What do I mean by that? Are you solid in your character, I was saying how once you cross me, your done. I will be pleasant, but the trust is gone. I learn very fast and have learnt that the enemy is waiting for any opportunity.
I have learned over time, that when I love, I love with all of me. I leave nothing left, so if I am hurt or crossed it hits me hard. I do not have time to waste on people who think they can, play games. They are not worth my time or breath. I don’t know if anyone else feels this way.
If I say I am going to do something, then I will honour my word or admit defeat. This is something that I am really passionate about is, trust and honesty.
I don’t mince my words, if you ask me a question I will say I love you, and then give you my answer. I have been called blunt, but as I say, “Did you ever meet my mother?” Lord that woman was hard, but I learned things and chose to change others.
I know what I want, I know what I want to do. I know who I am and I can honestly say, finally I like myself. No I am not a in love and its all about me. Its, I like the person the Lord has turned me into, I was discussing with a trusted friend how I knew very bad eggs, people who could remove you from the planet with no trace. I hung around some very bad eggs along time ago, who denied the laws on the earth.
But now here I sit, changed, with an open heart, the person said to me “I cannot ever imagine you any different, you are so lovely and kind” yes, oh how I have changed.
Remember the old me died at my baptism, the day I chose to surrender and be cleansed by my father. From that day forward little by little, here I am.
Dont fear the unknown, embrace and enjoy all of it. That is something I struggled with, but I am learning to receive.