Keeping this one short, I was working on something, little by little and keeping it as something that is important to do.

It says to shout with joy when you get a bill and its paid.

Well, I kept doing this and used extra funds to put down as credits, and my last electricity bill came in 0.00

Yes, that is right 0 yahooo

I notice things have a pattern, things that others do not.

Like in Alaska the weather has been colder than ever before, here we had 42c day, the fires were burning the country and mountains, and I had to hide inside because smoke affects my breathing (asthma).

I find when we have weird weather you can see the other side will have the complete opposite.

But, as we might complain, we still will get in our petrol guzzling cars and big wasteful vehicles, because we are designed to be manipulated by ads.

I am saying when here, but when I have the money for a brand-new car, I will still look for a used one. Why, because I was taught it’s not about you can, it’s about should you.

So many get into debt and then spend lives trying to pay it off, because they want it now, instead of waiting for the right time, his time.

I know myself; I have had times I would have bought and spent and wasted, when there was no need too. To me it’s not about having a Bentley in the driveway, or owning a mansion, it’s about what do I need, what fits the purpose for me now.

I live in a humble little home, and I love the place, the wide street, watching as the years go by and seeing people move in and out of homes. Buying something bigger to spread out, but a couple of years they have too much space because the kids have gone and they are paying off a huge mortgage, instead of just making do, until they are all gone.

You see, I love a house that has a life lived by a family, how things have changed, walls were painted, rooms were adjusted, but still all those walls have a story to tell. Telling of the sad times, the fun times, all those Christmas’s when the house felt like it was bulging.

I watch a man who dresses in his worn track pants and t shirt, he is a multi-millionaire and drives a Mercedes. He still lives in the same house, with his wife and family, he could buy a new pair and get a haircut, it’s what I think every time I see him.

It’s funny how we see things, I see dry riverbeds in new estates, and where not to build, I can appreciate them and wish the owners well. I know what I need and that all must come after my father, not before and definitely not before time.

Time has its own pattern, its own rhythm and locking into that grove is where I belong, everything to come this year father, I receive with joy….

This week has been action week, I am waiting on my new cpap machine, I have been saving extra hard to make sure I get one. So, I can return the borrowed one from the hospital and someone else can get it.

But also, a transition car, I have been looking at Volvo’s because the seats look amazing and with my back, I need amazing instead of so uncomfortable.

I am thinking of putting up a sign, free stuff and putting all my extras outside, but I would also like to pass them onto domestic violence place, because when we had to leave, I did think of others and how they cope when they need to exit without taking anything but themselves.

When I do something, I think of every avenue, why, because when you have all options laid out and you have done all the research, you can make the best decision.

It has just hit me again; I am not limiting myself to a brand or a level of something that I don’t deserve. When you are his child, you deserve anything, and everything all at the same time.

Looking ahead to far greater expectations of things and more.

NOTE: My children have their birthdays today one is 37 the other is 35 omg, so amazing that I remembered, and only because yesterday I was buying meat and checked the date on my phone. lol

And I make it to New Years 2027

As it hits close to midnight, the knowledge that living on a hill you get to see a vast view of the Melbourne and surrounding suburbs.

It was great to walk out my front door and see the beautiful lights, everyone was out looking, and I yelled out happy new year, then met a new neighbour.

We chatted for a while, after finding out how long I had been here and what I knew about the street. She said to me, “aren’t you scared living by yourself” I told her I grew up in the country, “you hit first and ask questions later and I will be taking DNA”.

She was surprised and I shared how I had been scared for 26 years of my life and I am done. You take me on, be warned, I do not stand alone. As I told her I believe in God and she told me she does too, I shared a few stories how he settles and I don’t have to fight but just encase I have things set up for protection.

I love it how the father, gives you an opportunity to speak, just when you don’t expect it.

But as I keep living on this earth one thing I know, every day is a new day to share his name….