There is a song and part of it is, “In your presence, you and I become one”.

Have you ever been so stiff-necked or rigid that it has affected you medically?

I learned something today, I went to get professional financial help. I need to be employed, full-time, so if you feel the need add me to your prayers.

The reason I am here is because of myself, any of this sound familiar. I surrender, I cannot do it by myself, I know I need my father in my life and finances. Yes I was told how good I have done, but I needed a chat.

But his presence came into the room with me, even the person I went into visit noticed. And God knew he needed me, where ever I walk, he is with me, In His Presence, he and I are one.

You can’t beat that, let his presence be with you today.

I have been checking on things with this little blog and I am absolutely amazed that you are reading it.

As I sit here thinking I am not any more special than anyone else, but what makes me different is the love for my father.

Sitting here with tears in my eyes, loving him so very much it is what makes me tick. I don’t know if I have ever told you but, I have never loved any worldly man, yes because of the hurt I endured in my past. I have never let myself or found anyone who deserved the love I had to give. You build up a wall to protect what has been left untouched just to survive.

I don’t think its sad, but how special is it that the Lord has been my first love. So very special is he, so when I finally meet the man who the Lord has prepared for me, I don’t know how I will act or react but it is something special to look forward too.

Amazing how my life has turned around that the Lord, was able to change me and flip the switch. My life has changed so very much it amazes me, sitting here if you require a change just trust the process and learn from each new thing that comes along.

One thing I know for sure is if you just surrender and say ok, I repent and you lead the way. You get to here, amazed at just how far you come, change is a wonderful thing if you let it.

I use to be so very different, but when I was baptised the old me died. Hallelujah

I have had on my heart those families that have left the churches. The ones that the Lord confronted and they didn’t like what they saw and ran.

My opinion is, are you stupid?? Yes I do not use negative words much, but really one person I am thinking of who knows the truth is WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

When you have children and YOUR decision affects them, you are accountable for them in many ways.

YOU MY LOVE HAVE TO GROW UP, I am writing this in the hope that she reads it. I love you and miss you, but my father misses you more. Stand up for your belief, you can lead your whole family back. There is no shame, but step forth into his loving arms. I understand sometimes having a husband that may be a “pill” at times is hard.

But stand for the Lord, you know you can’t run. Issues are there to be dealt with, if someone like me who can be really blunt says to you, when you get over your stubbornness. It is meant with love, no we are not always right but the father needs to deal with your FLESH.

Flesh, is a I want but don’t want to give just like a baby spitting the dummy. Will, gets you off track and lets the devil in, to destroy. If you gossip, what does it do causes strife, you need correcting, your way hasn’t worked so SURRENDER. Know I am still here waiting for you, to wake up, shake off the old you and arise, to shine.

Love brings you home, humbleness gives you a gift. You know your not stupid, you can’t run and I know he has been on your case. You have to answer for yourself, everything else will fall into line.

Trust the father, don’t listen to the negative, shut it down. You know how to take authority, use it my love.

Time is running out, don’t end up in the pit of hell. Run back into the saving arms and remember anything that rubs you the wrong way is just like when you have to clean something.

You have to scrub off the gunk first, then you are able to be cleaned and buffed to a brilliant shine.

At times I know my heart is feeling my fathers.

I can feel if he laughs with me, if he heart crys out for people, or just needs someone there to know he has someone standing there for him.

Thinking of that do you ever think, he may need YOU.

Food for thought, that he may need you, not to rule or change the world. But too, action his plans for either your life or those to come after you.

I know the work I do with prayer, helps my children and there children. Its like Abraham he did things, for us, his decendants.

I want to be connected in a special way, knowing and feeling him right next to me. All the days of my life and for what is to come.

Do you ever have those times where you have several light bulb moments in a day, its like a whole heap of revelations.

With me it has been, a little of you idiot. Why did it take you so long to get it.

Remember the song that had, we live and learn from all mistakes. we all believe their comes a time.

Yes amen and amen, at least I got it. I learned from my mistake, now move on.

Last night I was very naughty. I am sure we all have moments of weakness, this was mine.

I ate in the afternoon these yummo chocolate creamy delicious mint chocolates.

I ate about 5, then slept for a good 3 hrs. Chocolate has an effect on me, if I am a little tired, then I am out cold for 2-3 hrs.

I don’t know anyone else this happens too but, a bomb could go off and I don’t think I would wake up.

So I slept until 6.23pm, prayer meeting starts at 6pm. Yes I was late, but at least I made the effort to get their.

I feel like a little kid that has just made a confession.

But yummo, it tasted worth it. But I know it wasn’t because I should have not missed any of the meeting.

God is more worth anything else in this world.

I have been stretched and prodded, for change.

I feel like I have reached another level and with that I am thankful.

I know the Lord needs me and I do not wish to let him down.

So if I have to go through the fire then I go willingly.

No diamond is made without pressure.

Be blessed.

My heart has been desperate this past few weeks.

I have been attending a course that has highlighted to me that I would dearly love a job I love, something that fills me with joy.

I am tired of just going through the motions, I want to do what I am meant to do.

I have been feeling a little lost, but in that I have been crying out to my father. For his assistance in this, I so desperately need change in my life.

I cannot go on any further in the way its been.

Time for change is here and I want to grab it with both hands.

If you have the desire may the Lord find you what you need and never forget that he is the most important of all.

Do any of you see things in your animals that bug you?

I have this three-legged fur ball. No, he is short-haired but he gets called fur ball when he bugs me.

His name is Out 4 a Duck, why? Because he has had a wicket taken (think of cricket) ROFL

Yes I am hilarious, no not really LOL. I am trying to make all my spare soil produce great vegies, HE wants to use every space for a LOO (toilet).

Let’s just say, there has been a lot of me chasing him and growling. But hey, I can laugh at least.

Dont tell anyone, he is really cute and so loveable. I had to bathe him the other day, (missing one leg he can’t remove the dirt next to his skin) he looked so skinny. And was so embarrassed, I said you will love me later.

He smells gorgeous, and loves me now….

If you ever read and there may be any error, sorry but I am always in a rush.

I cannot at times type fast enough, for what is pouring out of me.

I was told once to just get it out, don’t worry about spell check till later.

I am human after all……… 🙂