Everyday I notice the difference

Yesterday I took a break, went to Bunnings and noticed, before the thought of going out was a big mental battle.

Who will see me, what will they think, watch the face movement, pick up on what they are saying by not saying anything. Try and make it seem OK, that you are dressed a little better than a bag lady etc etc etc.

The enemy kept telling me things like, do you really think you should go, are you really worth it, can you spare the money, your this your that, all the time.

Yesterday I went out and thought NOTHING, but wanted it to be a little warmer, I have nice cloths but just not ready to wear.

But watch out, this little duck is coming back into life, I am so excited I cannot even explain what its like to not be condemned for everything I or others have done.

And bags of cloths are in the car, ready to drop off and give to others, yipee. Before I would have just kept everything, not anymore.

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The new ME

Since condemnation has been removed, its like I have awakened, not knowing that I was even asleep.

Before, you have no idea, my head kept me hiding from day to day activities. A simple trip to the shop, would take a lot of mental effort to plan where I would go and what I would do.

Normally, I would pick something plain, because I would say to myself, pretty stuff is for others, not me.

The other day I saw a doona cover, it was pink and had big flowers on it, now to many this would not seem anything big. But its like, I am learning about the new me, the hidden me that I never knew before.

I feel like a rose, that was in a hard, closed down bud, but now I have bloomed and its the most beautiful feeling.

This could not have happened if it was not for my trust in the father, I said to him many times, I know it will hurt at the time, but it needs to be done. So when you feel its right, please, I give you authority to do, what needs to be done.

And how wonderful is he, to know I had come to the end of what I could tolerate inside and give him full rein.

 

Get excited, and take another step

I love the Lord with all I am, why, he broke the hold over me.

We are told we have to surrender our lives to him, which I did, but there is another level.

I had a wall, I would get to a point and this dark over shadowing wall was impenetrable, until Monday.

This came to the surface, I knew I had something that seemed so impossible, but didn’t know how to get rid of it.

I had to willingly, TRUST.

The Lord looked at me with those beautiful eyes and such concern, I looked at him and said, “Just do it” with him beside me, I know I can do anything.

I made noises that I cannot repeat, I felt this thing loosen, tentacle by tentacle. It was dark, hungry and mean.

I was shaken from from toes through my calves, and it was taken out. I trusted those around me, God’s gorgeous red head and I knew I needed to show evidence of his power of LOVE.

Before, I was so scared of meeting my husband and screwing him up and our marriage etc.

Now, I wear a ring, when I put it on, I felt I was honouring my husband to come and showing that, I feel like I love him already. (Remember I had been married before had children to someone else and never loved anyone, I had a barrier of protection).

I am now free, trust the right time will come for you. Trust in the process, trust that you are worth it all.

God bless.

Mercy me, Even if

Sometimes you do loose some, but mostly you win some.

So, never think of the last post as (poor lady) no not at all.

I am rich because my father loves ME.

I am a winner everyday and today is another day closer to the day, I come face to face with him.

So smile and cheer, rock the gates of hell and find the joy. But if you can learn by my journey, then sharing with you is a pleasure.

 

Again I say it..

Ladies and gents, KNOW YOUR WORTH.

Stay in his presence, cross into what he has and never forget you are made for greater things.

If things happen to you, flip it, make it count for good. Make lemons into lemonade and let the sun shine within you even if the enemy is trying to make it a cloudy day.

You are loved, so receive it and treasure your place in his house.

You do not loose when you give something up

Many times we are taught that if we give something up, we loose.

When you are a child of God and Jesus is on your side, you win more than you could imagine.

The last few days I have been very aware of how happy he is, about what I had decided to do and make a stand recently.

I feel him know, he was waiting for this. For now their is nothing stopping me. This I feel is a prophetic word.

Lets see what he has in store.

He is with me

Today is a day that I cherish, not a normal day like everyone else. But a day that he is with me, I don’t stress or have anguish.

I am at peace, I am filled with the knowledge that he really does love me and with that I am brought to tears. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a tough cookie most of the time. But honesty my heart is full of love, be it a little guarded, I always remember not to throw my love before a swine.

And my love is like a pearl, precious and so very beautiful, something you can never really fully appreciate. But always enchanting, scratches easy if care is not taken, but reminds me always of the colours in a rainbow and that is his sign for us of his promise.

How beautiful, a rainbow as a sign of a promise. Not just a mundane thing, but a rainbow. I remember once standing in the school yard wondering why the ground had gone purple and blue. I was standing at the end of a rainbow, I think it was not long after my first experience with him. Other kids yelled out, she has a rainbow on her, I thought of the old saying, about the pot of gold. The gold was him, doing that for me, we all look at things I think the wrong way.

My abundance is coming in 2017, I can feel it, I don’t know if I shared this with you or not. Sorry if it is a repeat, but I went to a church night along way from home. At the start I did not fully get why people fell down as I saw it.

Anyway, this young girl came over to me, she was trying to prophecy, I thought to myself is she OK? She went and got her mum, she kept bending over, like having a huge weight on her. Her mum explained that when she was in front of me, she could feel this huge amount of wealth and abundance. It’s funny now because money does not impress me, I know what it can do. But really get happy first and trust the father to lead you.

I always have been gifted with knowing what can be built, designed or changed when it comes to property. Maybe he has been getting me ready for the next faze of my life, fulfilling my destiny. Growing his wealth for his purposes, see how I said, his wealth.

Yes I would love to own my home outright, but I do not require a mansion, that I will have in heaven.

Right now, sitting here, he is my wealth and happiness. He will make his word true and if the thief be found he must return 7 fold, I always add with interest and that has been accumulating.

I trust his word and him, knowing that to have the blessing with the knowledge that struggle brings you a great gift of appreciation and knowledge of him looking after me.