I remember having to fight, fight for my right just to be accepted, then thinking to myself, why.

Why, because if you have to fight or manipulate or cause division, you’ve got more of a problem than anyone.

I was talking to someone, how I believe the word written in the bible and because I do not shy away from this fact, I was told maybe I should see a physiologist.

Now, I understand when someone does not believe, or believes but will not admit to it and with me, that’s OK, but I am suppose to believe, that seeing physic’s etc, has more value, what the.

I said to someone who understands, if I was a Pastor, Dalai Lama or the Pope it would not even be questioned. Because I openly say, I believe and I follow the word, I find it offensive and down right racist.

So, I won’t fight, but I will let my father, fight for me. He has done it before and he will do it again, and I know it, because evidence has been shown time and time again, it says he is a jealous God, jealous of those who are his.

So, I fight the good fight of faith instead, it’s the right fight, not the wrong one.

I found my copy the other day, what became real was the post I did recently.

The one about two families, mine shows I have two siblings. And then I thought about what the father had shown me, the same thing.

If you take emotion out of it, facts are the evidence seen and mine is on my birth certificate.

It is funny I thought my sister was 6 years older than me, but it says, she is 8 years older. I have not seen her since I was 19 years old, we all have some sort of damage, via the atmosphere we grew up in and I understand that.

But, unless you recognise it and deal with it, it moves on and in many it still is active in their lives.

I am so grateful to my real father, Jesus, for giving me this gift of release.

Looking up my ancestors has been enlightening to say the least, I went back and back and found a man married a woman named Jane who was from India, but what I want to know is the story surrounding these people.

And what I remember, my mother had Indian arms bands, these were tested and had diamonds in them, so where they Jane’s. Where they from a wealthy family, how did they get into my mothers hands, I have questions, I need answered.

Things, get interesting when you start, seeing through different eyes…

I was reading the bible and it said, about the seven churches in Asia. Which is interesting, because their are those out there that know the truth.

Now, I see the news, how countries are being over taken by intensive minded individuals and its really nuts, seeing them try and rule over so many, by lies and intimidation. Killing people and threatening them, because they think differently, its not wrong, if we were all the same, nothing would be different, how dull would that be, robots are mechanical, humans are not.

You see I go back to a show I watched, it was a cooking show and this woman who was from Russia, commented that they won the war, what war? and why do you think that? Because you were lied too, brain washed and then you go off and the world looks at you, knowing the truth (and then questions your leader), then the world tries to free the people’s minds, but they fight you instead.

It is the same when it comes to the father, the bible has been around so long, when you read it and understand it’s meaning. You understand that it is speaking to you now, it is very valid when you take it in.

But, it warns, do not worship idols, now today some have idols to do with worship, some to do with money, and some do it for power.

We are all little fish, in a very big pond, his word speaks loudly to me. Sometimes, it frightens me, because I know he does not joke around.

He, has selected those few, who are willing to hear, not only with their ears, but spirit, soul and heart.

For years the world has been warning about global warming, waste and pollution and nobody is listening. We must be conscious, listen and make changes, now. This idea of eating, eating, eating and wanting more, I watched a show Abalone wars and some buyer, Asian man, asking them to get more, more, more, work harder (so wrong). There is only so much, and you cannot take too much, the ocean needs it’s own amount, to survive and to also restock, this coral bleaching is showing we have stuffed up the balance, big fish feed on the little and the little feed on coral and the living organisms they require.

This idea, that enough, is never enough, is lost on so many. I just grow enough for me and a little to share, because I hate waste. I have flowers, mainly to feed the bees, without bees, we perish. Those little insects have a purpose, we take and eliminate a species and throw the whole system of how nature works off kilter, and then scream for help and wonder why (totally nuts to me).

Two days ago, I made up a spaghetti bolognese, but half was veggies, why? because it adds to the dish, therefore no added veg on the side required, but also, limit meat usage. I watched an American cooking show, sometimes I am horrified by the amount of meat, salt and portions OMG.

We hit the 80’s and did everything in excess, but forgot to turn back the clock. And, not get caught in the cycle, I am a person who takes notice and can see evidence where others don’t. This is a great gift and I hope others start, start to really view things, not what they are trying to force them to accept.

I stand by my father, all the way… start looking through his glasses, maybe its time we all did.

When I first came to him, many years ago in that paddock, I asked him to leave his mark on me.

I had one mole, but told him I wanted, Jesus-God and the Holy Spirit, finding those three in a triangle on my leg was a beautiful gift from him to me.

Last night the reminder came, I have been feeling so tired and lethargic, which is no excuse to not use the time to pray, but I did.

I have been ticking myself off, being in lock down for sooooo long, I have felt isolated in many ways. Yesterday I had to shop and I panicked seeing so many people, which was about ten, but I freaked internally and kept thinking just tunnel vision all will be ok.

Anyway, thinking of that mark, seeing one fade made me sad and I feel like crying, but its all my fault. I need to be energised somehow, someway….

Help me father…

I love watching she show, Expedition Unknown and the one I watched was Search for the afterlife. One reason, is I can search the globe and not leave my sofa, but I also like investigation, most will take what they are told and that’s it, where me, I want to go back & back & back, to find out where it came from.

Now, I do not want to watch the next episode (evil) and the enemy tempting people with so called physics, but the part where people had been medically deemed dead and had experiences of pure love.

Does it not say, love covers all….

I hear many people fear dying, why, I do not know, because you get to go home. Now which home is up to you, not anyone else, so those who blame others, is just an earthly waste of time.

I have this knowing that when you go, you see an image of someone you loved, but the emotion is out of the picture. Once I had an experience, I cannot call it anything other than that.

I saw my mum in a stage of heaven, someone taller had something like a clipboard in there hands, giving out instruction to the group and my mum was in that group. I was so excited to see her, I yelled out, “Mum” she turned around and “told me to go back, it was not my time yet”.

I do not know if I stop breathing for a short time as I was told I have light sleep apnea.

What got me was, her having no emotion towards me (nothing bad), but she knew who I was. You see on earth, we can be driven by emotion, especially us women, I for some reason, can separate myself, so I can let wisdom in.

Watching the show, hearing people talk, watching the host, the woman who was under water for 30 mins and was told her son would die soon, had little emotion.

I believe it is because she knew, knew where he would be going and was at peace, knowing of how much love their is there. Its not about loosing someone, but them moving to a different location.

We get so caught up with, end of life, but is it really…

Many times, something happens that is so my mum, I am surprised by it, but then I know I am to pay attention. Ultimately I see my father, Jesus in it, giving me things, knowing that I know a little, and trust in the rest yet unknown to me.

He sees when I go quiet and struggle, but knows that when he is discussed, I come alive again.

Before Covid hit the world, I had the urge to paint again, and this was the result. I call it Change is coming.

Its nothing special to anyone, but me, because it shows how he was trying to inform me, of what was coming.

You see the sky, mixing with colour as a storm rolls in, the waves crashing and causing mist to fly.

Its amazing to me how the things I paint, or draw are him, telling me something, that I am yet to understand.

I never want to say its all me, because it is not, I pray before I lift a brush and ask for his guidance.

So, see if he is trying to inform you in some way… if you listen, I am sure you will find it in the most unexpected places.

Last night when I went to bed, I was shown this.

Someone I know, thinks they have a right to rule and rein, over the other family members, because they are the eldest living. INCORRECT finding.

Getting back to last night, my mum was young and naive, as we all were once. She grew up not feeling wanted, ran away and landed at her beloved Grandma’s home.

So, she met a man, who told her all she wanted to hear, they went through a ceremony, but legally, not married, (he was already married, I see the enemy here) so I put the blame on this man, who my mother said, found out over a period of time, he had mental issues and could never settle in one place (runs in the family to certain degrees).

She ended up with two children from that coupling, the eldest was loved by many and was killed, the second child is still living (we were brought up as siblings, but the second, would always introduce me as a half sister & had the rights to run my life) they are another story.

But I was shown last night, my mother married my father (for the purpose of this, I will call him that, not a nice man and truthfully, I only have one true father, Jesus) but they then had 3 children, I am the last one.

Now, I know this may seem rough to type up to you, who will read this, but the first two would be considered a horrible name, because they were out of an unmarried coupling (these days there is no stigma attached to this).

But getting back to it, I was shown two separate families, The head of mine living is my sister who is 8 years older, my fathers first born, and not number 2.

So with that, I felt some sort of release, a freedom if you will, but really no other sibling has a right to try and control you. This is definitely more about them, than you and where did this idea come from anyway.

It like putting yourself as the matriarch, what on earth are people thinking, no body has that authority only Jesus.

Sometimes, I think back to when I first knew his voice and how powerful, loving and strong it was.

I knew at the time it was him, because it was undeniable. Those who have heard him, know this to be true.

My last post was also added to my facebook page, because people are getting so much wrong information and I know when he speaks, all other words fade into the background.

So, sometimes he is direct or blunt, but I love him for it. I love him, because he is fathering ME, he is sharing his guidance and for that, I am eternally grateful.

You either have to suck it up and take it, or cry and stay the baby you want to be.

Me, I need to hear everything he shares, because he has a plan, and I must fulfil it, one way or another.

I was out picking baby spinach and talking with the father, as I often do, no I am not mad to those who are yet to believe.

And I heard these words, to ask yourself, WHO’S YOUR DADDY?

Now I accept him as my father, because I have also heard the enemy and he wants to kill, steal and destroy YOUR life.

So, I have said before, “Lord I trust you with my life” and he has saved me countless times, because I know if I was an unbeliever I would have died years ago.

I am a person that once something is locked in to my data base, its in & there is no compromise, so get out of my way.

Two weeks prior to all my ducks lining up, I kept hearing him say, “You say you trust me, but do you BELIEVE ME?”

Now lets us get back to the idea that the enemy can sit in church and hear the sermon, because he wants to STOP YOU, & halt YOUR life. So I ask you, IS YOUR LIFE WORTH IT?

We have learned the devil was head angel of music, then he got thrown out, thinking too big and falling off the perch. But think of this, if he affects electronics, then wouldn’t he have a field day with social media.

Anyone who knows me, knows if there is a allergic reaction, I will have it, even if no one has had one before.

Getting back to the DUCKS, 1. I heard “you get the flu vac every year and that doesn’t worry you, so why this one”. 2. I asked which one, which does he see fit for me to have. Plain and simple “Pfizer”3. Someone had to have a turn around, this happened. All the ducks lined up, so I made my first appointment and got the vaccine, NO ENEMY WILL STOP ME.

I went into the room and was asked was I ready, I lifted my finger and said, “hang on” I turned to the bed as I felt too. I said out loud and with conviction, “Father I am a Christian and I am going to stand on your word, you say in Mark 16 v18, no poisonous thing will harm me, I am going to make a stand and I BELIEVE, your word alone and I will not have an allergic reaction” I turned to the doctor and he smiled and nodded.

I told him, “right go”. I had a sore arm, I slept for about 3 hrs, then a little insomnia and that was it.

So again, are you a seat warmer, or are you ALL IN. Have you really surrendered all, or just enough to comfort you

If he is asking you, the question, what is holding you back. Is it, the enemy filling you full of fear and anxiety, don’t let him strum your strings, severe them. Who has more power, he that lives within ME, or the one trying to take us out.

All I have to do is, hear from my father and trust me when I say, the enemy tried to make me doubt which one and should I really have it.

Well I told him with a shout as to where to go… don’t make room in your motel for him to enter, stick up the no vacancy sign and step forward, believing the fathers word…

Because he is my daddy, full stop

Lets think outside the box, I was watching this show about Alien space craft and how the government is trying to hide it from everyone.

I keep thinking, Nostradamus prophesied the next war would come from China, it would be swift etc.

But, what if, when you read the word alien in the bible, hmmm if so many believe his words are lies, then how is this word in there from so many years ago.

What if, we are not the only ones, what if, there is another world far more advanced than us, visiting and do not care if your the head of any country. But are compiling data, for such a time to come.

Now, I am grasping at strings here, but really, when someone thinks they are the answer to everything, only time tells and hits them off there perch.

And, when its time to live on this earth, for a thousand years with Jesus, they will all be forgotten. No one has the right to rule over anyone using bullying, threatening behaviour, all the world sees to those who are looking is really how small and scared they really are.

I learned long ago, bullies are cowards, when it comes to the crunch.