Its interesting how little it takes to make someone pop, loose control and lash out.

But if you allow wisdom to come and I use to think of it this way, count down from 10 to 1. By the time your at one, you feel calm, if you are tuned in, your realise, no response is required.

Because when you respond you show immaturity and he wants maturity.

So by letting his hot coal touch your lips, your granted a gift. A gift is just that, something precious just for you, a gift of understanding, a gift of amazing that does not need to be shared.

Why, because no one can understand that magnitude feeling that is private between you and him. And sometimes, its just between you and him, decorum is key here.

Once I heard that word, I got to know it, for you sometimes need wisdom and decorum is part of that, knowing when to just sit back as a father would and watch.

Decorum, break it down, decor of life (how you need to decorate you actions in life), rum or run, don’t let self run away from wisdom. I see things as I believe he sees and I grab hold as a child. Grabbing onto the reality of his world and the way it is to work, not how nuts everyone else is.

I think that many times I have tried to convey to anyone who is reading this blog. I do not like calling it that, because it is much much more.

I have been trying to tell anyone who will listen, the key to God is just this. You must face with an innocence, a willingness to face the hurts and not deny or run from them. Or even try to do something rather than face them, and by the glory of God you have too.

When we enter the brokenness and confront them with full honesty, then we will find his wholeness.

He has been calling me louder and louder and I have let certain things come in to muddy the water, like a dirty washing machine, but I feel like I have just put in fresh water.

I chose him, clear and loud. I said to someone, I am done, what I meant by that was, I am calling it, I am saying, go before the father on your knees. I am choosing him all the way, but you have to choose him, I could not say all that.

But what I have to do is now watch, watch and see the choices made. Then I will know and no if’s, I trust him, I trust him till eternity.

I trust him all the way, grab hold and do not give in….

Hey now, if you read the bible and you see a capital, do you emphasise it.

Well maybe you should, because he has a question. When a gift is given you are grateful, excited and humbled. But when you look through the eyes of the world, its tainted, not what you wanted etc.

God’s questioning me, so I put it to you, are you listening or are you just happy to have your TV or computer on, so you don’t put in the effort, to listen.

I am just as guilty of this, its like an example the other day, going for a specific reason, then having a cuppa and a chat, then praying for a little then food.

When did he become the little in our lives, well I said, not to be nasty just as an observation.

How disrespectful, sorry God, when I have a cuppa, when I have a chat, then we expect him to do what we pray about, how dishonourable and to me just rude.

Why would any parent give to a child like that, and yes he has used my own to make a point. The point of, I don’t want to really know you, but I want you to assist me, NOW.

And where it says, depart from me, for I never knew you. I never really got, how he came to that comment, but I got it this week. Boy, did I get it, loud and clear.

You see we get trained to listen, when its convenient to us. We have to prove we are worthy of making time, but really he does not care if your house is clean and your a decent cook.

He just wants to be your first thought and your last, he wants you to listen to his promptings, which happen all day, everyday. But you got to listen with your heart, not your ears, your spirit, not your touch.

You need to make him No: 1, for everything will come to pass. But as I sit here with tears welling in my eyes, I am so grateful for this message, to take stock of the way I do things and make changes.

The gifts he is giving might not seem so, but they are just that gifts….just like Covid.

His way is the only way I now know.

Sometimes its easy to go about your day and not put any thought to him.

But its him only, him all the way.

Time is here to make a change, accepting change can be hard for some.

But others its as simple as, OK lets go.

So take the time to log in, log into the spirit of God and make time to accept the change that is happening.

I hope that these little glimpses inspire you to reach for the bright and morning star.

And it does not take a lot, but it takes you, handing it all over.

I am praying for you, whom I do not know, for the time is now.

There is no time left to play or put off the inevitable, if you love him.

Leave no stone un-turned, just give it all over to him.

Surrender all, not part, ALL.

As I posted that last blog, I felt it, glory glory glory.

I cannot deny what is happening, some I share with you, some I do not.

But boy, is it the right time and season.

I feel like a horse, running free.

Glory glory glory

I cannot express just how, full I feel.

How buzzed I am, so ignited because what I have been getting matches up.

Matching up and no longer waiting for others to catch me.

Once I heard our pastor say, he had to come down about 6 notches to meet us, so we get the message.

That is something I have never forgotten, because we should meet him at his level, not overtake, but as a son.

I had this hold, keeping me back, so I did not stand out or tread on toes, but I can’t, I keep waiting and I cannot anymore.

I must keep up with the father not only of the house, but the journey I am now on.

I must, I have no other option, people think they have a choice, well I don’t and I am glad of it.

Glad that I am getting on and doing what I must, yes I must also keep watch to not get ahead of myself, but I have too, I think you can tell by now, there is no other signal than green..

GO GO GO

It is just so amazing and I feel it more and more, my spirit is flying, I feel like I am on the right track, finally.

I feel like I am going ahead in leaps and bounds, the other night I saw myself on level 343, what got me is he kept saying, stand up and get off.

I was sweating and I could not stand, so I crawled off, I was in these pebbles on the level, still I was told to stand but I could not, I heard a chuckle and someone say, “there is rat pee on the ground” which would make me move, but I just kept saying, “I do not care, I can’t stand”. Then another chuckle and he was in the form of Guy Sebastian which made me laugh.

But I said, at least I got off, I woke up in a sweat because the one thing I do not like is heights. But I will stand in time, oy so hard. LOL