I like to have backup…

So something is going on, security is required for my family, please pray for the safety and an outcome to put the person in prison.

Without any harm to us…

As I get older, I feel it more and more, people think or treat me as if I’m stupid.

Well, my monitor died and I had to get another one, but my plugs are different, so I found a converter and plugged her in, reading the manual of course.

And yay for allowing him to assist, she works and to why I am typing away now. LOL

Recently something took place and I got angry…

I’m not talking about just anger here, I’m talking about spitting fire balls.

Why, I was at my appointment and I broke down crying, gasping for air. Why, well when I have had trauma, I have never been allow to deal, to acknowledge and to sooth. So it comes back as if I’m still there and that hits you.

But I also remember all the things and times that people have stolen from me and I got angry. But I also stated if the thief be found he must restore 7 fold, no weapon formed against me shall prosper.

And that old saying that hit first ask questions later. I grew up in the country and I will not back down, I will not hide and I will not live in fear again.

So, the little girl will be okay in me and I will rise like a phoenix. I am my fathers daughter and I know the power that comes with that.

Recently I have been trying to get out more, social anxiety kicks in and I lock myself away.

But, when you feel his kindness towards you and his assistance, it makes you believe you can go out and go shopping.

You see, people more than 3-6 start me off, people yelling, kids squealing. You know, the normal things, well, I’m out.

Yes, it has it days, depending on many things. Speaking with professionals its all linked to the trauma.

But I always say, a little kindness does wonders, it helps you, but I feel his presence, I know I am never alone and I can, because he made me.