Category Archives: Just Me

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The world doesn’t like it…

I believe with all I am that the Lord is directing Donald Trump and if he does wrong the Lord will convict him.

But those who run him down, will pay a hefty price.

I do not know why, but I know that the USA needed this. Sometimes you get so far off track, you forget or cannot see how wrong you may have gone.

And it can take someone who will go against your grain, to pull you back.

I always state to people when they say, oh your so nice, big heart full of love and empathy.

But its no longer I that lives but he who dwells within me, so if the Lord is using the vessel of Donald. Then I would be terrified to not know and accept his correction.

Remember he create this world, he knew you from the beginning and he has a PLAN.

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Smile and …

Remember the saying, smile and the world will smile with you.

Well why not, pray and the next to you will pray and so on.

It reminds me of that movie, pay it forward. I am a born giver, why? Because I feel like I have been given so much more than you could ever imagine.

As I go about my day, at every chance I tell people how the Lord saved my life again. I am passed caring and most responses are taught by the enemy, so I ignore it.

I love the fact I woke up today and its another before I get to see my father. I am glad to be breathing and I do not have to say sorry for the fact.

Its a wonderful day, because I am in it.

Its a wonderful year, because I have expectations of what is to come.

Get optimistic about your life, and find your joy in knowing your worth.

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Australia Day

On the news recently its been said that some council want the day moved and its a reminder of a stolen nation.

Now wait a minute, for one thing if we are not reminded of history. Then we will make the same mistake again, history or your past is for you to learn from and move forward.

And seriously, you have homeless people, starving families and roads etc need attention. Get to work and leave it alone, what has been done has just that BEEN.

I am trying to figure out if I am part indigenous, even if I am, I feel strongly that you earn what you get. I know from experience if you rehash the past and become bitter and angry, you get no where.

So I say, bring on the day, lets celebrate how far we have come. Lets see the beauty of this country and that poem comes to mind which sums up how I feel about THE land that God has in his hands.

I love a sunburnt country – a land of sweeping plains – of rugged mountain ranges – of drought and flooding rain – I love her far horizons – I love her jewel seas – her beauty and her terror – THE WIDE BROWN LAND FOR ME

We are blessed to be here at this time, the time before his return, so go out and be blessed and smile for goodness sake. Be grateful for what you have, not what you don’t.

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You do not loose when you give something up

Many times we are taught that if we give something up, we loose.

When you are a child of God and Jesus is on your side, you win more than you could imagine.

The last few days I have been very aware of how happy he is, about what I had decided to do and make a stand recently.

I feel him know, he was waiting for this. For now their is nothing stopping me. This I feel is a prophetic word.

Lets see what he has in store.

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He is here with me…

Over the last few days, I have felt his presence. I have been talking and he has been answering.

To have a relationship with him is so valuable, to be humble by it, bumps up the value. To respect just what I have, is up another notch.

THE LORD IS WITH YOU WHERE EVER YOU GO..

How many times do we try and only show our good side, but remember he knew you before you were created. He knows your thoughts before you think them, he sees the real you, he see your heart.

There is no place to hide, and no place to run.

So embrace him with all that you are and capable of, you will win every time.

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I find joy in the little things…

Being blessed, I headed for Bunnings to have a look around. I love to think about what I can build or design or what is new out.

I always have been curious about those fly trap plants, so I bought one. Called it Jaws and have been finding all sorts of bugs to feed it.

As I said, I find joy in the simple things, like when I start feeling sorry for myself, I turn it around and make something, usually a jam or sauce.

At new years I bought out my sauce that I made a year ago, cross between tomato and barbecue, the longer you leave it the better. I let it to cook longer so it got darker and richer and so happy it was a hit…

Thanks Lord for giving me that talent, to improve on recipes and making those around me happy.

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If you don’t ask, you don’t receive…

Now I have said this before, but I believe in him, so I asked.

Its funny, but I waited to see how hot it was going to be on new years eve. Then I txt everyone to ask them around for a barbecue.

I wanted to invite the Lord and others, so I prepared. Luckily I was trained how to make things happen, and with little effort. I make mental plans and once happy then I go for it.

My Pastor said to me, “what do you believe for in the new year” my answer was meant as a funny but I said, “my husband and to be wealthy”.

He gave me a little note to thank me and in it, were the words, for the giver will be made rich.

Hey, I will take that, when I think of how blessed I am by the father, I feel like a zillionaire, so why shouldn’t it be so… It does not matter how much money I have, I love finding a bargain, I love the hunt to find just what I want. I do not like to pay full price and I do not like labels, so the interest would grow.

I believe this will happen, for the thief be found he MUST restore 7 fold…

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Christmas is hard…

At Christmas I get very teary, why you may ask.

Because of where my children are at, I cannot choose between them. So because circumstances I have Christmas alone, luckily I have friends who invited me for lunch. But I have to admit I would dearly love my table, surrounded by family, loving what I cooked for them, full of laughter and fun.

But I never regret my decision to follow the Lord, he is my top priority and I cannot choose anything over him. Its not up to me anymore, its all him.

Somehow I struggle with finance as we all do, I have never had a credit card, and bills turn up right on Christmas. But this year, money kept stretching and stretching, which without my belief, it would not happen.

I pray, that my children come out of the hands of the enemy and return home with open hearts.

As a mum I always want to make things right, this time I had to be hard and stand up for myself, hardest thing but I still love my son.

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Xmas, I am filled with sharing

Over the weekend I tried to get a few things for the lunch I have been invited too.

I just want to share, a blessing with everyone, Xmas normally feels very sad time for me. Only because I get to think if only my kids were speaking to each other, or the other would get off his high horse and see me for just his mum who loves him.

But this year I am going to believe and expect, for what you may ask. That this time next year, I will have either met or married the one the Lord has for me. That my son, will answer my phone calls or txt’s and realise I am human and a little effort would not kill him.

Anyway, I expect that my finances will zillion’ise next year and my weight and health will be fabulous.

I wish you all a safe holiday, and show a little kindness. You just might get back more than you could ever believe…

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I realised I can come across as confusing…my husband needs to know

The other night the Lord showed me, my response to things are not what is expected and that others cant take as the real response, the following is why I need help.

No, Na, Nope, now this may seem a bit daft to begin with but really people, don’t understand what I am getting at.

  1. No is the solid form meaning: not gonna happen. Or I am freaking out and better to say no, but you may need to chat more to find out why.
  2. Na is the meaning: thinking maybe yes, need more info before I confirm the outcome. Possibility is there always.
  3. Nope meaning: Maybe I did maybe I did not, I might be trying to be funny.

In all this I try very hard, but after years of finding the word NO, its really hard to flip that switch.

My concern is my hubby when he walks up to me, for a date. Oh lord your gonna have to help here. You see I get very embarrassed and nervous, so my instant reaction is NO, save myself from the first date, first kiss and getting to know me, it really freaks me out.

I am very worth the bother (I finally know my value), ask the father he knows. But I wish I could just go too, hi how about we get hitched, and find out after that, if the Lord shows us then who are we to question. I am very private when it comes to this, you ask me out in front of people I know, its gonna be a NO or I will make a joke to try and hide my reaction. I want the process to be private, so no body is hurt. I was never one to want to hold hands, kiss in public or have a cute name, its between me and them.

Going out, how hard is that, well allergies, motion sickness, nervous stomach are not good at all, omg too personal to share. I like to chat about interesting subjects or even my veggie patch, things of interest, and when I am nervous I talk fast (Oh lord the more I think about it, I am sitting here getting nervous). Its an inbuilt form of protection that sometimes I am not aware that I am doing till later. But Lord let my hubby know, I am a treasure worth the effort, and getting to really know me, will be surprising and valuable. If he gets a no, try again, find out why, is it really a no or am I having a panic attack.

Being very cheeky and dry sense of humour, the hardest thing is controlling myself, as I do not want to appear as if I am flirting. I don’t think I know how to flirt anyway, I always thought I was just being friendly, I would have no idea if someone was interested anyway, it takes a person to walk up and say, I am interested in dating you, I am totally oblivious. I think because as my body matured, at the time I really needed a true friend, someone to share my heart with, and I missed the knowledge of finding out someone is interested in me.

The main problem is I never felt really good enough about myself, so in my head, why would they want to be with me, must be just sex they want (before I surrendered to the Lord’s way). But coming through it all and finding my worth finally, he needs to really make the effort and it has to come from him as I would never ask anyone out, not gonna happen.

Sometimes people have thought I had feeling towards someone, instead I felt protective as a sister or friend, people don’t really know me when it comes to this.

I don’t want any of my feelings to come forward, until the father says, he is the one. Then I will sit back and go quiet, sounds a miracle I know, but I am a thinker. I go away think about it all, before I make the final decision, I do not rush into anything, wisdom has to rule here. I want to be sure, I have not only my children to consider but my journey in Christ.

I am sticking to this motto : I believe he gives you what you need, not what you want.