I always wanted a relationship that many have, a closeness.

But, when you have a daughter that is damaged mentally, you know the limits.

I have to accept certain responses and know it is all I am going to get. There is not a fluid conversation and that I understand.

Recently she had a medical emergency and what did I do, go to the father, I will not feed into some emotional baggage. So, I call on him, I call on the understanding that whatever is to come, he is in control, not me.

When I told him, I trust him with my life, my children’s life and now my grandchildren, I meant every word.

It’s like when I said that I surrender my life to him, it does not, (to me) mean that I surrender until something else comes along, oh no. It means that I surrender, all of me, mind body and soul.

Some people need a husband, some need to have those around them to fill and emptiness they have. But, I need him, more than words, I need him, I need to be with him, it’s a drive in me, like nothing else.

So, as I prayed, I sit in trust, for whatever lesson or path, which he has planned, I sit in peace knowing he has me, all the way.