Sometimes it is very hard to figure out why certain things happen.

My car engine, when it died, somewhere inside of me, I knew the answer would be sitting waiting for it to come to a revelation, I just had to wait.

Sitting here this morning, it came to me, you see this time of year I don’t like it. Why, christmas has always had the worst memories, so all the people rushing around, my brain goes, nope I’m out of here.

Back to the point in question here, my car engine dying, it was God that kept it going, even my mechanic had to agree.

The blessing I found is, not being able to go out and be around all the madness, it is such a great gift, because with my PTSD, kids running around in aisles etc, nope I get so overwhelmed.

Instead, I have got on board with many deliveries which has been absolutely fabulous, but when I have had appointments, calling a taxi when I absolutely have no choice. Then I spread the blessing of God and his goodness.

So many people go overboard trying to do the best they can, but they get so stressed, so cranky, to me it doesn’t seem worth it.

And missing the point of the day, seems so obvious to me. But, I have found to shut up, the worst part is not being able to go out and find those hamper stuffers, my knees have really not been happy.

We have had a lot of cold days, then hot and back to cold. I am constantly checking my phone weather app to see what the heck it’s doing, even when it says it is not going to rain, you get a quick shower, it is not normal summer. But again, that in itself has been a blessing because 35C days are very hard to manage, especially as I cannot find my fan plug, I put it somewhere sensible. HA, wherever that may be lol.

The point, I keep thinking about is, everything is not done to you, it’s done for you.

This tidbit of wisdom is key to understanding that God is in control, not you for his plan for your life is all laid out, you have just got to be patient.