I am sharing this encase someone is reading this and needs to draw on the strength in me.

Yesterday I received some news that would rock anyone else. Or cause great distress, but I remembered to remove emotion because the enemy would love to see me cave, but I am of strong stock my DNA is fixed.

I clenched my fists and and screamed at the enemy, I will not be moved and I am not going anywhere.

Yes, I let a small tear out, but refused to fall, having a child that chooses to take the wrong road has been heart wrenching as a mum. I had to take a call that was set at 4 mins, so I said, the enemy is trying to take you out, he is trying to destroy your life, you are extremely selfish having 3 daughters you don’t seem to care, that what you choose to do, will have an effect on there lives. Your decisions can affect there future, so either wake up or do you know what happens when you burn in hell for eternity and what its like.

I had nothing to loose but everything to win, why do I say that, because as I see it, if their life ends, I want to see them in heaven. But I need to be strong in the fact, that I cannot waste any time encase I miss the opportunity to do so.

But I know who I am, I know who my father is and regardless of what happens ,I know in him I have strength.

Last time in my home I was praying and weeping and they saw me, I said, do you want to give your heart to the Lord, thankfully that part was achieved, which the Lord reminded me of when I lay in bed.

Last night church was from my home, I requested his presence to be felt. So last night as I worshipped and opened my heart to him, I felt him stand before me and say, With you I am well pleased.

Really, what a gift to be given in my time of need.

We can do all we can as a parent, but then we have to do what I believe that father would do, wait until they are broken and call to him. Then he can build more than we ever could.

I have said it before, I trust him with my life and theirs….

Yes I was really knocked down and didn’t want to complete the task. But knowing that I had another lesson to learn, I had to just breath for a moment.

Its a terrible place to be, to think you have nothing to hold onto, I understand but I know that I am here to be trained to establish him within me. For those who need him to speak through me, so as I lick my wounds and try to stand up again, for him.

I have been quiet, but I need to be sure before I post anything, that he may need to instruct me first.

I was believing that because I am getting older, who would want me, do I have so many scratches am I too wounded for someone to come into my life. You know the thought process, etc etc, the enemy tried again to convince me that I was not worthy of being loved.

OMG, you disgusting liar, for I am my fathers daughter all I need to do is let him come into my soul, heal it and in the process me.

I will keep you posted…

I am going to receive this, I am going to get all my things on my vision board.

For the in the word it says, write the vision and make it plain.

Being on such a journey, the enemy has tried with my children and my health but it makes me more determined to reach the finish line with arms raised and shouting with joy.

I am more aware as I grow older about the respect given to those who have been around or seen more than us. So glad that I got to know my mum as a person, not just a mother, is so precious to me.

My son has been on my mind, I use to live in the country and not realising it, I was so self righteous and opinionated, stubborn, just to name a few descriptions.

Over the last ten years especially with my son, I have become more aware of this, his view on the world seems to have become so sectioned off. I do not know what it is with kids these days but they seem to think they can talk down to there parents, or treat them like idiots.

And not having a father that partook in his life he is not aware of the limit he should not cross.

I pray that my son becomes more open minded and wants to get to know me as a person, not just his mum. His understanding and empathy needs to expand much more, being unaware that even though he doesn’t want to get hurt, its OK to hurt someone else is wrong.

Please pray that he turns towards me more and away from those who’s attitude he has picked up on, even comments and said them to me, be stopped now in Jesus name.

I understand where he is, but need to see him move forward into where he has been destined to become. Respect those who really do need to be, I learnt more about my mum, when I started listening to the girl she was, instead of what I saw her to be.

She was never just a mum, she was someone who I was able to be the gift she always desired before her time was up, and that was as a friend not just her daughter…

Fire is done, to burn the old away, clean the build up and then his rain can bring forth new growth.

It is well, watch Even if in last post. Hold on, its going to be a ride…

John Farnham sung that song many years ago, if you don’t know who he is then google it.

Man he can sing, I saw him live once, wow he does not need a microphone.

Anyway, your the voice of the word, do you understand that, we are his daughters and his sons, so you have a destiny.

Make a noise and make it clear, do not sit in silence do not live in fear. We can all stand together for him without fear.

Let the Lord use you, let him fire you off in the direction of his choice and love it all…

I always keep in mind that his word says, in the right time and season.

So being very aware of this last Friday, I had an appointment at the hairdresser’s. I thought about changing it, so glad I didn’t.

So I went in, the lady is Indian nationality, we started talking and I felt his presence. She said, that she was going to give up her daily prayer, she had set up a place in her home for every morning to go and pray.

She put it all away, but still prayed that day, I saw the opening and grabbed it.

I told her, I know that there is only one God, he doesn’t mind what you do, but you need to keep praying.

She then said, how others around her that are not good people seem to be getting further or everything in life and she pray’s but nothing happened.

I told her the truth as I know it to be, I said to her, the Lord lets others who do not have a hedge around them, or the blood of Jesus on the door posts of the house, go so far.

He then lets the enemy knock them off (pedestal), I told her not to worry about what you see in others. When nothing appears to be happening, it’s happening in the heavenlies. So keep going, don’t stop for he appreciates your dedication and loves you for it.

If its quiet pray harder, pull it down and have it now.

She said, you were meant to come in today, I feel very blessed by your words, thank you.

No thanking me, its him, he had a date with her, right time and season…how awesome was his love for her that day.

Last night the speaker and Pastor spoke on what I have been posting and I AM EXCITED today.

I sat there thinking, did they read what I posted, oh father I know it’s you.

I feel so very special today, he is right here with me, the angels are being put to work and I desperately want to know what tomorrow will bring. But in him, I trust what he has for me.

I trust that he will use me, what others over my life have considered the foolish. He is going to use me to speak and shock a lot of Christians, because they are sitting on a dusty shelf and need cleaning up.

But it will not be me, just my vessel being used for my dad. I trust any words he has to speak out to the people he will be the teacher. Because if it was him before you, in all his glory. Would you really know him, that’s the key to everything, know him.

On this wonderful weekend, make a date with him. Spend quality time, put down the technology and read his word, pray in tongues and be blessed.

Get the message he has for you, right now and be inspired to go out and speak up…

Time to shout, time to smile, time to speak his word.

Time to live, time to stand, its time….

For the love of my father, I make this statement that when he needs me, fear shall not stop me and I will be there as his friend. To speak his name, with love and compassion, most of all, all of me, I am ALL in…