Sometimes you are given a project and he talks through you to a person.

As of this morning, I had to hand it back.

I really tried, but I would rather it come from someone else. When its him, he does not mess around.

But I trust the outcome…

Today I was reminded about when my kids were little especially my son.

I had a rule because violence was what I grew up with, no gun, no swords and no insane noisy toys.

But puzzles etc to make them think was what I went for, if my children followed after me, they would require the mental stimulation.

I remember my son, he was only small and he loved those wooden puzzles he ended up with about 8 of them. He shocked me by turning them all out then, put them together in record time.

When he was small would sit and read a book to his sister he was only 2. Yes he didn’t get all the words but knew the story from me reading it to him.

I wanted to give them a thinking mind, not a following mind. A mind that knew when they were being brainwashed or manipulated.

I made sure they thought about not only the answer but, how the answer came to be, who came up with it and what was their credentials.

Its like reading the bible, once you get to know the master craftsman and all the spirits, Jesus and all the rest. Its so very big and you expand your spirit man, that is what suppose to happen.

I do hope he remembers the fun times, and its OK not to agree with where I am at. But the evidence is clear as crystal.

With where I am at, you have to go through the fire.

And I have had a migraine, why because I felt the pressure build and I knew to stay quiet. Sometimes you can talk all you want and still no one listens.

So, I wait for the father to talk, he has a way of making you listen. Sometimes I feel like some need a cricket bat hit over the head to get it.

But as I always take it as a blessing, its not up to me. If they are so busy and are not listening, then their end is up to them.

I have to remember my dad is so important to put first, no family or anyone comes before him. And that’s the way, its just gotta be…

Thinking of how Jesus was here for us, died for us and will come back for us.

I was watching one born every minute last night.

And just as I was about to leave this page the Lord reminded me.

My mother, I found out was pregnant 13 times, but only had 5 children. One died 15yrs and 10mths due to a drink driver.

So being the final one, my mother went into labour 23rd October, but I was stuck under her ribs.

She was 4 ft 10 inches, I weighed 7 lbs 9 ozs when born, anyway the doctor came in on day two realised the problem. Dove in pulled me out, I reportedly was black and blue when I came out.

They did not believe I would survive, well the enemy will not stop me. 3 times in my life I have come so close and the father just reminded me.

Why, to show, nothing can stop the destiny, once you accept it into your life. And remember the contract you made with him before that.

He will never fail you at any age, if you believe beyond doubt. For your born for his glory and purpose….receive it.

Why do I say that, because I have to fight for my right, especially this week to be able to just do the normal things.

What a week, sometimes it is hard to even sit and type. So today I am taking what I can do and running with it.

I have to fight, and I have to believe I will come out the other side. I have to believe, my healing will come.

Having tests that cause your veins to feel like they are screaming, they should not put things in that do that. Found out later, as to why I felt the way I did.

But I know, I will find my dad and he will give me the life I am after. If I did not have him this week, I hate to think where I would be.

When it gets tough, that’s right dad, the tough get going. I will be a sign and wonder, for I believe him in all ways and all things.

Its my birthday and my greatest gift today is him. Oh what I have received I give him all the glory. Without him I am nothing, love him today and every moment.

Blessings to come.

I am reading a book that activates his gates or doors within you.

We sing thisn

Last week the prophecy was so exciting, when he speaks, I listen.

And hearing and listening are two very different things.

I am so excited, I realise now why he chose me, why I am where I am.

Why, I must do what I have to do, because of what he saw in me. What he saw, before I was in my mothers womb. What I agreed for my life, and with that, its just awesome.

My heart is open, every time the enemy tries to close it, I force it open. He asked for this and I will obey.

What I realised last week, talking about how two slayed an army. Well with him you can, if there is a incident, many run. What I realised in my spirit is, I run into the midst of it, knowing full well, he is with me.

I am not afraid, but I will fight for him when he directs me. For I must always keep in front of my mind is, my journey and finish line is just that mine.

I cannot stop because of my children’s choices, I am not being harsh, just real, that is what he expects.

He said choose and I did, he said follow and I do. He said, “I will always look after you”and I know he will…

Many of us would think the birth of our children.

Winning money or a prize.

Me, you should know by now the answer.

Good times, right now sharing with you, seeing the sun rise and set.

Seeing life change every day, and knowing that with each step, I get closer to him.

For in him is my home, my breath and my heart.

I am so very grateful, you cannot feel what I feel. But what you can do is take what I have experienced and learned and build on it.

If I did not have him, I would be no where.

He has always been sitting next to me, waiting for me to take hold. He knew just how much, I would give to him all I have and more.

Because, its the only true love I have ever felt, and that is a very precious gift.

Gifts come in many ways, recently I experienced seeing the garden east of Eden.

Praying with purpose has brought me into a place, a place I cannot express, but as I garden in my own backyard. I speak to him, whether it be out loud or in my spirit.

When I see flowers, I see joy, when I wait for veggies to flourish. I see his words feeding me.

I have learned its not the way, the world has trained us to see or what we have known all our lives. But its his way, the kingdom way, and within that is so much, it fills every part of you..

There is so much more than you can ever try to imagine.

Sometimes there are no words, when he tightens me up its then I give thanks.

Its then, I remember that when its good to praise him, when its not good to praise him.

You just gotta keep going and going and never give up.

For he is always there and if you think when things are good you don’t need him, then you got it wrong.

He needs to be tapped into because he is a friend and you need to respect him and remember just how far you have come.