I often wonder this especially loving my father, because it can be so easy for some to slip.

Recently here the government allow you to apply for an amount, which is to be used for your electricity bills.

Now before it went straight onto the bill, before that it was into the bank account, now its back to that.

Many would think oh, I can spend it on…. well, I don’t I checked my account and found it had arrived, so as I sat and ate my breakfast, I went on in-between and added it to my electricity account.

Why, isn’t that being honest when he is watching you. Don’t you feel the need to be honest, if I used it for something else, I would feel so guilty. Because it is for your bills, not a go waste it fund, like many seem to do.

My dad was a compulsive liar; he even lied that much he couldn’t remember what he lied about.

So, growing up, I would be so honest, I would get into trouble, or my mum would tell me to go for a short walk, so I wouldn’t find out anything.

We tell our children not to lie, but we tell them to believe in Santa, and did you know you can make the word (SATAN) out of the letters, hmmm. We tell them about the tooth fairy, easter bunny, but what are we allowing, lies.

Sometimes it is hard to step forward and be honest, but like I have said before, when I am asked a question, you may not like the answer I give, but I am going to love you enough to be honest.

If that hurts, maybe it could be my delivery, but maybe it could be your maturity level.

I used to tell my kids, Santa is an old man dressed up at the shops, I am not just big and jolly for nothing, I work hard to collect gifts to give you at Christmas, but we really celebrate because it’s Jesus’s birthday.

Same with easter, marketing has pushed the emphases to spend, spend, spend, but we celebrate because he died and rose again. Every easter Friday, I feel the depth of the enormity in which he was crucified for us, and on Sunday I feel a joy that he rose again and is around us.

I am still so touched that my hairdresser said to me, no one thinks or behaves like you do and shows joy, laughter and kindness. I still go back to my mum, ” when god made you, he broke the mold”.

The world teaches us to judge, to criticise, to get angry, to pick and prod until they fall over. Why, why aren’t you doing as he has written, love thy neighbour, not just the neighbour’s, but those around you as you go out.

A smile is priceless, a bit of kindness spreads kindness, a laugh and the world will laugh with you. I have social anxiety at times it is really hard, but I will push because what the enemy used for bad, I will turn it around for my fathers good.

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