Recently something was very wrong in my body and I held onto a vision from many years ago.
Because I was in such pain, I almost could not breath, so I grabbed hold of the first thing, so I could keep going and lost perspective to get help.
I was taught to hide pain and it has been a very bad habit, as it turns out. I was taught to tell no one and put a smile on your face and keep going.
Sometimes it takes a moment for reality and perspective from others for you to see the light.