negative first, but I always think, what would he do. What would he want me to do? these are questions that you need to ask.

If you have faith, trust and believe the word, THEN LIVE IT.

The enemy does not win, the blood is the evidence of VICTORY.

 

Its like starting from the right line

My life before was so ugly and just deeply disturbing.

Now, I feel like it was someone else’s life, I cannot make anyone understand the change within.

But what I know today is, its like being born again, starting on the correct line. What is great about it, I have knowledge, I have experience and I have a determination that will win my father’s race.

I have filled bags of cloths, I cannot face them, they are not going back on this body. I look at things with such different eyes. And I am so overjoyed, today I was chatting to someone I use to work with and I burst into tears.

You see, many years ago, I was prophesied over and told at the time, my life was not supposed to be like this, but Jesus is going to give you the key to unlock the door.

The door to your life, the one he has especially for you. This I forgot, on Aug 13 when condemnation was removed and that door shattered, it was the key, I was promised.

How absolutely touching and special, now I want all that was spoken over me, I am so determined and strong. I am brilliant, and loved by my father.

I am going to do what he requires of my path in this life, so when I said ages ago, that my name will be written in the pages of history, I now see why.

Yahoo, let’s go, I am ready and willing, because I trust him with all I have and all I am.

My joy is to know and to feel, that he really LOVES ME…

Everyday I notice the difference

Yesterday I took a break, went to Bunnings and noticed, before the thought of going out was a big mental battle.

Who will see me, what will they think, watch the face movement, pick up on what they are saying by not saying anything. Try and make it seem OK, that you are dressed a little better than a bag lady etc etc etc.

The enemy kept telling me things like, do you really think you should go, are you really worth it, can you spare the money, your this your that, all the time.

Yesterday I went out and thought NOTHING, but wanted it to be a little warmer, I have nice cloths but just not ready to wear.

But watch out, this little duck is coming back into life, I am so excited I cannot even explain what its like to not be condemned for everything I or others have done.

And bags of cloths are in the car, ready to drop off and give to others, yipee. Before I would have just kept everything, not anymore.

The new ME

Since condemnation has been removed, its like I have awakened, not knowing that I was even asleep.

Before, you have no idea, my head kept me hiding from day to day activities. A simple trip to the shop, would take a lot of mental effort to plan where I would go and what I would do.

Normally, I would pick something plain, because I would say to myself, pretty stuff is for others, not me.

The other day I saw a doona cover, it was pink and had big flowers on it, now to many this would not seem anything big. But its like, I am learning about the new me, the hidden me that I never knew before.

I feel like a rose, that was in a hard, closed down bud, but now I have bloomed and its the most beautiful feeling.

This could not have happened if it was not for my trust in the father, I said to him many times, I know it will hurt at the time, but it needs to be done. So when you feel its right, please, I give you authority to do, what needs to be done.

And how wonderful is he, to know I had come to the end of what I could tolerate inside and give him full rein.

 

Get excited, and take another step

I love the Lord with all I am, why, he broke the hold over me.

We are told we have to surrender our lives to him, which I did, but there is another level.

I had a wall, I would get to a point and this dark over shadowing wall was impenetrable, until Monday.

This came to the surface, I knew I had something that seemed so impossible, but didn’t know how to get rid of it.

I had to willingly, TRUST.

The Lord looked at me with those beautiful eyes and such concern, I looked at him and said, “Just do it” with him beside me, I know I can do anything.

I made noises that I cannot repeat, I felt this thing loosen, tentacle by tentacle. It was dark, hungry and mean.

I was shaken from from toes through my calves, and it was taken out. I trusted those around me, God’s gorgeous red head and I knew I needed to show evidence of his power of LOVE.

Before, I was so scared of meeting my husband and screwing him up and our marriage etc.

Now, I wear a ring, when I put it on, I felt I was honouring my husband to come and showing that, I feel like I love him already. (Remember I had been married before had children to someone else and never loved anyone, I had a barrier of protection).

I am now free, trust the right time will come for you. Trust in the process, trust that you are worth it all.

God bless.