I use to have a body, that was hour glass shaped and I hated it. I was taught by disgusting men, to loath it. Even when others would envy its natural state.

So, at one point, I stopped eating, yes, stopped even water was a push, why, feeling my skin crawl because of living with daily, what I had to endure, my future mother in law was aghast, because of the bony state I was in.

As I have said before, very openly, because I work under the words, “the truth will set you free”.

Knowing how it feels to loath yourself and anyone touching you, or their words.

I am learning to love my body, why, its time for one, two only I have the power to control, who comes near me, I choose, not anyone else and if they say something I don’t like, the look of disapproval comes over my face, and I stopped many years ago, saying “oh that’s ok”. I say, “thank you for your apology, much appreciated”, instead.

So, with the new hype about weight loss injections, something didn’t stick, something is wrong, why, you don’t mess with your pancreas. To just be the weight others want you to be, I am overweight by others standard, because its been my shield, many are not over weight because of food, it can be mental, not physical.

I am never going to fit the norm, because even when I was size 11, someone always found fault, so I am just gonna love me, all of me. If that don’t fit you, then that is YOUR problem, as long as I eat the right things and am happy, what is YOUR problem, well really I don’t give a flying fig and I don’t need you, to answer.

Having had illness over my life, and operations, being healthy is a great goal. Not the size I am, it has taken a long time to look in the mirror and then to like me.

So, I say this, if you want a quick fix, it doesn’t exist without costing you something or even your life.

I have given myself permission to loose weight the brain has held onto. But I am not forcing it, I am allowing my body to do its thing, I am not following a diet, I am eating nourishing food.

It is that simple, how you see me, is your battle, not mine. I want to live a happy life, whatever form or shape that I come in, I have nothing less than you, if you look at it, I have understanding more than you ever could.

So who wins here, he does.