Sometimes the sheer lengths he goes to, to give you a message to me is beautiful.

It’s kind of funny, the little hints, like hello are you paying attention Bronie.

I find more and more, if I slow down, he has many things to show me, how he puts things in front of me and shows me another way.

Why, because we as humans always think we know the way, but really, we have no real clue at all.

I love it, I love the way he gives me an answer, how he shows me the way. It’s so tender, so gentle and sometimes, he is bam, HELLO. I have to laugh, it’s like having a friend you don’t see, but know there is no other way the message can be formed, because he gives you a second to confirm.

I do wish this time of year many pay attention and be open minded, because his love for you is beautiful.

Just breath, just be and trust him.

As I finished writing the last post, I got this, whatever era your life is in right now, count your blessings.

For, how you take each lesson on, is how your future plays out.

It is very much a lesson to learn and to keep in a safe place, for his lessons are the very best and needed even when we cannot see it YET…

God gives each one of us, gifts and talents to use, and build upon.

So, I had my monthly doctors visit and yes, many times, I think I am there to show how my faith keeps it real.

At my local doctors the receptionists, one has been so nice to me, so understanding and I found out last minute she was having twins.

My brain goes into auto pilot, what can I do that is low on cost, but meaningful as a gift. I found a bag on YouTube nappy bag, but I had to adjust it, I finished off two blankets, I had things sitting not finished, so it was a great find, making a simple bag, out of my stash of material. The worst part is it takes me a month, to sew something that would only take another a couple of hours. I know a few tricks that can take something that looks hard to simple zip zip and done.

I went online and found some muslin washers, summer outfits and then took it in with a big ribbon wrapped up. Funny, left it with my doctor, and she was raving about it, I told her not to look to close.

My mum taught me how to sew, then sewing was at school. One of my many jobs over the years was in a clothing factory, one machine no one else could master but I did. Even the bosses couldn’t figure it out, so when I left, they asked me back to train someone, because when you have a contract, it even comes down to 2 or 4 stitches over the tag to finish or amount of fabric sleeve length finished etc.

And, with my brain, if I can see it done, I know I can make it, and luckily most things I do laying down.

The excitement over what I never notice as a gift, I count this another blessing, not to make myself feel important or proud, but to bless someone else.

My gifts hospitality, cooking, sewing making thinks, this could be as simple as a bouquet of flowers from the garden. I know how to put things together to look really expensive, but cost is minimal.

This is an example a cheap box from what we call the reject shop, and tissue paper, get some of those truffle chocolates. Look in the kitchen aisle and see what you may be able to pick up to add in, A nice box open with tissue paper, a bottle of wine, glasses and truffle chocolate and maybe a xmas bit of bling included and clear cellophane and tie it up. It looks expensive but the last one I made in total cost me $12.

I like not buying what everyone else has, but making an original, because every person is individual and deserves something made with them in mind.

As I shop, an expensive looking candle half price or more, a mug and some home cooking (biscuits or slice) and some chocolates, made to look expensive and wholla.

After writing this, thank you father for granting me these gifts, it has brought joy to others and to me.

Sometimes it is very hard to figure out why certain things happen.

My car engine, when it died, somewhere inside of me, I knew the answer would be sitting waiting for it to come to a revelation, I just had to wait.

Sitting here this morning, it came to me, you see this time of year I don’t like it. Why, christmas has always had the worst memories, so all the people rushing around, my brain goes, nope I’m out of here.

Back to the point in question here, my car engine dying, it was God that kept it going, even my mechanic had to agree.

The blessing I found is, not being able to go out and be around all the madness, it is such a great gift, because with my PTSD, kids running around in aisles etc, nope I get so overwhelmed.

Instead, I have got on board with many deliveries which has been absolutely fabulous, but when I have had appointments, calling a taxi when I absolutely have no choice. Then I spread the blessing of God and his goodness.

So many people go overboard trying to do the best they can, but they get so stressed, so cranky, to me it doesn’t seem worth it.

And missing the point of the day, seems so obvious to me. But, I have found to shut up, the worst part is not being able to go out and find those hamper stuffers, my knees have really not been happy.

We have had a lot of cold days, then hot and back to cold. I am constantly checking my phone weather app to see what the heck it’s doing, even when it says it is not going to rain, you get a quick shower, it is not normal summer. But again, that in itself has been a blessing because 35C days are very hard to manage, especially as I cannot find my fan plug, I put it somewhere sensible. HA, wherever that may be lol.

The point, I keep thinking about is, everything is not done to you, it’s done for you.

This tidbit of wisdom is key to understanding that God is in control, not you for his plan for your life is all laid out, you have just got to be patient.