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How I still make excuse, when later…

How many times do you think your hearing a suggestion, and later you think, oh that was him directing me and I missed it again. I feel so bad and so dumb for not being aware of listening.

It is a fact, the switch between reacting via a human thought and the spiritual is always something. I have too be aware of, lately I have had dreams etc, so real, I wake up confused and have to settle myself, realising the correct day etc.

I know things are taking place, I know things are coming, but it is really un balancing, when your here, but not.

I experience things, I realise not many do, but I also am very aware he is trying to either warn me, or make it okay for me to deal with when it happens.

I have always realised when a persons time is coming to and end. I have realised when the earth is angry, I have felt tremors in the earth before the earthquake. Its like being on his level of awareness and not the worlds.

It is sometimes strange but especially if someone has touched something, I can feel the energy, good or bad that they have touched it with, walking past someone if suffering abuse, I have felt it.

I believe its something I was born with, a gift that makes me listen to the atmosphere and nature around me, because he speaks in many ways.

Things happen all the time and people are not listening because they think, that they only hear with their ears. Why, because the world trains us that there are only 5 senses, but with God, you have so much more.

I know I am unique, I remember times with mum, she would ask me questions, an example, as we drove into our home town, “what do you hear?”. My reply, “the trees are clapping” I would make a statement, that would to mum come out of left field, but if I was agitated, stating I was in or around someone or somewhere dangerous. Mum always knew, I had something, I had a awareness that she couldn’t understand, but very much acknowledged.

Remembering the last house mum bought, every time I went through this little hall way, I felt like I had to duck, she questioned me and I told her something is wrong in the roof, I don’t know what, but its not right. I was pacing after every time so she got someone to go up the man hole, and sure enough a frayed wire was ready to spark and start a fire.

Moving here, I felt and saw a black mark behind a wall of my bedroom door, I felt something was not okay. I didn’t know what but I knew I knew. Turns out a termite nest was behind the door and instantly I said to my Landlord, the guy knew, the one who sold the house so quickly, he knew.

Sure enough after he pushed, he confessed to it, saying that’s why he sold the house, because termites were found and he didn’t deal with them there and then.

When I share something, I hope people do listen…

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How long does an answer take

How long is a piece of string… that is the answer.

He will do what he needs to do in your life, when you have surrendered.

Lately I have asked for JUSTICE, justice for those who have come against me, justice to those who need to change their ways before its too late.

I always see there lives as a long piece of elastic, they keep going until, I ask and it snaps back.

I am not to blame, I am doing it in love, but the blame is looking at them in the mirror.

You have to face that mirror, you have to change, or change will be forced onto you.

So, when I ask, I know the answer comes quickly, because I see his work, I see his understanding of why and I do not do it maliciously.

Love covers all.

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It is written

In the morning I add the good morning too, the word.

Why, because it is written the word is a living word, not just in black and white.

I keep thinking of the lady that had a word for me, “you will write a book, a book held up by leaders of nations”. What always astounded me is, really me, or the father through me. Leaders, does that mean politicians or leaders of churches…

I always think far too much, I think and talk to the father all the time, because I do have the time.

Years ago, I was so busy with life, work etc I forgot to make time for him, when I should have put him first.

I listen sometimes to the radio in my car, its a christian channel and what gets me is when someone calls in, they are going through really tough times and the word comes to me instantly. The keys of life according to the father. The other thing is, they don’t seem to know what to say or do, but an opportunity is right there and they say nothing.

Experience is a hard thing to handle at the time, but what it gives you is training, to help the person that he puts in front of you.

I remember years ago, I was still learning and new to it all, what stuck me was the word trust, trust him, when it all comes to a head, trust.

When I got a message saying my daughter had tried to end her life, I put the phone down, I refused to accept the message, I spoke as if he was directly in front of me and I said, “father I said I trust you with my life and that of my children, I trust you to pull her through, I trust that she may have to learn but you will not fail me”. I was at my Pastors house sitting next to my Pastors wife who was also a Pastor, for a moment she was speechless and then after I stood on his word, I showed her the message, then I laughed. I laughed hard, why in such a horrible time, because I considered this attack of the enemy as foolish attack. We both ended up laughing she was so impressed to see what was taught become and action. Because who rules, and who has no power if you don’t allow it…

That written word and its keys are yours, stand on them, call them in when you need them, where ever you are. You need too, I will stop and do it, because I know its power.

The father is happy when you do this, because he knows, that you know and his love can shine on your life.

My daughter is engaged and she is so happy, she had come through, because of my prayer and belief that in HIS time, HIS season he would work a miracle called Sarah.

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Do you see what I see….

Many many times, I see signs and wonders.

Why, because I take notice, I may have had a thought and a desire and low and behold it turns up.

This happens very frequently, and I love it, also appreciating the love with which it is given.

There is a way of looking at the world, through a child’s eyes, seeing those things, adults miss, because we get taught to be abrasive, or ignore the little things.

But the little things all add up, to one big ball of love hugs.

And with that, I am blessed and with the knowledge, I am loved.

So tell him you love him, tell him, talk to him and just be with him…

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Are you happy today?

Fair question, are you happy or you just saying it to please me.

Many times we say something nice, but are we lying to ourselves and others.

I have been one and my mum loved it, you ask, be prepared for the truth. Does this look good on me, no, if it does then I will also say that.

I would rather a little hurt now, than a big bomb coming.

So many people forget to laugh, once here it snowed, it was only for a short time and a freak weather event here.

But instead of those grumbles in the supermarket, I laughed and loudly, others looked at me and I told them, its funny.

We get taught to whinge, whine etc, but turn that over and laugh. So unexpected, why not see the beauty and the fun it is, instead of being a miserable bugger.

I get surprised and laugh, I get deliveries and I thank them with all the respect they deserve, because being nice, doesn’t hurt, but it makes the world, just a little bit nicer.

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Chased values….

In life I have seen people chase a value, what on earth am I on about now, do you ask.

Well, some chase appearing a certain way, they may not have the funds to back it up or the lifestyle, but they only want the rated products in there life, whether it be people or material things.

Problem with that chasing, you forget to live, you forget to laugh, you forget to just be. And you run around, not getting anywhere.

I have always been told, unless its the best, then you have to keep pursuing, well I beg to differ.

You see, I want to be happy, which I am, I want to be present for today, which I am, tomorrow he has in hand, so why always want want want.

I am not impressed by your bank balance or the Bentley you drive, I am not impressed by the jewels the people you know or anything like that.

I believe you have to know your true self, you have to be real and you need to stop focusing on the stuff that really doesn’t matter.

For so long, it been a strong hold to respect the things given to me, but then you end up with a mountain of things you never used. So I am going to make a list, pin it and get rid of those things, given a certain amount of time and out she goes.

I want those things I use, whether they are cheap or not. Clutter and the one day message drummed into me, enough.

I know what I need, what I like and the rest, …..

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The father, WILL have HIS way

I am so thankful, thankful for the result of the American voting.

Its not about the man, its about the father within the man.

You see, man can be so stupid, but once the father within comes forward, major things in his plan, can take place.

So many who do not see or believe, want to run, but where do you go, when he has known you from the beginning to the end, who sees your heart, can hear your thoughts etc etc.

There is no where to run, the father has a plan for this world, he has things that must take place.

Why, because the world is about to have a huge and I mean huge wake up call…

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Returns…

Now this comes down in many forms, for me.

I use to find it almost impossible to return anything that I bought, I would just pass it on.

But, it is the same with something you have wrestled with, I am shedding all that the enemy has tried to lob onto me and sending back to the returns item bin.

I said something, in our prayer meeting that took on the enemy. It caused physical ailments and really hit me, but I retract what I said, I apologise father for I did not know, why I thought I had the power to face him and why it was anything to do with me.

You see, I accused the accuser, yes it was that simple and boy, do not ever do this. I cancel out this statement to the four corners of the universe of heaven and earth.

Father please accept my apology and allow, my body to reset. In Jesus mighty name.

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How do you spend what he provides

Many a time, when I worked in the city, I would see many bags, the expensive stores and the people carrying them, not so happy.

I was always taught, pay you rent, bills, then food. What is left over can be either to put away for something your planning to buy as a need, not a want. Or to buy items you have needed for a while.

I have stuck to this all my life.

I use to watch the nonnas and how they would buy multiple, of soaps, toilet paper etc, when a great deal was to be had and it works.

This time of year with the black Friday sales, I keep my eyes on those shops I know fit my build, I love $4.95 deals on cloths. I like buying old winter stock that is cheap, because I keep my eyes peeled on the prices.

I recently got 4 pairs of pants, 2 jumpers and 1 shirt, all for that amazing price and they are good quality and stylish.

Coming back to that, I have all my life tried to hide, anything that makes me shine, I have hidden from. Well not anymore, I have got things that are just right and just me.

The other day I felt so good, I went and bought some makeup, yes me (this is huge for me).

What is the big deal, I had clinique and being hyper hyper allergenic, I could not wear it because, my eyelash follicles burned and itched, my skin would feel hot and like someone had stuck me with a cactus, my skin for weeks would be so aggravated, even a breeze would hurt.

yes, I am that sensitive. I am also allergic to vitamin c, which is in many products.

But I found a 50% off a mineral brand, I have researched and they said it should work with sensitive skin, so I bought 3 items, to give it a go.

And, it worked, I am so happy, I look 20 years younger, I need a few more basics, but yeehaa.

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Mum…

Lately, I have felt my mum, so strongly, in the morning as I say good morning to all of the above. I have added in my mum, I bought a quilt cover, that she would have loved and every time I walk past or into my bedroom, I am filled with love.

Something my mother had was woolen blankets and secretly, I have always wanted a certain style of them, and have waited till now, I have recently purchased two, one on the bed for summer and the other in wait for winter to come around again.

Woolen blankets have come a long way, not scratchy, not heavy, but once I washed it, there was a bit of fluff, so on the cloths line, I got a soft brush and brushed the excess fluff off. It can take a couple of washes but, defiantly worth it. I feel like my mum is giving me a warm hug, and it makes me smile.

I have gone from feeling so strongly as to why a life was filled with abuse, hurt and sadness, to disconnecting from some of her children and just loving the first Larry and me the last. I found with what she had been through, dishonor, disrespect, and lies got you banished from her emotions. And she would not change her stance, once your done, your done.

But I am so glad we were friends before she transitioned to her eternal life. I am very much the same way, you do something bad against me, your done. Yes I will be polite and tolerate you, but I will be on guard always after that. And yes it has to be pretty bad for that to happen.

Every time I do something, I think of mum, I think if she couldn’t then as long as my father is ok with it, then I can. Both of them knew my heart, you see, you have to understand someone, what there past has been forming them, why they do the things they do, to understand them, to love them. Even through the mucky parts, it makes sense, when you don’t just see mum, but Ruth herself.

Then everything fell into place, I understand, I saw her and loved her so much, she knew it, because she told me, “Bronie, I really do love you, you know that don’t you” those words are what is valued by me.

Love you mum…