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How God works for you…

I was reminded about a time when I was in labour with my son, because I had, had so many problems carrying him, the birth was just another episode.

What was brought to my remembrance was his birth, in the country hospital there were two rooms for birthing. Another lady was brought in and my doctor was going back and forth to each room.

He mentioned at the time, one of us would contract then the other, he was betting on who would be first, he said the lady in the other room.

At one point, I told him I felt like I was going to burst, he looked at me and said, “scissors” and snipped the area to expand for delivery, I let out a huge “yeow’ and everyone in the room looked stunned, I knew there was no time for numbing.

And then the most amazing thing happened just when I needed God the most and didn’t know it, the lady who was really going strong, her labour stopped for 15 minutes.

This was the time that the doctor needed with me, when he was born, the cord was cut, and he stopped breathing for 7.5 minutes. My doctor was not one to be rattled, but he knew, what did he know, well from conception, then nearly losing him at 2.5-3 months.

How sick I was, and the relationship I was in and how much stress I was under.

But once he started to breath, they all fell in love with him, and then the other lady’s delivery happened, even my doctor said, this was divine intervention, I did not understand it then, but yesterday, how awesome.

Some babies are just different. And he was beautiful, one of the nursing staff would come in and ask to cuddle him, then she was in line to change him and give him a bath, it was lovely. They all stated how he would wake up, and if no one came and got him to feed he’d just go back to sleep.

He was so calm and so gorgeous, trust me this was not just me. But when we were going home, he cried for the first time. One of the nurses said, that he must know something is changing.

I thought a father should love their baby, but not all men are created equal, and I was going through so much, that being in the midst of it all you cannot label it, but your just manage each moment.

How good was God, to stop the other lady and leave time for my son to have all the attention to get him breathing and take care of my stitches etc and then he was free to care for the other room.

Thank you, father, so much, my son may not be aware of this, but one day I pray, he understands, just what a miracle he is.

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Sometimes you just gotta make that decision…

I was in bed this morning having a cup of tea, reading the word, saying my thoughts etc.

Then, my son and daughter came to mind.

When I surrendered my life to Jesus, it wasn’t a halfhearted, and only a words thing. Going through the motions, it was all in. In doing so, I put him first, then the church, then my kids and it wasn’t a, oh I love them any less. It is just the way; I felt that I had to prioritize my life and who I served.

As a mum, you do so much good and you get things wrong, because your only human. But then you get things in the right order and when you select a path as I have. It’s not about a cord holding me anymore, it is about standing and standing sometimes means, you have to stand alone.

I had never felt like I fitted anywhere before, yes, I tried, but something inside would not settle. And all along it was him, inside me and bringing to my remembrance that time where my first testimony happened.

So, this morning as I was sitting quietly in bed, I said these words, “father even if my children, don’t end up in heaven, it is a choice in life they have to make, and I am okay if it’s just me.” Now for me, the old version, the worlds version, this is huge.

And it’s not about me being a anything more or less than what I am. I just love my father Jesus, I stand in the place I am, because he has saved me over and over, when I have not felt like I deserved it.

My realisation is this, they are adults, they have a choice. They can end up in hell, burning naked for eternity or select the narrow path, sacrifice and end up in heaven.

Their decision is there’s alone, I am not going to waste my time and let emotion take hold. I have things he wants me to do. It is not a cold decision; it is not about me loving them less. Its finally me standing up for what I believe and not cowering to pressure.

I am not the enemy here, so stop pointing the finger. See with open eyes, instead of those poisoned by the world and those in it. Maturity, is making a calm educated choice…

Yes, I can still love them, but I will not be held back anymore, because my choice doesn’t suit them.

I pray, they come to the realisation of the truth, before it’s too late.

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It is written

In the morning I add the good morning too, the word.

Why, because it is written the word is a living word, not just in black and white.

I keep thinking of the lady that had a word for me, “you will write a book, a book held up by leaders of nations”. What always astounded me is, really me, or the father through me. Leaders, does that mean politicians or leaders of churches…

I always think far too much, I think and talk to the father all the time, because I do have the time.

Years ago, I was so busy with life, work etc I forgot to make time for him, when I should have put him first.

I listen sometimes to the radio in my car, its a christian channel and what gets me is when someone calls in, they are going through really tough times and the word comes to me instantly. The keys of life according to the father. The other thing is, they don’t seem to know what to say or do, but an opportunity is right there and they say nothing.

Experience is a hard thing to handle at the time, but what it gives you is training, to help the person that he puts in front of you.

I remember years ago, I was still learning and new to it all, what stuck me was the word trust, trust him, when it all comes to a head, trust.

When I got a message saying my daughter had tried to end her life, I put the phone down, I refused to accept the message, I spoke as if he was directly in front of me and I said, “father I said I trust you with my life and that of my children, I trust you to pull her through, I trust that she may have to learn but you will not fail me”. I was at my Pastors house sitting next to my Pastors wife who was also a Pastor, for a moment she was speechless and then after I stood on his word, I showed her the message, then I laughed. I laughed hard, why in such a horrible time, because I considered this attack of the enemy as foolish attack. We both ended up laughing she was so impressed to see what was taught become and action. Because who rules, and who has no power if you don’t allow it…

That written word and its keys are yours, stand on them, call them in when you need them, where ever you are. You need too, I will stop and do it, because I know its power.

The father is happy when you do this, because he knows, that you know and his love can shine on your life.

My daughter is engaged and she is so happy, she had come through, because of my prayer and belief that in HIS time, HIS season he would work a miracle called Sarah.