There is one thing that I am certain of, you move forward when your broken and surrender.
When you apologise for messing up and are willing to lick your wounds and start again.
Only good can come from this, it is certain. Like the sun will rise in the morning and there will be night in the evening.
Forgive at this time of year, if that is what you need to do, sometimes the biggest person to forgive is YOU.
You are bigger person for doing this than you know, glory be to my father who is my rock.