Have you seen things, that make you question, has the world gone mad or on it’s way.

It is so hard for me, I was brought up to honor your word, show respect, use your manners.

And today, I have to admit something terrible, I got angry and swore. Yes me, the young boy next door who is in high school knows better, but my PTSD goes through the roof when he just kicks and kicks the ball at my wooden fence, first time in years, I lost it, I yelled out and told him to learn skills instead of kicking it at the fence.

I know his dad has been missing for a couple of weeks, his car is there but he is not, and I know the boy, doesn’t like me, after what I yelled I wouldn’t either. I’m confessing it, because I feel so bad, I have been really angry at myself, my car has lost a cylinder and then another machine is playing up.

But then I think something good must be coming too, because things don’t come your way unless something is coming, oh lord please forgive me. Now I go into weeks of hating myself, no good saying sorry over the fence he has ear pods in all the time.

But I will when I see him apologize for what I said, even at my age you need to humble yourself. I saw something flicking through the channels last night that is playing on my mind and bugging me so bad, as to why I think the world has gone mad.