Today I have been singing a song, and tears keep welling in my eyes.

Because, I mean them, it may just seem like a general song but, I do fall deeper and deeper in love with my Lord.

I realised that when I met someone in my past, they thought I would cheat on them. So they attached me, words like, putting chook shit (makeup) on your face or going out tarting.

When all I wanted to do was feel good and make the person want to be seen with me.

Because of the love I feel now, I know time will come when I finally get back that feeling before nasty words tried to shut me down.

I wash them with the blood of Jesus, for I am better than that. And I have asked to get healthy, so the time will come.

All I have to do is hold onto my faith and follow his instruction.

Today, I did not do much but feel like my light shone.

I cannot write what I mean, but I hope you understand, wherever you are.

When the news keeps telling me things, I praise him in my heart.

When darkness tries to pull you down, if that is to do with money or anything else, let your light shine and hand it to dad, he will give you the steps.

Nothing is so large that it cannot be broken down and managed.

From one who knows, this is so very true.

When you smile, others smile with you.

When you laugh, others laugh with you.

When you do something and someone notices, then says, what can I do your so nice. I say pay it forward.

So breed some happiness, laugh, make a joke.

I do not want to be a skinny model, or be dripping in diamonds.

I want to appreciate every breath, every moment and learn, then apply it to my life.

Do it, you get more than you give…

This is something we have all seem to have forgotten.

When we work so hard to have finance, then blow it.

We need to do as we were trained many years ago, a little splurge is fine. But you must put most of it away.

A new house is nice, but really do you need it, a roof over your head is all you need.

Food in your belly and clothed, when did we get so caught up with having to have it all.

Their are things I would love to have, but I know my father knows the desires of my heart.

So all I have to do is keep him in my front thought and things will fall into place.

I stopped fretting many years ago about what I did not have and striving for things, but that is just it, things.

He is most important and the best thing I ever received from my mother was how to make something last, how to stretch and how to manage money.

And be happy with just that, I know I do not have to keep up with the Jones’s I have more than they ever will, so find your peace.

Know dad will add, when you get your mind, heart and spirit right.

So many lies have been told, so many empty words.

But as I sit here I know one thing, I will not be condemned for my past.

So many have thought they knew me, but really they only know what they want too.

I am a really nice person, I have not got a mean bone in my body.

What I do have is tenacity, when I know beyond any doubt I am right, I will make a stand.

That is not a bad thing, I was reminded of when I was young, my mum would always speak for me and answer anyone. I remember a lady came to our house when I was 8 and thought I was a visitor, no one ever saw me unless at school. It was safer that way.

I was shown how I always would automatically say yes, but inside scream NO. But I was really quiet, now I am not, but only when its required.

I am writing this thinking about things, its funny you grow up learning from watching, but what if you don’t see things, I never saw my mother have any friends it was not allowed.

I never knew her to keep in contact until her last years because she never was around it. I know some things I do is because I never knew how.

But you know what, I am here when required and in this weird time, I find I am not alone. So I do not feel lonely, I don’t miss hugs because I never got one.

So when your feeling  certain things call on him, keep busy.

I finally finished something I started 35 yrs ago. Be safe be smart and do not disdain his instruction.

Over several days I keep getting, he gave his only begotten son for us.

And he knew, what he had to do for me.

So take these simple words, and be touched by them.

You know only at Easter do I think people get charged believing that he rose again.

What he went through for me, who was yet to be born, but to be born for such a time as this.

If I crumble now, I go back on the contract I agreed too. Before there was even an earth, when you agree with a contract, that is it your locked in.

So what ever is coming and trust me, I have seen people burning churches to try and stop us, I saw myself wondering around saying to one person.

‘That is only a building your burning, church is within me, if you kill me, it will still not stop, for you cannot stop the will of God.

Do you see, there is nothing to fear, but please pay attention.

I sit here wondering, are any of so called God’s people ready to stand.

If man threatens to take you out, will you stand for him and crumble.

I watched someone and its what I know, when this virus started, I payed attention but only to follow the rules.

Did I fear, NO, I fear God and his anger, not the world.

I laugh, I find joy, I find my trust in him for I have faith in knowing my dad will have my back.

So as I sit here, this is his question to you, are you ready? For its time, do not be moved by what you see, know my word, for you are in HIS hands.

I was about to leave and get on with my day.

When he said, he is sending you a message, now I do not know what it is for each individual, but when it comes, stop and pay attention.

Open up your listening and know how special this is….