As you may have read, its been really hard, my thyroid has been a nightmare of sorts, because of its affect on my body and mind.

With the added burden of little sleep on top of all that, I was done, I didn’t have any energy for anything or anyone. And I thought I was going to die…

I have since had it removed, and I am no longer chocking on it, feeling dizzy, but trying to heal while using a cpap sleep machine has been so hard.

I worked out yesterday that I was only getting about 2hrs 17mins of broken sleep a night, put that against a persons 8 solid hours and you may come close to understand, how tired I had become. In a week someone gets close to 48 to 50 hrs of sleep, solid sleep. I was living on 24 and struggling with every step I took.

Physical and mental exhaustion is a real thing, when I was doodling away yesterday working it out, I was shocked, but realised why I kept falling asleep, why driving was so scary and why I could not function at all.

Last week I had to go for a review and they are not happy with the blood work, so if you can please pray. I cannot do this again, mentally its too much, I am anxious, panicky etc etc. But I have to rely on the father, I have to come back to him and trust. I have nothing else but him and its what has got me through, along with a friends kind words.

Today is a milestone, but I keep wondering, how long for my body to feel energy at all. I think back and I have had trouble sleeping since I was in my 20’s, so its not going to be in a hurry, yesterday was a first, I only napped once, compared to 5 times in a day.

But going from 43 episodes to 3-8 is so much better, I was so scared to drive, having to pull over and take a few minutes or shake myself, not driving out of town, other drivers scare me, when they do scary things, then an attack happens and I start shaking, if they only knew, how hard it is.