It says, we are to be like Jesus, we are a son and daughter like him, made in his image.

Now, man, puts on gowns, lives in a house that has gold candles urns, rules etc.

Why, why do we have pull things apart, then build something that has no spirit of him. Why, why do many follow or worship a human man or an idol, when it clearly tells us otherwise.

Why, because I think many become lazy, we haven’t enough time to read the word ourselves, we want to go through the process, to lie to ourselves that if we just go to church then were okay.

The word says to care for others, to look after the widows and orphans, it says, who do you choose him or money, what is your driving force. I am not saying it’s wrong to have money, but if it is more than him on your radar, then it is wrong.

I have watched others chase after wealth, chase after a reputation, chase an illusion. But then, say they love the lord, but nothing they do out of church shows it.

Your word is to honor, what you say, you do. You give, but instead of trying to make yourself feel good, you do it in his name. You don’t do it for brownie points, it is done with grace.

I sit in my humble little home and have a desire to have the means to go out and speak to people, whatever that may entail. For the time being, this is an avenue to use, because there is more than one of speaking, more than one way, to hear from someone who has had experiences and come out the other side, feeling okay, knowing that Jesus was there.

I have a piece on my Facebook page “Hardships often prepare ordinary people, for extraordinary things” I could never understand, why I had been through so much, and many times it felt like the air was taken out of my lungs.

But this is what I see, seeing that all that pain, all those tears, all that fear, everything was training. It was to be used by him, for when the right season comes and for those who need to hear. Hearing and understanding from another person, who has lived it, makes a window open. It allows you to see that, if you have lived through much trauma, if you hold on and only hold onto the father.

The world opens up, it is like a dark sky, turning blue again, to a blue that no one has ever seen before.

We need to stop looking at things via our human eyes, we need to stop wanting evidence, when I am here right in front of you. I used to always think of those who disbelieve, what do they need to be hit over the head.

Many will always question the reality of what many of us know as the truth. But it is because I believe, they are so integrated with the world, they cannot think for themselves anymore, they cannot see past, what is right in front of them. They don’t feel anymore, they have no perception of something outside of their own reality.

I look at religions and think, you stand you sit, you listen. But do you pray in tongues, is that leader filled with the spirit, is that leader working for the father or the enemy. Has that leader been corrupted or are they following a religious doctrine set out by a man.

I want people to read the word, I didn’t start at the beginning, I asked the father, so he started me at James. I am led by my father; he is where my eyes need to be focused. I need to make sure I read; I pray, I listen and hearing and listening are very different. Listening is taking it in; it is finding the key in the message.

Jesus spoke to many people, but where did he speak. I think for me this is key, why, at the moment sitting is not my friend, nor is walking. I need to make sure I give him minimum of 5 minutes of each, each day, if I do more, great. But doing so, does not make me more special than anyone else.

I remember my mum saying, when I did something that touched her heart, “when god made you, he broke the mold” It took me a long time to agree with this, because I never understood it. Now I do, now I get it, I get why I am here, I am understanding the process.

I also understand why, as I am here writing this down, he is leading me to a book. But I need to make sure, it’s him directing the words, working through me to jot down, the message. And as I finish for today, I remember a prophetic word a lady said to me, “You are going to write a book, that will be held up by leaders of nations, and your name will be written in the pages of history”.

Bring it on Lord…