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How God works for you…

I was reminded about a time when I was in labour with my son, because I had, had so many problems carrying him, the birth was just another episode.

What was brought to my remembrance was his birth, in the country hospital there were two rooms for birthing. Another lady was brought in and my doctor was going back and forth to each room.

He mentioned at the time, one of us would contract then the other, he was betting on who would be first, he said the lady in the other room.

At one point, I told him I felt like I was going to burst, he looked at me and said, “scissors” and snipped the area to expand for delivery, I let out a huge “yeow’ and everyone in the room looked stunned, I knew there was no time for numbing.

And then the most amazing thing happened just when I needed God the most and didn’t know it, the lady who was really going strong, her labour stopped for 15 minutes.

This was the time that the doctor needed with me, when he was born, the cord was cut, and he stopped breathing for 7.5 minutes. My doctor was not one to be rattled, but he knew, what did he know, well from conception, then nearly losing him at 2.5-3 months.

How sick I was, and the relationship I was in and how much stress I was under.

But once he started to breath, they all fell in love with him, and then the other lady’s delivery happened, even my doctor said, this was divine intervention, I did not understand it then, but yesterday, how awesome.

Some babies are just different. And he was beautiful, one of the nursing staff would come in and ask to cuddle him, then she was in line to change him and give him a bath, it was lovely. They all stated how he would wake up, and if no one came and got him to feed he’d just go back to sleep.

He was so calm and so gorgeous, trust me this was not just me. But when we were going home, he cried for the first time. One of the nurses said, that he must know something is changing.

I thought a father should love their baby, but not all men are created equal, and I was going through so much, that being in the midst of it all you cannot label it, but your just manage each moment.

How good was God, to stop the other lady and leave time for my son to have all the attention to get him breathing and take care of my stitches etc and then he was free to care for the other room.

Thank you, father, so much, my son may not be aware of this, but one day I pray, he understands, just what a miracle he is.

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Watching the sad news

I recently watched the sad news about Charlie Kirk.

One of the clips he talked using Alexander the great, what hit me was this, he is just as important today as Alexander was then.

The amount of people now going to church is astounding and why, because one man stood on the word. He made a decision and didn’t make it quietly, he was standing, trying to make the bible loud and clear and I hope he commended for that.

His wife was also showing that she lived by the word. Saying how she has forgiven that young man.

In the last month, I have said those same words listing those people in my past that have caused much pain to me. But as the father knows I wanted to say it and mean every word.

This breakthrough has released me; it has broken a cord that I had been tethered too. And the freedom is real.

Yes, I will not be allowing the devil back in my door, but I do wish them well and I have prayed for them. This freedom has also brought me to here, typing on my new computer and setting myself up for success.

I made a decision years ago, that if I was going to do something I was going to do it well. Instead of the past tethering me, I was going to step forward and not worry about money or any physical limitations. I am my father’s daughter, I am moving forward without any restraints.

To have this now part of my life has taken me every morning saying my good morning to the father and all his saints and angels and spirits. It has taken me reading a passage over and over until it became MY reality, and may I say NEVER GIVE UP, until it happens. Because remember his words, it happens in his time and his season. Just keep believing until that time.

All I have to end with is this, my father is ever present, ever helpful and ever brilliant. Hallelujah…

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Mum…

Lately, I have felt my mum, so strongly, in the morning as I say good morning to all of the above. I have added in my mum, I bought a quilt cover, that she would have loved and every time I walk past or into my bedroom, I am filled with love.

Something my mother had was woolen blankets and secretly, I have always wanted a certain style of them, and have waited till now, I have recently purchased two, one on the bed for summer and the other in wait for winter to come around again.

Woolen blankets have come a long way, not scratchy, not heavy, but once I washed it, there was a bit of fluff, so on the cloths line, I got a soft brush and brushed the excess fluff off. It can take a couple of washes but, defiantly worth it. I feel like my mum is giving me a warm hug, and it makes me smile.

I have gone from feeling so strongly as to why a life was filled with abuse, hurt and sadness, to disconnecting from some of her children and just loving the first Larry and me the last. I found with what she had been through, dishonor, disrespect, and lies got you banished from her emotions. And she would not change her stance, once your done, your done.

But I am so glad we were friends before she transitioned to her eternal life. I am very much the same way, you do something bad against me, your done. Yes I will be polite and tolerate you, but I will be on guard always after that. And yes it has to be pretty bad for that to happen.

Every time I do something, I think of mum, I think if she couldn’t then as long as my father is ok with it, then I can. Both of them knew my heart, you see, you have to understand someone, what there past has been forming them, why they do the things they do, to understand them, to love them. Even through the mucky parts, it makes sense, when you don’t just see mum, but Ruth herself.

Then everything fell into place, I understand, I saw her and loved her so much, she knew it, because she told me, “Bronie, I really do love you, you know that don’t you” those words are what is valued by me.

Love you mum…

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Since April

How the father works for your special month, October is my birthday month and every year I ask him for a gift, something just for me and something only he can do.

Well since April, I applied for something, I have waited and waited, I knew only he could do it and he has.

So often as humans we forget the keys, given to us, but to drive the car you need a key, for the front door you need a key, for the office etc, you need a key.

So, why are we so often loosing the power of those keys, this is something he has taught me, keys, asking, waiting and leaving it to him.

You see, I am nothing special, I am no better than you, but I have a love for my father, a love that overwhelms me at times and bring tears to my eyes because of the love, trust and knowledge that has driven me further than just his book.

I have this encompassing feeling, something great is coming, something big.

And it leads me back to trespassing, you see I have had someone come into my home, without asking and without permission and if you love him, you wouldn’t do that to him, so why do we stretch our reasoning mind. Why is it ok to do that to me, when you would not be game to do it too him.

So many times, a white lie, or denying the truth is ok, in this confused world, but I would not dare as to why, I will be honest even if it hurts, because with that, he sees me, he sees the little things mean as much as the big things and that I am so very grateful and humbled by his love.

So my lovely’s keep these things in mind, its not funny, its not good and its not ok, to not do right by him. For remember the song, what if God was one of, just a stranger on the bus, trying to make his way home. Do you see the stranger, do you take the time to smile in there direction, what effort does your spirit make? Its a really good question, I think…

We need to understand, how much he loves us, how much he has for us, so anything we desire, he has far more for us.

It reminds me of a conversation with someone, who understand the power of the father, I said, there is no fight I need to fight, for the father will do it for me and bring down justice that, that person needs to be corrected.

My father has done it many times, he has got peoples car struck, or needing mechanics costing them more than the car, two tyres flat instead of one. The list goes on and on, he deals with them, he has removed them from my life, sometimes they have sealed their fate and died. Its really scary, but its on them, my father says, I am the apple of his eye, he says, I am the only one to sit in judgement, he says, I will give you all power and all I have to give you.

So, take this reminder, take this little post from me, from the lessons I have learned.

Its been a reflective time, to sit, to learn to understand a bigger understanding, and just how big he really is.