I have been trying to work out something, that has had a very negative affect on me.

I saw someone who tries to make out they are a saint, standing outside a coffee house, but I know all the bad that has been done and it has really affected me over the years.

It has bugged me because, they set up their own brother to be hurt, the whole town hated them, and tried to control me, manipulate, now has hooks into my children, the countless victims is immense.

I kept wondering how, especially when others don’t know, and thinking, just how my mother hated, in her words (the bullxxxt and lies that come out of their mouth).

And, really being upset and feeling so unwell the Lord showed me, I was watching a YouTube clip of an atheist, he had parents that were Christians and others that believed, he became unwell died and when he left his body, he saw many layers, many things and even Hitler paying the price for every death he caused.

One experience that struck me and gave me the answer was this, a women who outwardly in her life, seemed a saint, lovely women always dressed lovely, even part of the PTA, her life seemed perfect, but she was controlling, held those around her back so she was the most important, manipulative narcissist, violent with those around her, her children and controlled those in the way of the description, Stockholm syndrome.

She was in hell, paying the price for all her wrongs, the damage she had inflicted on others and I saw the mirror image of what I have had to deal with, with that individual and I was scared for them, yes people who do not believe think there is no eternal life, but there is and I see her headed straight for it, even when she has even used God to seem perfect.

As I have said before, (YES, I AM NOT PERFECT EITHER), but I have repented, surrendered and handed all over for what I have done, I have been cleansed by the blood of Jesus and apologised to those close.

Oh, I stood and prayed for family members, I see it now, I see narcissism, Stockholm syndrome and believe me when your around this person, who sets you up to fail and even doubt your own sanity. It is frightening as having this experience yourself, and knowing that if my life is not right where am I going for eternity. Made me cry out for them to come to the realisation, because of the experiences I have had.

I have seem my mum in heaven, getting instructions and she told me to go back. I saw my brother, sitting in a room with wooden walls, first off I thought and felt my heart think family, then wham, something is not right and kept screaming at him saying, “what are you doing here, GET OUT, GET OUT”. The enemy can show you in any form, to make you not see the mask that is being worn, you must get your life right, NOW.

Again as this man was speaking he said, “Hell will make you think, it all lovely and full of love, but your very core knows its not what it seems”. I think having severe sleep apnea, has allowed me to see things, when I am at my worst in sleep. I knew what I saw was not right, and being so sick, even felt the enemy trying to steer me in his direction, but I am not allowing it.

Let me be frank, being really sick and having green come out has caused weird thing to happen in my body, even affecting my driving ability, especially when I have a migraine as well. But I know, it has to pass and I have to rest, but I keep my father in mind, and not to allow the enemy to win.

But I am also thankful, because these times of quiet has allowed the father to show me, the truth and that has been both frightening, and know I am loved.

But if that person, your name beings with S, reads this truth, you need to know, I have prayed for you, but as the man experienced, when you are before Jesus at the time of JUDGEMENT, you cannot lie and manipulate your way around it, you will head for the same suffering in eternity of hell for what you have done, to me, my children, to mum, your brother and many, many more.

This is YOUR CHANCE, to stop this and get on your knees, cry out for your salvation… do it now, this is your final warning.

All I feel now, knowing this truth is sadness for them, no longer is the hold, holding me anymore.

Thank you father, for showing me the truth, as it is…

Just hold on….

When I get revelation, or know that something is coming, that no one can question, it sparks me up and drives me to know, he loves me.

I get saddened when people, cannot see the blessing.

Going back to the old saying, you can lead a horse to water, but you cannot make it drink.

You can sit in church, but are you allowing change to take place, are you present, when he calls your name.

I know, one day, my words that are his will hit big time, seeing your name written in the pages of history, is really big.

I have an inclining, but I am not the architect here, he is, so things could change.

But I know, the world will be made to listen, and those who can listen and hear, will know that what happened 2000 years ago, IS REAL.

I know, I am getting very deep here, but seriously, how deep is your depth of faith in him.

Are you just like a duck, paddling on the surface, or do you submerge to the deepest depths…

It is a fair question, you see, here there was something on the television and it caused food for thought.

You see many people get into a situation of following one man, but forget whom they need to keep their eyes on.

My eyes remain on, how he has brought me through, how he saved me, how he gave me the great gift of hearing his audible voice.

My eyes know, man can fail, but he does not, you have to use your brain and know what in a conversation is truth and what is not.

I know when things don’t fit, I know when something is off, it is a gift I love and treasure.

My own personal depth had grown tired, but that is my fault, being sick and now having severe sleep apnea and PTSD can rock you a little, but my love remains the same, all for him.

I have been one very sick, duckee…

The enemy is trying all he can to stop me, this realisation is key to my recovery.

What I have been doing is taking mental note, of what is going on in the world.

I prayed that the worlds people would realise, money cannot save them, but can aid in their end.

If you get serious, he can save you, he is the key, he is all your need in one.

I may have been down, but I am never out, I am still his, I will always be, HIS

So, in this crazy world, take note, if you want to live, money and fame will not do anything but cause your end.

Something that frightens me is when a law, says it is ok to marry your 1st cousin.

When you know, that the fathers law is what you need to follow, something is very wrong.

I know someone, who did and then had a affair with another 1st cousin.

At the time, the revolt coming from within me, was so strong, I was dry reaching.

I believe at the time, it was the spirit in me, showing me, how wrong this was.

Problem is, our laws and his are very different, but as an individual, as long as I follow his. Then when I stand before him, I can stand, knowing that I tried my best to follow the true law.

Recently here, we have had hackers and scammers go nuts.

Problem is, if it doesn’t touch the government, there is no change.

But, I stand on this, if you have a site, then you must hold a protocol, of if its sick, bulling etc, then you need to let the law enforcement have access to be able to find these people.

I do not believe that allowing individuals to hide behind a screen is ok, for how is that not ok if they are going after your children, I believe strong action and laws should be put in place.

It is like a recent news report, 2 dogs who were bullmastiff, a lady was out walking her dog, had her baby strapped to her, these dogs kept trying to attack her and the baby and mauled her dog, which was on a lead.

The owner, said to the reporter she knew and the reason, she couldn’t walk them, sorry but when you own an animal, then you must be responsible, even if that means, either putting them down, or giving them away in a animal shelter to be tested.

I am glad she can face a fine of $20,000 dollars, I am sorry it comes to that, but imagine if a child was riding a bike by themselves, it could have been a lot worse and a dog, once blood is tasted, changes. Training needs to happen to not only the dog, but the owners in general…

Maturity, logic and responsibility are being lost and not for the better…

Sometimes I begin to pray in tongues, sometimes I pray with a tune, it causes me to go into a realm that is awesome.

On Wednesday unusual music was played, it was the same tune, that I had been praying and worshiping too the week prior.

So, how amazing when things, just click. I love and appreciate my father Jesus, I am always thankful, when I ask for a parking space, or chat about something and he finds a way to make it happen.

I am amazed, bless and humbled by these occurrences, because it shows me his love and that he has me.

We get so bogged down with, trying to make things happen, we forget to stop and hand it to him. We forget to let him father us, but also, we have to be mature enough, to accept it, when we don’t receive.

It comes down to love and relationship, who is the most important in your life.

Simple, HE IS

Yesterday I remembered, how my mother said, that she always wanted me to be her friend, and before she went, our relationship was that of mutual respect and honor, yes there were traits from whom she lived with, but her true self was what we shared and valued.

The same with the lady who recently passed, when she walked in my door, the father was present, when she was allowed to just be, let out what she needed too, and just be, whom she could in a trusted environment. I don’t mean anything bad or special, just free, because if you cannot provide a relationship with those, whom you respect most in your life, and just take, then its not one sided.

Working on these relationships, I believe trains you, for your relationship with him. You must make the space for free access, a trusted place of knowing that what goes on, a secret space that is between you and him, in trust, and will go no further.

That is what is required, decorum, trust, honor and love.

Keep it simple stupid.

I was talking to a friend yesterday, she said your know a lot of things.

Yes, mainly because I pay attention.

But, I know that what I see, there is HIS way, and that is why I answer the way I do.

Because his way is obvious and I need to always remember, KISS.

I do believe, so I also am waiting to receive…

Why do I make this statement, because something is coming, something big.

I know I am rich in spirit and truth, when that is what you have, its awesome. But, I keep thinking, he also wishes to bless us in another way.

Now, most would not even go there, but I am, why because I know how much he loves me. And I believe, I am set enough, to not become stupid or full of myself, but as I sit here typing, I am very aware, I would get rid of anything in my way, whether that be finances or something else.

My value of that relationship with my father, is worth more than money or riches and I keep saying it, people with money get stupid, I was watching something late last night, a lady stated. That “some women have class and some just have money” and wanted them harmed, because something didn’t go her way.

I could see, only through her eyes, did she think she was above them, when to me, she was lower. It often shocks me, how small a persons view can be, when wealth blinds them.

Sometimes I watch things and think, they may be older, but they are not any wiser.

I believe, in many ways, things are put in front of you, as a sign from the father. I was thinking yesterday as I took a chance to go out, with my achy stomach and the car park, in front of me was a trolley with a piece of paper that just had, BB.

What does this mean, I always wanted to start a small niche business. Why niche, because when you get too big, your chasing money and you loose your way.

So my idea, was Bronie’s Bakes, for I have a way of making something simple, given an edge that fills you with love as you eat it. What makes me laugh is most things if not all, I never eat, allergies oy.

Anyway, that BB was only significant to me, I know what I would do, make them and distribute to chosen places, no shop front, but a little kitchen room in my backyard. Then I think about my knees and back, but with help, I think it could be done.

You see many places to grab a bite, but they are all the same, I don’t get it. But I know what they need, because, people need to feel the love from food, because people in the world are starving for his nourishment, and praying over each bake, would I believe bring change.

So soups, biscuits, cakes, meals, could be a simple thing, that creates great change…