Recently a couple of times, I have said something out loud and it hit me.

What hit me, just how strong I am, how I have come through so much and what I have learned about myself.

My daughter had to go to hospital, she hurt her knee and I know that a lot of things I say to her, what she takes in and what goes over her head.

But what struck me was how this strength came out, I told her how the times I have had to go, I know I’m there to show his light from inside of me, how to show his word, to pray when I ask them and to stand on the knowledge of what you can do, when you believe. How being his vessel is a blessing to share with others in the right way, if only they will listen.

I learned that I am not afraid of anyone when I have to stand for him, to stand for I am jealous of my father, as he is jealous of me. How that knowledge leads me, strengthens me and surprises me in times I don’t expect it too.

This is brilliant, something that was so an answer to a prayer I asked, for I had heard about fasting but didn’t know really how to do it, in the pain I was experiencing.

So, the lord answers in the most surprising way, I saw a short, you can fast from your phone, from the tv, whatever you’re battling with, it doesn’t just mean food like I thought and the young man said you read the bible and pray.

My nerve had been pinching for over 4 months and I was beside myself, I couldn’t think straight at times, it just got too much. So, a week ago I chose to fast on scrolling YouTube, I would check the weather and the time, also add in the texts to my daughter. And NO tv and I would do it from dawn to dusk. Because that is all I had in me, losing sleep etc wears on you and I did it all day, I set my phone alarm for sunset and I read, I prayed and I chatted to him.

Well well well, he answered, my nerve unlocked, I awoke with no pain in my left butt cheek, and I shouted a hallelujah because he deserved it, I told my doctor, my physio and anyone who would listen. I was so happy and relieved.

To see the evidence that it works to me was my miracle and I will take that all day long.

Then I think again, you live you learn, but you must put his lessons into action and believe..