Lately something has really taken place in my life, awareness of his world, much much more than the world I live in.

I don’t go out very often, but when I do, I want people to feel the love I feel for him. No I am not shoving him down anyone’s neck. But I believe kindness and standing up when it counts.

I saw my physio lady who had come back from a holiday overseas, she went to two countries and told me the first was great the second, that her father-in-law died. Now if you have gotten to know me, you’d know what I instantly said, but you were there, at the exact time needed.

A brilliant observation, because with every dark cloud there is a rainbow, you just have to be in a place to see it.

Death is a transition into eternity; it is going from pain and maybe a not so brilliant journey to the place your meant to be. Or the place you have chosen over your life choices.

You face judgement and your allocated, I pray I end up where I have been told I will. But I still feel I ain’t finished yet, I have something big to do, without fear of what comes later.

He knows I went from being a quiet, shy child, to being bold and speaking when I need too, for I will not be silenced again.

I was always taught to keep quiet, to hold in all the pain etc and never stand up to the bullies. Now, I warn people, do not poke the bear, I have a very long memory, and I know your personality fault. I will not stand silent ever again, mum taught me well in many ways, but some I didn’t agree with, but I will never cower again.

This last comment is for the sibling who thinks she is better than everyone else and can lie her way out of a conversation. But I know how you work, I see you as God sees you and your judgement day is coming closer than mine.

The damage you have done is noted and you cannot lie your way out of what is to come, but I will spend this moment to pray you stop the path you’re on and beg repent and ask for forgiveness, it’s the only way.