This has been something I have been struggling with for pain takes every breath to just be present.

But then he grants you a way out.

This is the time I need to stand up; I took it as my suffering like Jesus. But I am a daughter of his, I am given the word to use and stand for the healing.

Because this is not for me to bear, it’s to show the evidence of things not seen.

It took a very dedicated wise young man to cross my path, so I can get the power and remove this.

So, I stand in the name of Jesus, that all my ailments are removed now in the name of Jesus. I cast each one out for this is not for me, I am here to finish my mandate and that I will do.

So pain, take a hike and I cast you into the sea where you belong in Jesus mighty name.

Sometimes and a lot lately, my mum has come to mind.

I am reminded of a picture she had; she told me that when she was pregnant with me, she stood in front of the picture and said, she wanted the baby to be a girl and her best friend.

Before she died, we had an extraordinary connection, that we understood. This made a moment so touching after she died.

After the funeral the church group she attended put on some snacks, the ladies behind the counter were really nice and I said to them I appreciated their time and that I was her youngest daughter.

The ladies told me this, your mum talked about her daughter, how they were so close and how she was so proud of her and how much she loved that she was her friend. I took that moment and said, oh that’s me, then one said, oh another daughter said it was her. I said yes she would, but she wasn’t but if that gives her peace today then, okay. The look I got was, yes I get you, and then acknowledging it was me after all.

My mum was unique and at times brutally honest. But, when she said something, like a couple of months before she went, “Bronie I really do love you, you do know that don’t you”.

So back to my point, because I have experienced things to do with others after they have gone home, every morning I say good morning to them, then good morning, Ruth Gwendoline my beautiful mum.

Twice I have seen her in heaven, twice with no emotion but I have asked that when we see each other again she smiles. Why, in heaven emotion or acknowledgment of who they are does not matter, you’re not more important than any other on your level. But you are there to pray, to work, to be assigned. And she knows this, but knowing she’s made it brings me joy, for her earthly life wasn’t nice, but her eternal life is.

I have taken the time to acknowledge the evidence shown to me and with that, the truth always stands…

It’s funny how the father can take a subject and teach you an easy lesson.

I started reading a little of the bible, trying to make myself read a little each day. So far, I am trying to motivate myself but seeing shorts of Charlie Kirk and then pointing the finger at myself.

Things are changing, I have felt a shift, it’s amazing how a simple act of diligence can make a huge different in the atmosphere.

We really need to keep it simple, be diligent and for me I am not afraid to stand and shout out his glorious name. Yes, I get odd looks, but I do not care, what others think.

I care about him, and that’s the important thing when the time comes for judgement.

Here is where I laugh, I am an over thinker to the point I get myself in a head space that should not be allowed. And that’s the key, do not allow it, so I started reading, about time lol.

Sometimes I have to say, deeerrr to myself, but that is fine, because it is a self-check. Which I think to be our best friend is really important.

Having so much fun with my new computer and phone, yay I am finally upgraded. I was taught you don’t buy on credit, you save, you go without until you reach your goal. And that is what I did, and getting the best deals.

I have also a modem and much more, yeeha. Thanks all to the father…

I have been struggling with an old phone and computer.

Well after having anxiety and freaking myself out, I got an update on both, why my phone would stop and could not add apps etc. Also, it was what I call cranky…

My computer the browser and the windows were very old, it was what I bought when I had my last full-time job and the company liquidated, and I got a very good and very professional computer cheap.

I was brought up with this, if you want something then save for it, don’t just go and be in debt. You will appreciate it more but also know you are debt free. And if I have to live off dim sims I will.

Little by little you have to replace things, what I did was and once they were delivered, I waited 2 weeks to turn them on, why, again I was so scared to do the wrong thing and I also got internet, as I had used my personal hot spot on my phone.

But everything works and I am so happy, I can type now sitting in bed and clear out all the old things I have and sell what I think is worth it.

Sounds like a plan, now I need my body to behave, supposed to have warmer weather on Saturday and Sunday so I pray for relief.

The other day I came across something that said this and it scared me.

A woman who was an influencer online and she died, it went along the lines of and I keep saying this.

What are you doing to make the difference on Judgement day, for its coming.

Well it said allegedly that she was standing before Jesus and he said those words, you led 300,000 people away. Depart from me for I do not know you.

So 300,001 sent south, that frightens me why, because I understand, that this platform, I must be very careful.

My voice must be leading people in the right direction via my experience, all honest all open and free.

Yes many times I see, starting a pay user option, but how can you put a cost on the father. Nothing comes close, so I give my experience, my struggles and if anyone wants to read. Then they know a person, who has to walk the path, can testify to what glory can be experienced from the father.

Its not a game, its not a get money idea like youtube. Its just me, making mistakes, learning and the testimonies I have had. I am not asking for anything, I am giving, I am not in anyway leading on my path, but I am pointing out how if you love him, surrender and trust all things can happen.

Know as I pour my heart out on these pages, we are human, we struggle but we also never stop learning.

When your sick, you forget your power in words.

You forget, what to say and how to say it.

Well, recently I came across a clip that was timely.

I said and named each of my ailments and got rid of this weight, I had carried for a long time.

You become free, when you realise, you have been given the instruction to cast out demons and you have to name them, you have to do it in such a way that you feel his power running through you.

Here its been so cold, but the last few days have been so sunny and it makes me happy.

So go ahead, if you have anything cast it out, get rid of that weight and see what he does in you.

Watching youtube, I always wonder about what people think.

Why, the other day I came across this site that had people witnessing a vision of Jesus. One person said, are you filming it are you gonna put it on facebook.

My reaction in my head was this, you are witnessing an awesome sign, evidence of him. Get on your knees, praise him, ask him, exult him.

Are so many, in the world not understanding these signs, are they so cut off from the realisation of this. I am guilty of this, if something is upsetting I react first but I should pray first, centre myself.

I correct myself every time, why because I know the more I do, the more it will become second nature.

I am so grateful for everything, so thankful for the blessings, so aware I have nothing to do with it. But its all him, all the love of my life, the most beautiful father you can have in your life.

Yesterday I had an appointment and by the end I started to talk about my belief in God.

I talked about miracles that had happened and about others I had prayed for and there miracle.

Then something struck me, I said boldly, “the world has tried to deny the bible, the word, the very existence of it. They have tried to silence any proof so they control the norm”.

Then I stated this and its truth, “the bible is not a book to deny, its our living history book, the greatest history book we have”. I then realised I should have added, its our history, our past our guide and our future.

Its all just like him in one, if you just read it and let him open up the words, for the full story to hit you.

For when I read it, its like I am transported, for him to show me what I need to see and experience.

This is truth like no other… and I stated, I live in the world but I am not of it.