I was at the doctors yesterday and this struck me as so simple.

Men have issues going to the doctor, but will service their cars, wash them, etc.

But going to the gym and looking after your fitness is again not enough, get your butt to the doctor for a once a year service, have your blood test to check your prostrate.

Be active, in maintenance, if you have a family and care for those around you, then getting a problem, before it over takes your life is much more logical than ignoring a simple action.

Yes, I believe God heals, but I also believe a back up plan, is better because who knows when the enemy will try and take you out.

Women are assaulted in many ways, especially once you become pregnant, I personally have made sure, as I call it go in for a service check.

Because you would not expect a car to work without petrol, or oil would you, or being charged for those modern cars.

So, this little post just may save a life, for someone reading it, who has a hidden darkness not yet aware of…

Why the msg needs to be heard is this.

If I had been in a house with those who stood, protected me and believed in me, I would not have gone through what I did.

Its this simple, if your worldly dad is an abuser and has sexually transmittable diseases, one is a pedophile, another is a gas lighting narcissist, another is an avoid-er, and another is so emotionally cut off and then you grow up, hating your body, hating even considering you have a very intelligent mind, or anything good going for you, then that carries onto your children.

Why, because you do what has been learned…

YOU become part of those you have desired with all your might to separate from.

But then, the real father comes in, then he opens your eyes, helps you to ask for forgiveness and to ultimately forgive yourself.

My life could have been so different, but if all that had to take place to be here today, I praise God, for allowing me to be trained in ways, not many can…

I am sharing this, because I find it so sweet and tender.

Yesterday I got a msg, telling me they saw they guy, Nick Vujicic, with my head and what they heard from God.

Now, this is not to big wig myself, for I am not doing this for any validation, for it comes from the father.

So, I watched his video’s and as I answered the msg, confirming who they were talking about, its not what you don’t have, its what you DO have.

I not only loved whom it came from, but the msg, God trying to inspire me, with each step I take.

And, I can see myself speaking my story and making change, for all those who have suffered and felt unheard or unseen. He still sees you and that is more than anyone acknowledging you.

What…

I was flicking through the channels and some revolting comment was made “put a muzzle on your woman”.

Now, this beef head as I would call him in the moment, for some reason has been taught, that a woman is of lesser value, when without women, where would he be and where on earth did his brain get wired to think the wrong way.

So, after I huffed and puffed something struck me, some boys are led to believe there is such a thing as a bro code.

What on earth, I would call it the idiots club, I am being honest here, I had to watch the episode, why, I wanted to see what was said to rebuke him. I saw a group of men, look down, look around the room, but all trying to avoid eye contact and answering the question put to them.

Then I dug deeper, why was this hitting me in the spot of zero to wanting to get in their face, (I am being honest with how I felt).

I waited a few days, then I got it, most MALES have not been fathered, yes they may have a male in their life, but whats missing, a man’s leadership. A man, would shut it down, stand up for the comment to be quashed and settle the situation, instead of trying to hide from the hard task, or be mature.

So realising that, a male is not a man, a man is not a man because he has fathered a child or is of a certain age. He is the one, who stands when others, do not. There is a huge difference between a male and a man, or a giant matured boy.

He is the one who hears the comment and or actions and stops it in its tracks, he will not do it because of friendship or alpha males etc. He will stand for the right to dignity of everyone and lead the way.

Men need to realise, its the same with women, I will say what needs to be said, but I will not do it, because I want a certain outcome, most of the time I will wait for the (what do you think comment). There are women, who manipulate, play the game and will go along with gossip etc, because they too have not been taught, or come to the realization, you have to step up, you have to step out and make change, and not sit back and whinge or whine.

You need to realise, what your doing and make a choice, to be the exception, and not the rule.

So, as you have read this, what is your outcome, are you a follower, are you a joiner, are you a passenger, or are you capable of standing, when others will not or cannot…..

I just had a visit and we discussed someone we both know.

I read a list of description and bingo, with everyone, I got a YES.

It sometimes takes a little boost to make you feel better, to backup your reasoning as to why things happen the way they do.

That’s 3 now who have agreed with the description. Without me adding any fuel to the fire, I just ask does this describe someone and its the same person every time.

So, before I leave today, thank you father, thank you for taking the blinders off those I know, who know her too.

I pray those girls are interrupted to NOT believe a lie, and either seek me for the truth or see with their own eyes.

Now, father if you can get to my son, as my daughter figured it out. My prayers are being answered as you can only fool people some of the time, but you cannot fool all the people, all of the time.

Just got that and yeehaa

Well mainly because someone, wants to control another.

But instead of learning, it aint your will, but his will, you start playing big to get your own way and kill the innocent, to gain power.

When you cut that down, power is an illusion, for you truly never really have it.

Many people will agree, to save face, or keep peace, but secretly disagree, for not many will stand and say, ”I do not agree”.

So when this happens, a leader will throw a hissy fit and cause a war, to get their own way.

That is what I think, and when the time comes, are they in for a shocker. For judgement day, is coming for you, and where you end up, for your eternal life.

And to end with, “fair crack of the whip”, being a real man, you are in need to be MATURE ENOUGH, to understand someone others point of view and agree to disagree… not destroy because you can..

I was just checking my stats, then Donald Trump came to mind.

He takes the foolish to confound the wise, think about it.

Sometimes, someone who seems foolish, over puffed etc, but may be used via the father, to make you learn a key principle.

Food for thought isn’t it.

And thinking of the national anthem, the home of the free, really, well until you over step, then every power will try and jail you or stop you….

Again food for thought..

I was about to leave and this came to mind.

When someone is TELLING YOU something, does it ever in your head.

Scream, hang on a cotton picking minute. To me this has happened many times, why, I believe its the holy spirit, warning me.

Telling me, something is coming to try and destroy you. I believe its him showing me, they are not to be trusted, they are being used via the enemy, to kill, steal and destroy.

Hmmm, what about those words, I have someone in mind, who has taken great satisfaction, in stealing, trying to destroy and kill relationships, so they think they can stop me.

Funny how stupid the enemy is, he uses people, he is after them as much as me, but I have the father on my side, so who is the looser… hmmmm

I asked once, when a certain someone I walked away from tried everything to abuse me. Then the bible held the key, when I walked away from family. When the demon in you, is ejected, he goes out into the desert, and he comes back with more, to infiltrate you. In short, how many put up the NO VACANCY sign, when this is done. I thank God all the time, but especially for this, because I see what he has shown me.
And when your refilled with more demons, seeing that in someone is scary, because of their end.

They are no longer seeing from their eyes, but are consumed by the spirit, no not a spirit but a demonic force, to destroy, all surrounding them. And its them, I have prayed for…

I use to have a body, that was hour glass shaped and I hated it. I was taught by disgusting men, to loath it. Even when others would envy its natural state.

So, at one point, I stopped eating, yes, stopped even water was a push, why, feeling my skin crawl because of living with daily, what I had to endure, my future mother in law was aghast, because of the bony state I was in.

As I have said before, very openly, because I work under the words, “the truth will set you free”.

Knowing how it feels to loath yourself and anyone touching you, or their words.

I am learning to love my body, why, its time for one, two only I have the power to control, who comes near me, I choose, not anyone else and if they say something I don’t like, the look of disapproval comes over my face, and I stopped many years ago, saying “oh that’s ok”. I say, “thank you for your apology, much appreciated”, instead.

So, with the new hype about weight loss injections, something didn’t stick, something is wrong, why, you don’t mess with your pancreas. To just be the weight others want you to be, I am overweight by others standard, because its been my shield, many are not over weight because of food, it can be mental, not physical.

I am never going to fit the norm, because even when I was size 11, someone always found fault, so I am just gonna love me, all of me. If that don’t fit you, then that is YOUR problem, as long as I eat the right things and am happy, what is YOUR problem, well really I don’t give a flying fig and I don’t need you, to answer.

Having had illness over my life, and operations, being healthy is a great goal. Not the size I am, it has taken a long time to look in the mirror and then to like me.

So, I say this, if you want a quick fix, it doesn’t exist without costing you something or even your life.

I have given myself permission to loose weight the brain has held onto. But I am not forcing it, I am allowing my body to do its thing, I am not following a diet, I am eating nourishing food.

It is that simple, how you see me, is your battle, not mine. I want to live a happy life, whatever form or shape that I come in, I have nothing less than you, if you look at it, I have understanding more than you ever could.

So who wins here, he does.

How many times in life, are we restricted, for coming up with ideas, or tapping into his spirit, because of how we daily are trained to comply.

I have never been one to follow along, and if I ever have, it hasn’t taken me long to awake from the slumber of trusting in someone, who is untrustable.

I always see things others, do not, I can invent things, see gaps in what they are doing, find the join in a link of the computer to over ride its program. I have stunned others and sometimes, I stun myself, because, many times, it just happens, without even me trying.

Thinking back to my childhood, many times, I would internally fight against what I saw and make the decision, I would not allow that to carry over into adulthood.

If I had, in my work place, listened to them all, I would have not succeeded in what I was able to accomplish. For sometimes, people need to be shown a new way, before they try and shut you down.

I have a secret love of spreadsheets and data bases, why, because the organisation, the ability to make it what I need and find the link, but also the power of correct information. To find the research of who and what and how, the key numbers etc.

But I don’t like accounting, I thrived when I worked in the city, because, while a certain someone tried to belittle me with a printed plan of building a data base, I could see instantly, what he could not. That gave me a feeling of power, because even though, he thought because of his career, position and education, he was superior to me, the table got turned around, real quick.

Not many people understand, how I can think, but while they are talking, I can break a sentence down, to key words. How a sentence, when you break it up, does not fit and you can pick up on a crap load of nothing, but manipulation or lies.

Many times, I play the stupid card, or gullible, because they seem to need, to have this superior complex, but I know what I know, its that simple, I am not saying I am better, just that I am not restricted.

I am the round hole, the square peg, doesn’t fit into, its that simple, I don’t think I have more than you, I just can see sometimes, what passes by you without you picking it up.

I have two inventions, processing through my brain, I have many ideas, new ways, etc etc every hour of the day.

And, this is my normal, I cannot just follow along when I can see the obvious. So don’t think you need to restrict your thinking, your not like everyone else, you are unique, so except it…