Now I struggle some what with sleep, nightmares and flashbacks.

Yep, I have said it now, I have avoided people, reminders etc etc.

And, not knowing why as I age, it comes back more and more.

Well, PTSD, when something I feel is too much, I shake physically, I have trouble sleeping when its dark, I am not just a light sleeper, but hyper vigilant. Any sound, crack movement, I am awake and start to sweat, never knew why, knew where it came from, but I also asked our dad.

I wanted to know what was going on, because once you know, you can deal with it. And deal with it, I am, it had to come to the light and when you have not gone through something, that you know is affecting you now. You have to awaken, that part to then start to heal.

And he knows, I am asking even if it hurts, it will only hurt for a short time.

I trust him, and he knows it, so he leads me to where I need to be, slowly but surely. And the right season is here today… for that I am truly thankful.