As I grew up, I learned that changes meant and absolute upheaval of the worst kind.

I had to learn my place, and that I had to think small, for example buying little things. Big decisions were out of my league; I was taught to follow commands and rules.

Now this to many may not seem such a big deal, but when your almost frozen to buy a new washing machine etc, a car or a home were out of the question, it was beyond my capabilities, or so I thought.

How wonderful is the father, I had prayed, “father, please help me, so many seem to do this as a normal everyday way, I am blocked from doing so, please release me and allow myself to move forward without fear and be free and deserving of all you have for me.

And today, I realised the big decisions are minuet, this is the biggest break through this year, and I am so thankful, I feel a freedom, I have never in my life felt before.

Tomorrow in the first day of the new year and I here to celebrate everything to come.